The Last Entry for 2005..

So.. How was 2005? well, basically like any other year it has been a roller coaster ride.. the only difference is, this year, i have no complaints. Everything charge to experience without a doubt. I recall a couple of days ago, someone asking me "so.. if you got anything to change in the past year what would it be?".. my answer a couple of days ago was "March to May and probably the first two weeks December (Read the archives if you want info)". Anyways, ask me that question again.. and my answer would be "none".. I wouldn't change a DAMN thing! Why? because i just realized that the instances i want changed are turning points in my so called life.. so why change it right?!

Anyways, this is the last line i'mona write this year..

"IT'S NOT WETHER THIS YEAR OR NEXT YEAR IS THE YEAR.. IT'S HOW YOU MAKE OF IT! and this from As good as it gets.. "You make me want to be a better Man.. go figure!" "

HAPPY NEW YEAR! UNTIL THE NEXT YEAR!! PEACE!!

THE 2005 EDITION OF THIS BLOG SIGNING OUT!

One Way



Pray.. Pray.. Pray.. Pray..

First there was nothing
Not even the faint echo of a song
Loneliness was daily 4 me
until u came along
There was a gleam of stars in your eyes
I thought I'd never feel this way again
But u were the one 2 reach into my heart
And find in me a Friend
I could not ignore the magnetism
that I felt when u were near
And any problems plaguing my mind
would suddenly disappear
It was the rebirth of my heart
The day u became my friend
Because I knew from the moment
I held u that I would find something
like this again...

"Here's a ticket to your haven an the Happiest place on earth.. I enclosed it with a map so you won't get lost".. Merry Christmas

So I Say

I'm going in2 this not knowing what I'll find
but I've decided 2 follow my heart and abandon my mind
and if there be pain I know that at least I gave my all
and it is better 2 have loved and lost than 2 not love at all
In the morning I may wake 2 smile or maybe 2 cry
but first 2 those of my past I must say goodbye.

So now i can write again.. *Whew* and i thought i lost it..

Sometimes they can be the sweetest people in the world.. They treat you as if you are the best person in the world. It's not their job to do that actually, and they don't owe that to you, actually it's you who owe them for your existance right now, But they do that because they want to and because they love you.. and you mean the world to them

Sometimes though they can be the meanest people in the world.. They make you feel like you are low even though you are already at your lowest. They'd sometimes say things that you'd never imagine them to say to you.. words that would just make you break down and crawl for forgiveness for your shortcoming.. even though what you have done is far from criminal. And you know what? most of the time, it just happens that it's not your fault, and they'd still scream at you. Sad if you think about it.. because like what i said, they can be the sweetest people in the world.. and they can do this.. a drag really.. but as hard as it may seem to understand, they do this because they love you. They just go overboard sometimes on what they say or do. They're just scared basically, that something bad may happen to especially to you.

You just have to try and understand that, if you were in their shoes, you probably feel the way they do. it's hard really, it's hard to understand.. but you have to.. it's hard raising parents.. you know.. but that's how it goes..

Mon's Monologue

I don't know what to say really. 21 years into the biggest battle of my life and it all comes down to today. Either i heal as person, or i crumble, inch by inch, play by play.. until i'm finished. I feel like i'm in hell right now ladies and gentlemen, believe me. I can either, sit here and get the shit kicked out of me, or i can fight my way back into the light. I can climb out of this ditch and this doubt and this uncertainty and climb my way out of hell.. one inch at a time.. I know i can do it, but i feel like i can't. I feel as if i'm too old. I look around at your faces and i see young men and women and i think.. i made every wrong choice a teenager can make. I mean, I pissed away my chance in getting a good education, and i think i chased off the person who's dear to me.. lately, i can't even stand to see the face i see in the mirror..

As we get older, some things are taken away.. well that's part of life. You'll only learn that when you start to loose stuff. You find out life is this game of inches! Just like Basketball! Because the margin of error in either game, Basketball or life, are so small.. i mean, one half a step too late or too early and you don't quite make it, one half a step too slow or too fast and you don't quite catch it. The inches we need are everywhere around us! they're in every break of the game, every minute, every second..

I know i'm gonna fight for that inch! I know i'll tear myself and everyone around me in pieces for that inch! I'll claw with my fingernails for that inch.. because I know when you add up all those inches, that's gonna make the FUCKIN' difference between WINNING and LOOSING! between LIVING AND DYING! I'll tell you! because I know, in every fight, the guy who's willing to die is gonna win that inch! And i know, the reason why i still have any kind of life in me, is because i'm still willing to fight and die for that inch! BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT LIVING IS!

The inches infront of you! I know i can do it, but i can't do it alone. That's why i look at the person next to me, i look into his or her eyes. And i know i see this person who's willing to go that inch with me. I see this person who's gonna be there for me, because when it comes down to it, he'll know that i'll do the same for him or her! That's a friend ladies and gentlemen..

Now.. it's either i heal as a person.. or i stay as a bullshit individual..
That's life for me people.. that's all there is..

Cupid's Smile

The morning after that night,
I ran outside 2 feel the rain
and I stayed outside awhile
when the rain was done along came the sun
and this was Cupid's Smile!

Run and tell the angel,
This could take all night,
Think I need a devil to help me get things right,
Hook me up a new revolution,
Cause this one ain't a lie,
We sat around laughing and watched the last one ride,

I think I'm done nursing the patience
I can wait a long time,
I'd give it all away if you give me one try,
i'll live happily ever trapped if i continued this fight,
Run and tell the Angel that everything is alright.

I'm looking to the sky to save me,
Looking for a sign of life,
Looking for something to help me burn out bright,
I'm looking for a complication,
Looking cause I'm tired of lying
I'll make my way back home when I learn to fly..

The Tears In Cupid's Eyes

The day I chose 2 tell you
it rained constantly outside
In truth I swore the rain 2 be
The tears in Cupid's eyes..

ROY KEANE IN MADRID?!



Real Madrid say they are considering signing ex-Manchester United captain Roy Keane but have denied reports that he has already passed a medical.
The 34-year-old has been heavily linked with a move to Spain and he could be given a six-month deal at the Bernabeu.

NICE!!!

Question

I Never asked for a Ferrari,
nor Maseratti,
a Ducati,
or the that 355 that dude drives.

I never asked for the Moon,
Nor the Sun,
the Clouds
and the stars in the sky.

I've never asked for something
as big as this in my life,
eventhough so many times of times,
there are alot of tears in my eyes

so please for once,
i'm beggin and praying,
can i have what i want?
so i'll know how it feels like to fly..

15 Things You Probably Never Knew or Thought About (From My Mom's Email)

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so
much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in
some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is
because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone,
even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before
they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves
you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever,
something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its
back on you, take a look: you most likely turned
your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting
what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you
believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you
will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received.
Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them;
you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to
let them know that they are great.

I'm sorry for the thing i did,
I'm sorry if i made you think
I jumped off the cliff
and never thought of what if's
Because of this I think acted second rate.
I feel like i stole ten dollars
out of the collection plate
You got my heart, plus you smart
That's the reason why i feel this
Everything i said is true
won't lie to you boo
now that you know about me
Let's get back to before shall we?
This is my public apology

Do you get the feeling when you know it's not right but it feels right?! you know it's not fair but even though it's not, you'll still want to push through with it because you know you will not fail?!.. i mean, ok, it's not right because society will not probably be able to accept it nor, it's not fair because of the YEARS (YOU probably know what i'm talking about).. it's just sad to actually see my non confomist self talking about this since, i've have not been under Big Brother's sight for so long.. and now i start. I seriously don't know what's happening to me.. I mean, i shouldn't be even thinking this way for crying out loud, it's just not right.

All the homies tell me that don't risk it
I contemplate -- but in my heart I know it's worth it
Tell me can you get away?

Soundtrack from the Land of Neverending Beats:
Jack Johnson - Banana Pancakes, Belle, Breakdown
2Pac- Me Against the World, R U Still Down [remember me?]
The Notorious BIG - Ready to Die, Life after Death
Wu Tang Clan - The W, 36 Chambers, Forever
DJ Clue - The Professional parts 1 and 2

1st of tha Month

And so i haven't written for the past how long, so anyways, what's up you ask? well.. I'm part of this Script Writing team in our church, and for the past 2 weeks we have been writing the Script for the play we call "One Way: This is OUR Story". 5 music genres meet in one common ground.. Praise Music.. Cool story actually.. hehehe anyways, back to script writing.. Updates soon!

This is just too entertaining!

A sad sad day for Madridistas


Barcelona 3 - 0 Real MadridEstadio de Santiago BernabeuMatchday 12 of the National League Championship

The Humiliation of the whites in the Bernabeu was orchestrated by the Brazilian Ronaldinho and a former Madridista Samuel Eto'o. The injury plagued Madrid were played by the Catalans from the second the whistle was blown by the Referee to start the match. Today is a very very sad day for Madridistas..

3 Years of Blogging yet still the same G'Thang

And so it's been three years since i've started this online log on what the hell's been up with this shmuck named mon. Three years of collected episodes ranging from revulsion, worship and just plain gibberish, on the goal of answering the question "CAN IT BE ALL THAT SIMPLE!?". Well.. it can, if you look at it in a different standpoint. It's not easy yet it can still be possible.

So, what can i say about these past three years of blogging and sharing a piece of my mind to world. Well.. All we need is Faith.. Faith on what we do, what we say and Faith on what we write, Faith on everything. Hold nothing when the thoughts overflow.. bad, good, gibberish, even if you think your train of thought is like cyanide, if you gots to write something, just write it. If you gots to do something, just do it, If you gots to say somethin' just say it.. believe on what you profess! kuz that you right there. Plain, Simple and Raw!

"CAN IT BE ALL THAT SIMPLE?!"

What is a blog without tight production?! Content is just as important, but the average reader reads the passion and meaning, Making the Lyricist's job difficult. 3 years in the making with both Lyricist-slash-Experiences, Don't get it twisted. It's not a game!

I want you to close your eyes, and vision the most beautiful place in the world
If you in your home, or on your street corner smokin'. Come on this journey the best journey, think of a Mansion. Acres of land and swimming pools and all that, Check it out..

I'm capable of anything, my imagination can give me wings
To fly like Ddoves over the streets watchin' many things
Kids walkin' home from school on drug blocks, missionaries
Pass out papers that read: Love God
I see faces, cases, judges, juries, masons, lawyers and cops
I watch because every thugs face is my mirror
But this was one in particular
This kid he was the vintage stick em up pro
16 years old, almost did a jail sentence, nowhere to go
Every mornin calls his comrad to come and get him to smoke
He insane, already gone mad
Blames himself for his setbacks
homies houses where his sets at
Sling from dust to dawn, parents act like they maniacs
Chasin' him, his ass was flarin'
Smokin' like a chimney, on JC, of course he not carin'
He need a place to go to keep his mind expandin'
I give him a helpin' hand and, bring him out to God's Mansion

Snap Back to Reality, Oops there goes Gravity! Halloween Break Over

So it's back to Taft avenue for me tomorrow, the final stretch for the second term before the Christmas break and yet my last academic term this January, before i head for a hotel for my On-the-job training on summer or this coming June. I can't wait to finish up college, i mean, 5 years in the making for crying out loud! i'm so burned out, i'm already having thoughts of bombing the school (just thoughts don't worry!)! five years just to get a degree and finally become a chef.. or whatever job it is available in the real world! hay!.. So i guess this is my last Halloween and last Christmas as a student, next year i would either be unemployed or working.. wow, come to think of it.. that sounded so sad..

Anyway, so how did i spend the Halloween break.. Let's just say for the past week i've been coming home at around 4 a.m. from either the Herrera's house, Justine's house, Gian's house or God know where, because my parents were in China majority of the time. And just for the record, out of the 8 straight days of no classes, i just got wasted once! and that's in the Herrera's while playing Quasimodo in an Allen Iverson Jersey! And yeah, last Saturday, majority of the youth went to the Happiest place down south of Manila which is Laguna.. "Enchanted Kingdom". The trip wouldn't be as great as it was if the youth wasn't there. I mean the place was packed with people! imagine, a two hour wait on every ride that only lasts for 30 seconds or sometimes less! that's just messed up right there! that ain't right!!
Tito Mario Mamon, You got to do something about this! That's just not right!

Here's an artistic moving picture i took of the Wheel and the Midway in Enchanted Kingdom care of Gabbi's Camera!



Anyways, School's up tomorrow! i'll blog again soon! PEACE!!

From the Land of Never Ending Beats
2Pac
R U still down [Remember me?]
Me Against the World
2Pacalypse Now
The Notorious B.I.G.
Ready to Die
Life after Death
Coldplay
X & Y
A Rush of Blood in the Head
Jack Johnson
In Between Dreams

And i thought Allen Iverson wouldn't get me drunk!

Anyways, as the story goes, i'm drung as od the moment and it's quarter to five in the morning. Anyyways, i'm jsy saying, i'm going for you firl and you know that,, hehehe just keepin' it real... hayy...

Happy Halloween, a wet Halo-Ween Party and a Madrid over Betis and Rosenborg

First up, belated happy 21st expiration to Justine! that was a crazy party you had last Saturday! Anyways, Monday was the tradional trick or treat and the Youth's Halo-ween party here, down south of the AAV. First the Trick or Treat, I was actually expecting it to be crazier than before, but since the village tried to contain the people who were trying to enter, it turned our to be a bit of a dissapointment. I was expecting a million man march last monday! oh well, hope next year it would be better.

Moving on, the Youth's Halo-ween party was crazy! the costumes of the people were just unbelievable! Kudos to the group who dressed up as Mystery Inc., that was just tight! anyway, i'm also flattered to have seen 4 people dressed up as me (Gian, Bea, Mac and Jacy)! hahahaha! and so because of this, i won the "Most Wanted Award"! nice one! other than people wearing crazy ass costumes, after the party everybody started to throw everybody in the pool including me, who've thrown majority of the people! hahaha.. talk about a taste of my own medicine! hehehe!

Madrid won against Real Betis in the Spanish La Liga which puts them on the third place, 1 point behind Barcelona and 2 on Ossasuna also, they won against Rosenborg in the Champions League which puts them in the final 16. All these accomplishments without Ronaldo and Zidane, what more if they were there! hope this streak keeps up till the end of the season!

Madrid 2 - 0 Betis
29': Robinho
78': Mejia
Madrid 2 - 0 Rosenborg
25': Dorsin (Own Goal)
40': Guti

From the Land of Neverending Beats:
Star, Air, Marjorie Fair, 2Pac, Dave Matthews Band, Queen, Sheila and the Insects

I come to you hungry and tired
you give food and let me sleep
I come to you weak
you give strength and that's deep
you called me a sheep
and leed me to green pastures
only asking that I keep the focus
between the chaptures
You give me the word and only acts I interpet
And give me the eyes so I can recognize the serpent
You know I ain't perfect, but you'll like me to try
And just like the devil who wants me to lie.. Till I die..

Lord why is it that, that I go through so much pain
All I saw was black and all I felt was rain
I come to you because it's you that knows
To show me that everything is black
Because me eyes were closed
You give me the light and let me bask in your glory
So it was only right that when you ask for this story
I put together to do all dogs some good
All dogs being all the brothers and sisters in the hood
Plenty of times you sent help my way, but I get a fit..
I remember once you held me close but I slip
There was something that I just had to see
That you wanted me to see so I can be what you wanted me to be
And I think I am seeing it but I don't feel the same
Matter of fact I know I have seen it I can feel the change
And it's strange almost got me beating down your door
But I have never known love like this before
It's a wonderful feeling to get away from the pain
And up under the ceiling I get away from the rain
And the strain that I feel when I'm here is gone
I know real so I wipe away the tears on
And I almost lost faith in you when you took my homie from me,
Like a Crossover taking a brother down from me.
And I fear that what I saying won't be heard until I'm gone
But it's all good, Cause I didn't expect to live long
So if it takes for me to suffer for my homie to see the light
Give me pain till I die but please lord treat him right..

Next up, Valencia..

Before Everything, Beated Happy Birthday to My lovely sister who is currently in Spain right now and i miss so much and a Happy Birthday to My Little Brudda, who is currently snoring in his room right now. Anyways, yesterday has been another unproductive Sunday. how unproductive you ask?! let's just say the TV and i became really close friends, along with the couch, the TV clicker and the five throw pillows in the den (four blues and a yellow one). So because of this, i am obligated to spend the whole day in gym today after running errands for My dear Mother and manually clean the car at least or, send it to the carwash.. whatever..

For Soccer Fans:

On other news, Valecia is up next for Madrid in the Estadio Santiago Bernabeu and Deportivo in the Riazor. The Whites are playing without Ronaldo and Baptista due to injuries. This is gonna be one interesting match week.. for more info check Real Madrid.Com, they got everything there.

Hope tomorrw isn't like today.. sheesh!

A Day in the Life..

It can be harsh sometimes hearing some other person's momma scolding her children right in front of you. Why? because you start realizing what you've done to your own momma. Sad really.. but hey, that's how it goes. Anyway, I got accepted in the Youth's Praise Ministy, nice one! but i actually have no clue on what i'm bound to do there.. but who knows?! maybe HE knows, kuz i sure don't! because everybody knows i can't sing even if my life depended on it! i only sing in the bathroom and it's even off key! sheesh! anyway, going back.. Real Madrid is now top of the La Liga charts! HALA MADRID!! and the NBA season is about to start.. yeah! GO BULLS AND LAKERS!

Ok, i had a really boring day.. sorry, the boredom is killing me! especially my writing! sheeznit! i'll blog again.. maybe later.. or tomorrow.. or something..

God's Playbook



The playbook of life, composed 2000 years ago by different playmakers who never knew the how to play life perfecly until they discovered the ways of the Lord. Playmakers who have experienced first hand, the art of being defeated in life and mastered the art of rising in the ashes with the help of the Big Man above the clouds. Different plays, different ways but under the same influence.. "God's Love and God's will".

Was it just me or was it the Big Man up above the clouds?!

If it was just me, i probably would have said no, so it's probably him. Ok check, I actually auditioned for Youth Praise (that's the choir for the Youth of our village) not hoping to get accepted of course but still, i joined. Now, from the beginning i never actually saw rap music fused unto the how the people in the youth praise sing. But, that's how i tried out.. see, i had to go freestyle on a couple of tunes which was hard because i was on the spot and everyone was watching.. sheesh! but it's all good, at least i got a few verses intact and without choking.. haha! Anyways, other than the audition there was this interview. the questions wern't that hard really, it's just that it really made you think on why you really want to join see?! they ask generic questions like "why'd you want to join?!" and all that stuff. Nice really! really nice!

Anyways, not that i'm hoping, i just hope i did good in that audition. If i'm not in, it's cool! and if i get in well.. better! i just see this as another level of Praising the Man up in the Clouds! maybe that's why he made me join... maybe i wasn't praising him enough?! or maybe he wants me to put my music into good use! not just for gibberish while taking a bath or with friends and stuff!! haha! nice one!!

Today's Soundtrack
2Pac
- I wonder if Heaven got a ghetto
- Only God can judge me
- Better Days
- Hail Mary
- It ain't easy
- Life Goez on
Fighting Temptations Soundtrack
Sister Act 1 and 2 Soundtrack

And so once again, i'm drunk.. so sue me! I feel that, everything is so perfect for me right now, yet i feel so empty inside. Imagine, the parental units finally accepted that i'm extending one final term and we ain't no family issues down at the shack and it's already 60++% that i'm heading to study culinary and i ain't got no failin grades and shit.. now ain't that shit just grand?! yet i still feel like i'm in a ditch.. motherf*ck! Maybe I need less of me and more than HIM! f*ck i don't know..

Anyways, a new chick in prospect right now.. anyways, lets just call her miss.. hahah this shit is so obvious.. anyways, like what Carlos said, "she's like a yema".. sweet and all that sh*t... updates on this when i'm sober.. hahha! peace!! i'll blog tomorrow!

YE-Fied, A Real Madrid Winning Streak and the Bianconeri winning the Italian Derby

After a long time of preperation, the YE#3 is finally over. I never thought that i would feel a bit poignant, since i'm just an auxillery but i do so sue me! Anyways, Another point for the Man above the clouds and near the stars! for the sucess of the YE! We got a lot more Youth Members compared to before.. though i hope they stay in church and pray that this ain't just a one time thing. Moving on, this weekend was somewhat an awakeing for me, Because for the past how many months i've been feeling like shit yet i don't know why. I don't know where all the melancholy is coming from, i mean, i got everything set for me for the next year and a half yet i still felt like shit! LABO DUDE!! During the course of the weekend, i found clarity within myself while serving the Big Man up in the clouds. Now i know the difference between "What I want" and "What I Need", what i want is normally useless.. NORMALLY.. you know, material shit, some crazy ass favors that i'd love for the Big Man to do for me and basically things that i can live without. Though the things is Do need are the things that really count.. like prayers from the Big Man and most def.. Change. I have to change you know.. and since the weekend, i have not done any crazy ass shit yet.. i hope i do anything anymore. So i guess it's a clean slate for me.. i hope i keep it clean... oh yeah, this girl which i call "Banana Pancakes" said that, i should stop cussing because it would be a plus for this Lovely Lady whom i have the jones for. Well.. Banana Pancakes, "i'd do if for her.. but i'd rather do it for myself, it's better that way!"

Real Madrid wins 4-0 with the Brazilian Samba

4-0 against Mallorca! 2 from Roberto Carlos and goal from Ronaldo and Baptista. Everything is looking good for the whites after a dissapointing start of the Liga season. Madrid now with three consecutive victories!..

Juventus wins the Italian Derby against Inter 2-0



After the goals of David Trezeguet and Pavel Nedved, the game was already for the Bianconeri's taking. The Nerrazzurri, did not have a chance to begin with. Capello’s team takes home the sixth win out of six matches which proves Juventus as #1 in Serie A.

Another Saturday wasted infront of the monitor. I'm supposed to be in Primetime's or JP's playing Texas hold'em but for some pathetic reason, i decided to stay home. I don't know.. maybe too much Bulgogi from dinner. Anyway, i have already informed the parental units about the very last term extension of my college life. And i wasn't a bit surprised about their nonchalant reaction. They got pissed.. yeah, but i promised that this is the very last extension i'm ever gonna ask them, so there.. now everything is back to normal.. or so i think. Tonight, HEDKANDI is here in Manila promoting their new "The Mix 50", a 3 CD set featuring the finest moments from HEDKANDI's dance floor ranging from Basement Jaxx, Kings of Tomorrow to Soulsearcher. A lot of people are getting wasted tonight.. Good for them! I was actually invited by a shit load of people to head there tonight.. though i declined since i'm not much of a dancer, and i like the Ministry of Sound and Gatecrasher more than Hedkandi anyway.

Ok.. 1:30 a.m. on a Saturday night.. what can i possibly do besides chat and blog..
hmmm...

Golfed.. and Metally drained because of it

What i thought would be a steady stroll through eighteen holes turned out to be a freakin' crawl. At 6:15 a.m. i tee'd off on the fourth hole of the Alabang Country Club with a group of randomly old individuals. Little did i know that they had the ability to play jedi mind games with you just in case you're playing better than them. And so, from the fourth hole till the 11th, i was playing better than them (kudos to Mr. Mundin though i doubt he recognized me, Nice drive!) 4 bogeys, a par and 2 double bogeys not bad right? On 12th though, they started playing Jedi mind tricks on me... How?!

Golfer One: So son, what's your handicap?!
Mon: 33 sir.
Golfer Two: Wow! 33! and you play that good?!
Mon: Probably just plain ol' good luck!
Golfer Three: With nice shots and Greens in regulations like that, i guess your team is expecting you to play below your handicap!
Mon: Well, we all want to play below our handicap's right?! so i guess..
Golfer Four: Yeah, but our handicaps are low and yours is quite high, and with a game like that, i'd say they are already expecting you to play well..
Mon (Feeling good): Probably..
Golfer Three: That's why they picked you to play for their team! because your handicap is low and you play well.
Mon: Uh-huh...
Golfer Two: Sometimes though, it's a drag when they expect much from you and you don't meet their expectation. And you end up as the reason why your team lost.
Mon (Shaking because of the pressure..):.....Yeah.... ain't that a bitch..
Golfer One: Anyway, tee off! you go first mon!

- Mon goes to the tee box.. sets up.. swings.. and it's a shank and.. water hazard...! hurrah for the old people!!-

Golfer One: It's ok! just hit a bogey round and you'll be able to win!
Mon: Whatever!!

And it's all down hill from there.. i scored 11 strokes over my handicap. Lesson in this story?! never never never! talk to the people in your flight unless you know them! Shieet!!! anyways! fuck it! i'm off to the basketball court!

What the Hell's been up with M.O.N.?!

So, Michael Owen is now playing for Newcastle United.. bad move for Madrid. Anyway, it's the first day of the term, the term which i thought would be my last academic term. Now what happened?! well, for the first time in history, my so called "academic adviser" actually gave me some academic advice, thus the one extra term extension. He said that it would be against his advising principles to actually allow me to take 9 subjects this term.. he said that if i failed one or two subjects due to stress or whatever shit ass excuse he can think of, it would be his ass.. so i said "Ok then! take 2 subjects out! so that it would be all good! having 7 subjects in a term will just be as groovy as having 9".. he said "No! i'll take 5 out! believe me, i'm doing you a favor.." and i said "Do that kid downstairs a favor and give him your spare change and give me a break freakin' Maricon!" he said "i'm sorry.. this is all i can do.." and i said "Fat Motherf*cker! go to hell!"

And so i'm extending one last term.. sheesh! what a day! and so, i have 4 subjects this term... and my professor in Spanish looks like that Faggot teaching the girls how to give a blowjob in that movie "Old School". And yeah, i'm guessing he's a Faggot too! Imagine, a Spaniard who doesn't like football.. sheesh! that's something new! And oh yeah, no school every Mondays, Wednesdays and Friday's for me! Saturdays though i got a 9 - 10 a.m. class.

Those who want to hang out! just leave me a message or just text me in my mobile.. hahahaha! (Text me in my mobile! <-- that's so british)

PEACE OUT!!

Owen to Complete New Castle Signing..


After playing 28 games and scoring 16 goals, english striker Michael Owen decides to call it quits in Spain. It's not a shock to everyone that the English International decided to move back to the English Premier League, because of the lack of playing time Real Madrid coach Vanderlei Luxemburgo is giving him despite the outstanding effort he is showing.

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It's a sad day for me as a Madrid fan to loose one of their quality players. 28 games with 16 that's off the bench. What a waste of a good talent..

Is the NEW SIS system of the College of Saint Benilde just plain stupid?

Me and my collegues have encountered an Email of a concerned faculty member which i think was taken forgranted by the administrators of the College of Saint Benilde who implemented the new SIS system of encoding. In the Email the concerned faculty member mentioned the lack of concern for the student's encoding. Ok here's the situation, Since CSB is trimestral, we have to encode our subjects every term. Before, we used to do it manually. We had to wait in long lines for our turn to be served by the registrar. Just recently, CSB deviced a new system called "My Benilde" in which the students can encode using the computer inside and outside the school. When this was first implemented there were still bugs in the system in which the students were not able to get the subjects they wanted, but after awhile, it was fixed and everything went smootly. Just this term, CSB devised a new system which is called the SIS, and this is where goes down hill. See, this new system can only be accessed inside the school, you can access it outside the school providing you have a CSB account which is slower than a turtle and you can only view it from the Mozilla Firefox browser. From this point this is already hard to access, and to add on some more, the CSB server is always down. CSB students really had a hard time encoding, this term. CSB students really had a hard time encoding. For some people it was ok, but for majority, it was hell. The bugs of the system came out after one week of encoding and for the majority, the subjects they encoded were erased and for some there was a message saying "Encoding Invalid". Because of all this, the CSB tech support and registrar had to extend the encoding for at least a week or even more. I don't know if the extension is to make us feel that everything is under control and all that stuff, but i guess their wrong in thinking that we are stupid to not to know that there is something wrong. From our point view (me and my collegues), maybe this is one of the ways how CSB extorts from the students. Since majority of the CSB student communty had had a hard time encoding their subjects, they ended up paying a large penalty for this (the price for the penalty is Extorsion, believe me!). Anyway, from what i know, the new SIS system which supposedly costed at around 10 mil. is not yet fully functional, yet, they still opt to use it. And when we ask them what's wrong with the system, they just scratch their heads and tell us to come back in a couple of hours or worse, the next day. Now why do you think they do this?! is it to milk the students for more money or are they just plain stupid?! you decide..

Now, considering our tuition sky high, we should not experiencing this trauma of encoding. WE PAY THEM A SHITLOAD OF MONEY TO MAKE IT BETTER FOR US! INSTEAD THEY PUT IT IN THEIR POCKETS! NOW! I AM NOT TO ASSUME CORRUPTION IN MY OWN SCHOOL BUT I DO NOT SEE ANY CHANGE IN THE SYSTEM AND WORSE THE WHOLE SCHOOL! SO HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK?!

WE JUST WANT TO BE HEARD!

To the Students of CSB and to the people who are concerned,

I know i'm gonna get alot of shit for this.. i don't even know why i'm doing this and to think i'm already graduating in a few months, but we need change and you know that. I am not a perfect student, actually i get into alot of shit. But if this is the only way to be heard and to make everything better for us and the people after us then i guess this is my way of making a mark in the College of Saint Benilde. We will be heard!

if anyone is interested to see the EMAIL we found just leave your email in the comment box..

PEACE...
Still a G'thang

After listening to Susan Roces rant about her late husband getting cheated on this past election, she made me sound like the best person to speak against President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo. I mean, come on woman! It's 10 a.m. on a freakin' sunday morning! you think anyone is listening?! god! Anyways, last night was one of the worst nights in my life's recorded history.. I mean, the feeling of immobility because of a freakin' migrain.. Sheeet! i wasted my saturday lying down in my bed instead drinking beer and hanging with Brian and Victor somewhere.. sheesh... anyway, in two days, it will be my finals week where after that, will be my last academic term hopefully, i said hopefully because the benildean encoding system just sucks!.. it's can either make you or break you. I mean, i think 70 percent of the benildean population probably was not able to get the subjects and the schedule they wanted because of this shit so i guess, Course adjustment this term will be hell.. Shieet..

Cudos by the way to Chris Van Hoven! many thanks for the Printer and the Ink! A mark higher than a 3.0 to me is more than a bottle of Sanmig Light for you! hahaha! PEACE Out!

Soundtrack
Dave Matthews Band - Recenlty
Coldplay - Fix You

Mon Update
After almost two weeks of not blogging, i finally get a my chance to once again vent out online, so here's an update. So anyway, what new?! Actually, i can now say that i'm graduating in a few terms (FINALLY!!!).. Goodbye to school and hello to the real world in a few months. I don't know if i'm ready and i'm cool with all this yet but you know, i've been in college for the past five years of my life, so who am i to say that i ain't ready right?! I'm GODDAANG ready for this shit! Moreover, I just found out that i'm bound for Boracay this christmas.. geez! what a time to visit the island of sin! christmas for crying out loud! anyways, lets just look at the bright side of things, at least it Boracay right?! What else.. hmmmm.. oh yeah, i also just found out that me and mi familia are headed for Europe this summer.. that's Italy, Spain, France and i think Germany or London, who gives a shit, as long as it's in Europe.. Now, all i have to do is book for football tickets since there are still games in the Serie A and the Spanish La Liga seasons by the time we get there.. i just hope it's not too expensive.. Oh yeah.. Lastly.. Remember the chick i was ranting about 6 or 7 months back.. we'll now she's single.. surprisingly, i'm not in the "Happy Happy Joy Joy Mood". Maybe i got over her, i don't know.. or maybe, i Just got my priorities straight now... hehehe..

On football..
Real Madrid signs Robinho, Baptista, Diogo and Pablo Garcia in replacemement for Santiago Solari, Walter Samuel and Luis Figo who all went to Inter Milan.. Now that's what i call a shopping spree.. So far, the whites have been doing a great job on the pitch. I just hope they can continue being like that the whole of next season, so that they can snatch back the Title from BARCELONA!! HALA MADRID!!

On the Juventus side(yes, i'm a Juve fan now), Patrick Viera is now with the Bianconeri along with a shit load of other players. Alessio Tacchinardi is now with Villareal and Stephen Appiah in Fenerbrace. Just recently, they lost the "Berlusconi" with a 2-1 score against A.C. Milan. Patrick Viera scored on the 7th minute but Kaka and Serginho from Milan hit two right after that.. We'll the season has not started yet so we'll see..

Anyway.. it's 1:19.. i'm hitting the Sack.. i'l try and blog again soon.. PEACE!!

The Nerrazurri Shops in Bernabéu
That's Santiago Solari, Walter Samuel and Luis Figo

I don't normally give away my information in the internet but i've seen this shit in alot of Blogs now, so why not just get into the groove right?! (from Cornelius and Aiko).

A - Age you got your first kiss?: 10 probably.
B - Band listening to right now: Coldplay and Dave Matthews Band
C - Crush: Sue Bird and Eva Longaria
D - Dad's Name: Simpson Go
E - Easiest person to talk to: Mom
F - Favorite music artist at the moment: Brandon Boyd
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: Both
H - Hometown: Chicago and Manila
I – Instruments: Basketball, Football, CD Walkman, My Golf Clubs and Golf Balls
J - Junior High: Home School
K - Kids: Someday
L - Longest car ride ever: 16 hours from Boston to Chicago
M - Mom's name: Necie Go
N - Nicknames: Mon, Tony Montana, Paddington Bear
O - One wish: I wish i was a little bit tall, or i wish i was a ball..
P - Phobia[s]: Needles
Q – Quote: If you can't beat em' Fuck it and just shoot them all
R - Reason to smile: My nephew Sancho
S - Song you last heard: Speed of Sound
T - Time you woke up [today]: 10:30 a.m.
U - Unknown fact about yourself: I can sleep anywhere anytime and in any position.
V - Vegetable(s) you hate: Bitter Herbs
W - Worst habit(s): Fingernail bitting
X - X-rays you've had: Ankles
Y - Yummy food: Jollibee's Chicken Joy and Jolly Hotdog, Risotto with Pesto and white truffles, Spaghettini Al Telefono
Z - Zodiac sign: Capricorn

An Entry Long Overdue..

My DSL got screwed thus the huge skip from my last entry. Anyway, it's been a long time since my last real entry and it's almost the end of July, and this has been only my second blog enrty.. shheeesh.. Anyway.. Last last week was my Grandmother's 85th birthday and after 10 years, the whole family headed back to Surigao (that's the surfing capital of the Philippines and our home town) to celebrate it. Only after 10 years was me and my family completly congregated in one place. There was a little awkwardness of course when we first saw each other, since the last time we did see each other, we were still playing with Lego's and irritating our parents to borrow for us a VHS tape of Alladin and The Lion King while wearing a WWF t-shirt with an Ultimate Warrior print. Now, after ten years basically it's still the same. Only take out the Lego's, the Disney VHS tapes and the WWF t-shirt and add a couple of bottles of beer and a pack of cigarettes. We were just so glad to see each other again, too bad we only stayed a couple of days, kuz before we stay for two months at a time. Anyways, there wasn't much to do in Surigao, besides go to the beach since the beach is just 5 to 10 minutes away in all directions and eat Puso and Barbeque all day (Puso, pronounced as Pu-so is rice wrapped in Coconut leaves and shaped like a diamond, very very tasty). The night life was non-existent, yes there were bars with live bands and all that stuff but there were no clubs at all. My good friends Jack Daniels and Jim Beam wasn't also recognized there.. sheesh.. anyway, as long as there is San Mig light, it's all good!.. Anyways.. School's up.. hopefully not for long.. Blog again tomorrow..

The Soundtrack..
- Dave Matthews Band (Stand Up)
- Foo Fighters
- Jamiroquai (Dynamite)

Our government is heading for the dumps as we speak.. A message to the motherfucking opposition, "Leave the fuckin' president alone and just do your goddamn jobs goddamnit!" you powerhungery, money laundering people! you people act as if you fuckin' pendejos can do a better job! why do you guys even bother rallying in the streets of makati when the people who really matter don't give a shit! i wouldn't be surprised if they get a freakin' firetruck and hose you bitches down! goddamnit! i'm migrating to mexico! or columbia or yugoslavia!

Now a days, it seems like blogging a preveledge and not anymore a daily thang. Sucks really but hey, nothing fanatical has been happening these past few weeks anyway. So.. It's the first term, the sched is eleven to five every day with a not very tantalizing 3 hour break every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and a very very long and tormenting 4 hour break every Tuesdays and Thursdays. So far, i've been trying to cope up with this twisted schedule and as far as i know, it can be interesting sometimes. There are people there of course, really nice people. But most of the time, i'd be plugged up in my CD walkman like i always do, and basically just take a trip to "The Land of Neverending Beats" and just waste the long break away.. With schedules like these, it's just hard not to skip class.. sheesh! Moreover, after five years in college, it's the first time i joined a credited carpool with majority of the members being freshmen. Now, everytime i ride, or drive for them, i can't help but feel like a big brother (not good! not good at all!). Why join just now?! it's because the price of gasoline just won't stop climbing! Crazy Crazy Crazy! Dios Mio! I'm actually just waiting for our country to have an Economic Recession and hope that we get adopted the freakin' United States or Mexico or something so that there will be hope on everything being aight! For now that's all.. hmm.. i know i'm forgetting something, i'll just try and blog again tomorrow.. PEACE OUT!

Sounds from the Land of a Million Beats
- Dave Matthews Band
- 30 Seconds to Mars
- The Smoke City
- 2Pac
- The Notorious BIG
- Warren G and the G'Funk Family
- Counting Crows
- Coldplay
- Our Lady Peace
- The Used

Blogged... Again..

Seems like, eversince last month there has been a two week gap inbetween my entries. Anyways, i feel like shit. I have Cough due colds and it's getting worse. I skipped class today because of this and i just feel like it's not right, since this the very first time i skipped. Anyway, i hope the sun shines tomorrow.. fuck.. i'm beat..

Blogged..

And so summer's over, Yet, i still can't imagine that i only had just a weeks worth of break.. that's just too Dismal. Anyways, it's already the third week of school and now i just realize how miserable my schedule is. Imagine 11 am - 6pm everyday, for the next 3 months or so. That's not the best part, the best part is, every Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays i have a 3 hour break.. thankfully i have my good friend Chase to keep me from turning into a complete psychopath. Tuesdays and Thursdays though, i'll be spending my 4 hour break with my lonesome.. Shit.. To Be continued... Peace! Blog tomrrow..

Todays and yesterday's Soundtrack:
DAVE MATTHEWS BAND - STAND UP!!

Aunt Nelly.. Rest in Peace.. We'll Miss you..

Dosed

I got dosed by you and,Closer than most to you and,What am I supposed to do,Take it away,I never had it anyway,Take it away,And everything will be okay...In you a star is born and,You cut a perfect form and,Someone forever warm,Lay on, lay on, lay on, lay on..

Way upon the mountain where she died,
All I ever wanted was your life,
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide,
All I ever wanted was your life...

Show love with no remorse and,
Climb on to your seahorse and,
This ride is right on course,
This is the way,
I wanted it to be with you,
This is the way,
I knew that it would be with you,
Lay on, lay on, lay on, lay on,

Way upon the mountain where she died,
All I ever wanted was your life,
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide,
All I ever wanted was your life...

Show love with no remorse and,
Climb on to your seahorse and,
This ride is right on course,
This is the way,
I wanted it to be with you,
This is the way,
I knew that it would be with you,
Lay on, lay on, lay on, lay on,

Way upon the mountain where she died,
All I ever wanted was your life,
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide,
All I ever wanted was your life...

I got dosed by you and,
Closer than most to you and,
What am I supposed to do,
Take it away,
I never had it anyway,
Take it away,
And everything will be okay...

Way upon the mountain where she died,
All I ever wanted was your life,
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide,
All I ever wanted was your life...

Up and Away (To Last term..)

Everyday, everyday with youEvery little thing you do, the way you do, Little darlin' in your eyes, Got me all up and away, You get me high, I saw you there, since then everyday, It's like I'm lost and thinking of you in every way, Since I fell into your eyes,All I know is that you get me high, You get me high..
And then you walk the way you walk, You blow my mind to know the way, you walk in my way, Then I fall into your eyesUp, up and away, the way you rise, Oh, lovely,The way you make me high,
Cause when I'm thinking of you,When I'm flying above the world,How I wish I was drowning in you, I must admit that I'm oh so into you, you know?! Please don't ever let me go..You've done nothing to me but up, up and away you go, All up and away,You take me..Before you came you know I didn't care It's just the game I play All up and away Oh, all up and away You take me baby.l.

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WOW! How ORIGinAL!

First was the Cube Libre sessions withg JP, Cocoy and Mark's friends, where by the way, i was just tripping Coy with the honey and the sugar in the Mix.. And then goes another session with the Herrera's and the other friends.. so.. here's what i came up with..

These are things I feel but dont want to say, incase you feel that way, these are things I know but dont want to say, incase you feel that way, I'll wait another day, I can never change, cause the pain just makes me want to stare, at the same things I saw before, thinking there's something more, God it's a lonely place.. I will never know, how you feel about the things I think about. Will I get a chance to make up to you? The things I kept from you, you know I wanted to. I can never change the pain just makes me want to stare, at the same things I saw before, thinking that something's wrong. God it's a lonely place. Say the same things you said before, wanting you even more God it's a lonely place!

And it's all in how you mix the two, And it starts just where the light exists. It's a feeling that you cannot miss, And it burns a hole, through everyone that feels it. Well, your never gonna find it, If your looking for it. Won't come your way, Well you'll never find it, if your looking for it. Should've done something, but I've done it enough. By the way, your hands were shaking, rather waste some time with you. And you never would have thought in the end, how amazing it feels just to live again, It's a feeling that you cannot miss, it burns a hole, through everyone that feels it. I walked around my good intentions and found that there were alot. I blamed my father for the wasted years, we hardly talked. I never thought I would forget this hate, then a phone call made me realise: I'm wrong and if i dont make it known that, I've loved you all along, just like sunny days that we all ignore because were all dumb and jaded. and I hope to God I figure out whats wrong. I walked around my room, not thinking - sinkin in this box. I blame myself for being too much like somebody else. I never thought i would just bend ths way, then a phone call made me realise I'm wrong. And I hope to God I figure out whats wrong..

Spanish Title lost to Sevilla!!



Score:
2 - 2

What i think is Madrid's mistake is when Vanderlei Luxemburgo took Owen out and replaced him with Figo.. nothing more.. Sheeesh!! Next year, the Title is coming back to Madrid!

Grace is Gone.. (DMB)

Neon shines through smoky eyes tonight
It’s 2 AM, I’m drunk again
It’s heavy on my mind...

I could never like again
So much as I like you
Where you end where I begin
Is like a river flowing through..

Take my heart, take my eyes
'Cause I'll need them no more
If never again they’ll fall upon
The one I so adore..

'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong
'cause I don’t need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I’ll move on..

One drink to remember, and another to forget
How could I ever dream to find a love like this again
One drink to remember, and another to forget...

'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong
'Cause I don’t need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I’ll go...
One more drink my grace is gone..

I took this "Does your Blog own You" test last October 7, 2003 and came up with this result..

12.5 %

I took the test again and this is what came out..

18.75 %

I guess my blog own's me more now, i got something to say but it's 3 a.m.
i'll just tell you guys tomorrow..

Happy Birthday..

Today's Soundtrack:

Travis - The Last Laugh of the Laughter, Writing to Reach You

Flogging Molly - The Wanderlust

Cynthia Alexander - Comfort in Your Strangeness

Bizzy Bone - Nobody Can Stop Me, Thugz Cry

Incubus - Aqueous Transmission, Vitamin

A Conversation with An Excessively Happy Monotone

Conversation 1:
Person A: How do you do it?
Person B: Do what?
Person A: How do you manage to keep that smile while there's so much shit around you?
Person B: Well.. maybe i'm just good at smiling eventhough my world's already wrong side up.
Person A: With this shit that just happened to you?! i wouldn't blame you if you'd break down right infront of me.
Person B: Maybe i'm just good in keeping my views and my poignantness intact, that's why you don't see me distressed all the time. You know what i mean?! Maybe, i'm just so good at it that, you just won't see it at all. Maybe not unless i speak of it..
Person A: Oh...
Person B: Yeah.. Oh... (*Then Lights a Cigarette.. and looks up in the cloudy sky..*)
Person B: What a drag, there ain't no stars..

Conversation 2
Person C: This sucks..
Person B: Which one?
Person C: This year i mean..
Person B: What makes you say that?
Person C: Nothing great has happened to these past few months..
Person B: Well, you still got 6 months to go, before you can honestly say that this year did suck..
Person C: Yeah, your probably right..
Person B: Yeah.. probably.. good luck though
Person C: Yeah, Luck.. *sigh*
Person B: Maybe next year is "THE YEAR"...
Person B: or maybe it was "Last Year"...?
Person C: Probably last year..
Person B: Yeah, probably..

The Soundtrack:
Travis - The Last Laugh of the Laughter, Writing to Reach You
30 Seconds to Mars - Oblivion, Fallen, The Mission

The Bianconer over the Rossoneri in the Battle for the Scudetto, 5 nil for the Whites and a Halloween



Alessandro Del Piero and David Trezeguet made sure of a 1 - 0 victory against A.C. Milan in The San Siro, with only three match days remaining in the league season and the Scudetto at stake. The Bianconeri's won dominated the crucial match of the year with a great marking and a lot of scoring chances, like the crossbar hit by Del Piero and a lot more from Pavel Nedved. Now, three days away from the end, the Bianconeri are 3 points clear off The Rossoneri and a little more to their 28th Scudetto.

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A night of goals and history for Ronaldo, Raul and Michael Owen while making sure of their 7th consecutive league win and while putting pressure on Barcelona. With a 1-0 lead against Racing, Michael Owen scored the number 2,500 goal in the League for Real Madrid. On the other hand, Raúl and Ronaldo beat their personal records in the Championship. The Brazilian player went over 100 goals while the the player from Madrid reached the 250 goals in the different competitions.

GOALS:
1-0 28th: Owen after a perfect triangle line-up with Raúl and Ronaldo.
2-0 35th: Ronaldo scored a penalty that he provoked.
3-0 53th: Raúl after taking advantage a rebound from the goalkeeper Aouate.
4-0 71th: Raúl with a crossed shot after a pass from Owen. 5-0. Minute 92. Ronaldo after dribbling Aouate.

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Todays' Quote: How come this rhythm never quits, bags packed on a plane?

*Puts on his earphone's, turns on his CD player.. and just stares up to the sky, watching new born nebula's bloom.. while asking the question Why?..*

On the CD Player..
Coldplay - The Scientist
Dave Matthews Band - Halloween, Grace is Gone
2Pac - Fuck Y'All
Incubus - Echo, Warning
Dishwalla - Opaline, All your thoughts on God, Somewhere in the Middle, Nashville Skyline
Frank Sinatra - Somewhere Beyond the Sea

Just a Breath of Freedom..

A couple of days ago, i ran into "The Rose that Grew from Concrete Vol.1" book lying in the floor back in Brian's room. I know that i have read that book from cover to cover more that a thousand times, but sometimes, i just feel like i have to read it again. I don't actually know why, but everytime i see that book, there's this feeling inside me that screams that i should read it again. Maybe because i just relate to some of the entries in the book in someways.. yeah.. i can honestly say that. But i think that everytime i read that book, i simply find "Just the Breath of Freedom" i need..

What Can I Offer Her?
All of my life I dreamed of meeting one
with immense beauty, and once I found her
I would charm her and she'd be mine forever

I have found her and indeed she is all
I wished for and more but she is
not charmed nor intrigued. Then I
think 2 myself "What can I offer her?"
The tears warm my eyes and blur my
vision. I stick 2 my stance of bravado
and give her the same uninterested look
she gave me. She was so beautiful
But what can I offer her.

By 2Pac Shakur

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I'm going into this not knowing what I'll find,
but I've decided to follow my heart and abandon my mind,
and if there be pain I know that at least I gave my all,
and it is better to have loved and lost than to not love at all
In the morning I may wake to smile or maybe to cry
but first to those of my past I must say goodbye..

Thugz Mansion, Lemery Batangas


Niggaz need a spot where WE can kick it, A spot where WE belong, that's just for us. Niggaz ain't gotta get all dressed up and be Hollywood, Know what i mean? Where do niggaz go when we die? Ain't no heaven for a thug nigga. That's why we go to thugs mansion That's the only place where thugs get in free and you gotta be a G.. at thugs mansion..


A place to spend my quiet nights, time to unwind, So much pressure in this life of mine. I cry at times, I once contemplated suicide, and woulda tried But when I held that 9, all I could see was my momma's eyes. No one knows my struggle, they only see the trouble Not knowin it's hard to carry on when no one loves you. Picture me inside the misery of poverty, no man alive has ever witnessed struggles I survived. Prayin hard for better days, promise to hold on, me and my dawgs ain't have a choice but to roll on. We found a family spot to kick it where we can drink liquor and no one bickers over trick shit. A spot where we can smoke in peace, and even though we G's we still visualize places, that we can roll in peace. And in my mind's eye I see this place, the players go in fast, I got a spot for us all, so we can ball, at thug's mansion..


Dear momma don't cry, your baby boy's doin good, Tell the homies I'm in heaven and they ain't got hoods. Seen a show with Marvin Gaye last night, it had me shook Drippin peppermint Schnapps, with Jackie Wilson, and Sam Cooke. Then some lady named Billie Holiday sang sittin there kickin it with Malcolm, 'til the day came. Little LaTasha sho' grown Tell the lady in the liquor that she's forgiven, so come home. Maybe in time you'll understand only God can save us, when Miles Davis cuttin lose with the band. Just think of all the people that you knew in the past that passed on, they in heaven, found peace at last. Picture a place that they exist, together There has to be a place better than this, in heaven. So right before I sleep, dear God, what I'm askin, wemember this face, save me a place, in thugs mansion..

You'd just have to see this place.. belive me.. (you know who you are)..

On today's note, i studied Business Math the whole day.. the whole day.. yes ladies and gentlemen, the whole day. On the peak of everyone else's summer break, yes i am studying Business Math.. F = P(1+j/m)^n P= F/(1+j/m)^n.. sad if you ask me.. Anyways, right after school tomorrow i'm heading straight to Victor's beach house, also known as "The Thugz Mansion".. we're still deciding whether to stay over night or two night, either way it's all good.. staying overnight in the Thugz Mansion is better than no overnight at all.. so everything is all Good! everybody happy...

Happiness gauge: 37% <-- a little more..
Composure Gauge: 10% <-- dangerous level!

Today's Soundtrack
Incubus - A Crow Left in the Murder

Live and Still Dreaming..

And so i thought i was doing just fine.. and so i thought, Believed, alleged, said, held and supposed.. Anyways, i thought after at least two weeks of no contact, i'd be just fine.. and like what i said "and so i thought". Anyways, after picking up Cocoy and Marla in the domestic airport we headed straight to Magallanes and straight to her house. At the outset i was "it's cool, it's cool.. i can handle the goddamn pressure", but when the moment arrived and when the girl arose from her white front door, all that saved up composure from two weeks just vanished. I didn't know what happened.. Maybe i was just in awe since i haven't seen and conversed with the girl in quite awhile. Anyway, at some point in during our quick stop in the girls place.. i had this subliminal feeling where someone was stabbing me unswervingly in my chest and saying "You were just too late, now wait your turn..". Thank God we didn't stay long.. because if we did, i might have just ran off or something.. i don't know.. HAY DIOS MIO!!.. CHE COSTA LA SCOPATA! CHE COSTA L'INFERNO?! QUALUNQUE! maybe this is just another one of them tests, you know.. the "HOW LONG CAN MON REALLY WAIT TEST".. i remember one of my friends saying "it's probably gonna be a long hard wait.." the long part i understand but i never expected it to be this hard.. damn.. Struggle to pare! anyways.. i'll just pray that this wait's gonna be worth it..

Today's Sountrack
Incubus - S.C.I.E.N.C.E. , Make Yourself, Morning View
Montefiori Cocktail - Raccolta Vol. 1
Morcheeba - The Big Calm
Mars Volta - De-Louse in the Comatorium
30 Seconds to Mars
- Capricorn
- Year Zero
- 93 Million Miles
- Echelon
Flogging Molly
- The Wanderlust
- Within a Mile Home
- The Spoken Wheel
- Drunken Lullabies
- Swagger
- Another Bag of Bricks

Beached in Playa Papagayo, Subic

Far far far from Boracay.. Believe me. I'm not even sure whether the sand is gray, brown or black.. definately not white. Anyways, the compensation for the dissapointing beach was the people whom I was with. They are the type of people whom you'd want to be with when you press the Panic Button and all that stuff. The type of people where you'd forget everything when you are with them. Simple people.. You know what i mean?! it's nice to be around people like them once in awhile, you know.. just to get your perspective straight and all that shit.. Anyways, i have a date tomorrow with the Learning Institution so i guess i'll post again some other time.. Peace!

The Pictures are to follow..

The Weekend Soundtrack
Postal Service - Such Great Heights (Eccentric Version)
Iron and Wine - Such Great Heights (Slow Version)
Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Mase - Harlem World
Maroon 5 - Songs About Jane
Norah Jones - Come Away with Me, Feels like Home
Smashing Pumpkins - Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness
Sugar Ray - 14:59
The Sounds - Living in America
Mars Volta - Francine: The Mute
Cafe Del Mar - Ocho, Siete, Nueve, Dreams 1
Dave Matthes Band - Folsom Field, Gorge, San Francisco, Central Park

PANIC BUTTON PRESSED!!
Destination: Playa Papagayo, Subic

In exactly 12 hours me and mi Familia are leaving for Playa Papagayo, Subic. I was wishing Palawan but it doesn't matter now does it? for as long as there is a shore and a nice sunset, it's all good.. Though i got class this summer, i don't matter, in know i need this beach trip.. and besides, what's two days?! i'll just make it up when i come back... Anyways, gotta start packing.. Till Sunday! Au Revior!

Angels East, Angels West, North and South just do your best, watch her tight while she rests..

A Very Very Long Summer...

It's only the second day of summer classes and it already feels like forever, specially with the school idiot sitting beside me. HAY DIOS MIO.. this is gonna be a long long summer. Anyways, Cocoy is leaving for Boracay in a couple of hours. Wow, how i envy him.. Normally, I'd be like, "Boracay is Boracay".. i'd rather be in El Nido or in Siargao. But now it seem that, there is this urge for me to go there.. Hay.. Anyways...

WE HAVE A POPE!!

Arch Bishop of Munich Joseph Ratzinger is elected as the 265th ponitff Benedict XVI."Vive il Papa!!"

Ronaldo concieves two goals and i'm still doing just fine



Ronaldo scores two goals against Levante and puts pressure to the league leaders Barcelona. Though Barcelona also won against Getafe, there is still time left for the Whites to win the National Championship.

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I seriously have nothing to say today besides, my computer crashed a couple of days ago and i just realized that now a days, it's hard not to have access to the internet. Specially if you have a blog that you have to maintain and you have these things that you just have to blog. Shit, i'm starting to sound like a netgigolo.. ok, i'll shut up now.. I'll blog again tomorrow..

And oh yeah.. I'm doin just fine.. I'm still here i think... hmm.. yeah. i'm still here...

Today's Soundtrack.. It's the 80's today
Duran Duran
Van Halen
Steve Vai
Joe Satriani
Pet Shop Boys

The last stop for the Bianconeri in the Champions League

JUVENTUS 0 - 0 LIVERPOOL

(Liverpool leads 2-1 on aggregate)

Superb defensive performance for Liverpool in order to hold the Bianconeri scoreless on their home pitch in the 2nd leg of the Champions league quarterfinals.

Other Results:

Bayern Munich 3 - 2 Chelsea (Chelsea wins due to a 6 - 5 aggregate)

PSV 1 - 1 Lyon (PSV wins on penalties)

Inter Milan 0 - 1 A.C. Milan (Match Abandoned due to Disciplinary proceedings)

Yesterday was officially the end of the term and the school year. And what a way to enjoy my short fit of freedom, by getting sick. I think i have a flu or something, i'm really not sure, but i've been stuffing myself with lozenges the whole freakin' day.. i can't taste anything but orange strepsils anymore. Shit.. anyways, i mentioned a short fit of freedom since i'm bout to start summer classes next week. Now thats from next week till the 12th of May and regular classes start on the 23rd of May.. now ain't that shit grand?! i mean, while you guys are getting bummed out this summer in Boracay or wherever God takes you, i'll be with the school idiot in school.. studying business math!.. HAY DIOS MIO!! what have i gotten myself into this time?!

On other things, Catherine's kid Ali, is going to be operated on tomorrow at around 7am in the Philippine General Hospital. He's got something on his head that needs removing. Some cyst or something i dunno so, for all y'all reading this, head for the chapel or something and say a little prayer. I know you guys don't know who my good friend Catherine is but would it hurt to pray for a stranger who needs one? i mean If you don't know, well it's hard for someone, specially a simgle mom like Catherine to handle something as big as this aight? so let's just be nice and give a good shout out to the Man Above the Clouds and the Stars for Catherine here aight?!

PEACE!!!

Today's Soundtrack
Master P - Burbs and Lacs, Miss My Homies
Mariah Carey - One Sweet Day, Always be My Baby
Boyz II Men - Water Runs Dry, On Bended Knees, End of the Road

REAL MADRID 4 - 2 BARCELONA I will say no more!!

Ok.. so now i'm more intoxicated than last night and the night before.. thank god i can still type properly.. well at least i think i still can, anyways.. so far from what Victor and brian had told me or has been telling me, everything is doing all good. actually it's the first time i've heard vic's side and so far, it's all good.. anyways, i'm too drunk and once again i'm sleeping in the couch since my nephew and my sister in law is here.. but anyways who gives a shit.. i simply just love them both so much! i'll update you guys in a couple of hours about what's up with tonight... Hora Le! PEACE!!

This is what i look like now if you guys are wondering..

Today's Soundtrack:
The Montefiori Cocktail
Incubus
The Dave Matthews Band

Intoxicated with Cuba Libre... Currently 3:30 a.m.

And so now once again, i'm writing intoxicated. I can't seem to remember when the last time this happened.. Oh yeah, i wrote in my multiply the last time drunk as hell (check it out http://thashack.multiply.com). Anyways, like i always do, i'm into this shit of deep thinking again. This time it's not one of those shit where i just try and answer some absurd quandery that i normally just formulate out of nowhere. This time i really have to figure some crazy shit valid answer for this shit.. so now you ask.. what the hell am i talking about?!

well, read my previous ABC entry and that's the shit. It's just hard you know?! i know that for a fact, though i never expected it to be this hard. I mean, i've been trying to keep my composure in front of everyone and specially in front of her, and sadly it's just that my composure gauge is at it's record low and i don't know how long i'm gonna last (but i have to make it last.. i kinda promised). And so eventhough it's low and dismal, i just have to keep myself steady (this shit is hard)..

It's the first time in a long time where i got exasperated with a situation.. not with a person.. crazy really..

Quote of the Day: I'd Dance a thousand steps for you, if you say yes to me, i'll be whatever gets you through"

Today's Soundtrack
Dave Matthews Band - Fool to Think, Warehouse, Space Between, Satellite, Typical Situation.
Incubus - Deep Inside, Megalomaniac, Clean, Wish You Were Here, Echo, Certain Shade of Green, Warning, Miss You.
Maroon 5 - She Will be Loved
Sugar Ray - Falls Apart, Spinning Away
The Beatles - Blackbird, Michelle, HELP!

Pope John Paul II 1920 - 2005

Can you please tell the man up above the clouds that I said HI!

Space Invasion...

And so my space was invaded last night in cocoy's party.. how and why? Hazel came with her boy. the first time ever that i could not move properly in my own space with my people. I was with the people i've known for the past 10 years and so, yet last night i felt like i was in a field where there's a lot of people whom i don't know. Last night felt like forever with a twist.. i hope this shit wouldn't happen again.. (Thank God my Brother, Sabrina, Catherine, Marla, Victor and Cocoy was there.. or else i might have gone insane..)

Lack of sleep = Lousy entry

MSNBC News: A Tracktor Driver suffocates under a pile of manure, what a miserable way of passing.. in a pile of manure. How odd.. anyways, this has been a very long week.. project after project after project and a function. i deserve to get a scholarship just for this week alone for the time i spent on school substance. I mean, probably in the average, i slept a total of at least 8 - 10 hours this week.. this ain't right.. this just ain't right..

Current State: Spinning Away in an ominous landscape of neverending calamity(after i get to sleep this will change).
Playing in the Player: Tori Amos, Sarah Mclachlan, Boxcar Racer, Yellow Card, Gomez and 311.

ZzZZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ.. Shut down..

Holyweek..

I never imagined something like this happening during the holyweek, but it did. Let's just say.. A and B liked each other but never really talked about it. Then, C comes and gets together with A. Everything was fine with B since he thought this was just a one way thing, even though he really liked A. Until one night, A and B came clean with each other.. A said B was just a bit too late. B said he knows. A said C and her were just together and they wern't married. B, said he knows and he quickly gave this Longfellow Deedsy answer.. "that's why i'm just here". Well basically after that short but sweet talk that felt like forever, they both hugged and life went on..

B as composed as he is, is proabably feeling like shit right now.. As if the sky just fell, but for all you know what happened was worse.. he fell in love. That doesn't happen much.. he gets crushes yeah, that happens to everyone, but when he falls.. he freakin' falls, believe me! he'd pray, wish and dream that it would be it if ever he does again.. Well.. based from the situation, i'd say he'd already fallen and he's in the dirt. Sad really, but who knows.. maybe this time, this so called "wait" is worth it. you'll never know.. And i know for a fact that he's gonna wait for A.

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Last Night was surreal.. i'm still somewhere in the middle...

It's Like saying goodbye to an old friend. An old trustworthy chap whom stood by us throug thick and thin. Our companion when we still ruled the world. He holds countless memories, ha been to countless beach trips, countless everything.. Cyah Brotha! Thank You!

"The Rise of the Bianconeri over the Whites, The 5th Function and The Weekend Golf"



When everyone thought that the match was going to be decided through a Shoot Out, Marcelo Zalayeta of Juventus, rose to the occation and scored the winning goal over the Whites with only four minutes remaining in the 2nd half of extra time. The Whites needed only one goal in order to win through aggregate but failed because of tight Juventus defence. This is the 2nd time in 2 years that Juventus eliminated the Whites in the quarter finals and with the Whites winning the first leg of the series.

Goals:
1-0: 75' Trezeguet, on his back, took advantage of a ball from Ibrahimovic.
2-0: 116' Zalayeta, from outside the area.
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The 5th Function (French):

This is the first ever function that i was a steward (The term steward is a nice way of calling someone a dishwasher). Anyway, the function was alright, although my fellow stewards was not being much of a help and the food was a bit mediocre. Our Executive Chef, wasn't as creative as i thought she would be. I mean, our menu was a bit ordinary. Imagine, we had Potato salad and Chicken with black olives, how inventive is that? and with the tuition that we are paying?! come on! and not that i'm bragging or anything, but i can do that blindfolded and with my left hand tied behind my back. And the frnech cuisine is the mother of all cuisine. Sheeesh! what a waste of a good function. I'm hoping.. Hoping, that our next Executive Chef is more imaginative than this one (and i'm doubting that she is).

Function Rating: C-
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Weekend Golf:
The Saturday and Sunday is composed of Golf. Saturday was in the Country Club and Sunday was in Mount Malarayat, Batangas. So far nothing in my golf game changed, which is a bit sad. I'm aiming for a low handicap but i guess i'll have to workd harder for that. Last Saturday's event was the President's cup which we almost won the championship. Oh well, not yet our time i guess.. hehehe.

Champions League Final 16


Two of Europe's elite teams clashes tonight in the second leg of in final 16 of the UEFA Champions League. It's going to be Real Madrid C.F. and Juventus F.C., where Madrid Leads 1-0 on aggregate.

In the first leg, the Bianconeri played without their striker David Trezeguet who was out with a flu and injured their midfielder Pavel Nedved, who clashed heads with Madrid's Raul Bravo. In this match it is still unknown wether Trezeguet will play, but for sure Nedved will not. On the other hand, The Whites played pretty well and with a complete squad. although this time they are worried about David Beckham's fitness. The England captain was taken off in the second half of Saturday's 1-1 draw with Valencia CF. Another Plus is that Michael Owen (stomach bug), Zinedine Zidane (groin) and Raúl González (flu) are all set to play despite skipping the Valencia match.

This will be a Match! Good Luck to all!

Last night's results:
Chelsea 4-2 F.C. Barcelona
(Aggregate: 5-4 Chelsea advances)
Lyon 7-3 Werder Bremen
(Aggregate: 10-2 Lyon advances)
AC Milan 1-0 Mancester United
(Aggregate: 2-0 AC Milan advances)

Tonight's Games:
Real Madrid 45:00 Juventus
(Aggregate: 1-0 on Madrid)
Leverkusen 45:00 Liverpool
(Aggregate: 1-3 on Liverpool)
AS Monaco 45:00PSV
(Aggregate: 0-1 on PSV)
Arsenal 45:00 Bayern Munich
(Aggregate: 1-3 on Bayern Munich)

Beached in Laiya, Batangas (Feb 25-26)

Great isn't exactly the word for this trip. I think it's an overstatment, if there is such word as overstatement. I guess the word is aight. I've seen better beaches, but a mediocre beach is better than no beach at all right?! Anyways, i didn't actually swim that much in the beach since the beach was composed of mostly rocks, there was sand but just until before the shore and there were a lot of jellyfishes as big as showplates. When i say a lot i mean a lot, there were hundreds of them. Snorkling though was the shit. There were some spots there that would pass for discovery channel, Lovely really. Anyways, I was with Chase, Wowie and the whole Marriage Encounter crew the whole time. It was one of them wholesome beach trips, with a bit of Hennesey X.O.on the side. Also, Aunt Evelyn since she was there, she fed us like there was no tomorrow with her Halo Halo and some other stuff. After the whole weekend i felt like i wasn't going to be able to eat for a week! sheeez!

In conclution, everything was aight! it wasd a chillout weekend. A press on the panic button for a quick break from reality... hehee nice!!

Soundtrack
Dave Matthews Band (you can't go to the beach without DMB)- Central Park, Chicago, San Francisco and Red Rocks.
The Beatles (Classic)- Here Comes the Sun, Eleanor Rigby, Let it be, A day in the life, Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, Twist and Shout and many more.
Cafe Del Mar (This is a Given)- Volumen 7,6,8,9.

Here are some pics!


Wowie

The Beach House

Gaplato na Jellyfish!

The Sunset

Dual Function, Spotlight stolen from Rooney and Beachbound

Yesterday was our 4th function this term. It's was a bit messy compared to the previous two functions but i think we did pretty well. I don't think Chef Jose Miguel would agree with me since he thought it was a disaster, but either way, i think it was aight. It was two function cusines in one, Korean and Japanese. Both cuisines i think has a lot of similarities when it comes to meat and poultry but nothing can beat Japanese when it comes to the freshness of their fish. And also, they have this meticulous way of preparing and presenting their dishes that never ceases to amaze me. Korean on the other hand, has this obsession for Sesame seeds. I got nothing against it really, i guess that's the trade mark of their food. I'l try and post some photos in a couple of days, just check it out.

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The Old Trafford spotlight was stolen from the young phenom Wayne Rooney of Manchester United as Hernan Crespo of AC Milan scores the only goal on the first leg of their match in the UEFA Champion's League Quarter Finals. Hernan Crespo gets a rebound from a bounce off Clarence Seedorf's shot to Carrol to concieve his third Champion's League goal this season. The Second Leg will be played in San Siro, Milan this 8th of march where i think a miracle can only save Manchester's Season.

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In a Couple of hours i'm off to the beach in Laiya, Batangas. I need this break i just know it. I'll post again on Saturday! Au Revoir!

End of the First Leg, Start of the Second / The Whites Barely escapes Cappello's Boys in Bianconeri

This week the professors and the chefs started handing out our midterm grades, and to my surprise i did pretty well, eventhough i've been slacking off this first leg of the term. Anyways, i hope i don't screw up this second leg, i mean, i really have to graduate already. Correction, not because i have to, but because i want to already, it's imperative for me to graduate before the next school year starts.

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Ivan Helguerra Celebrating!

On sports, Real Madrid barely draws with Juventus in the first leg of the Champion's League quarter finals which was held this morning in Estadio de Santiago Bernabeu in Espana. Madrid's hero is defender Ivan Helguerra (6) where he scored the only goal in the game throgh a free kick from David Beckham (23) on the 31st minute. What probably held Juventus back was the absence of the French striker David Trezeguet and Pavel Nedved's injury. They actually did pretty well on holding back the Whites considering their teams state. Nice one! Next game is on March 9, which will be played in Del Alpi. Good Luck to both teams..

Other Scores
Bayern Munich 3-1 Arsenal
Liverpool 3-1 Bayern Leverkusen
PSV 1-0 AS Monaco
Real Madrid 1-0 Juventus F.C.

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