Thursday, July 31, 2003



What the hell is Joan Laporta trying to Do?!?! Trying to make up for Beckham's loss?!? Trading Jersey's with NBA Commisioner David Stern?! what? he's gonna get Pau Gasol as his new Goalie?!? HAHA!!


FORCA MADRID!!

Wednesday, July 30, 2003

Tell me what happened?! i just woke up one morning and everything is gone. From the thought in the mind to how i see you..
Tell me something.. I don't know..
Can This really happen? or what i felt was just for show?!

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

My blogger is alive once more! thank GoD! I like the old one better but this is better than nothing.. and as long as i can write.. right?! haha!

I just cam back form fuego.. fuck the place was something else! I'm telling you! to those people whose gone there! Good for You and for those who haven't.. Go there!

Until Next time!

Keep it Real!

Sunday, July 27, 2003

"From Fuego and Back"

I just came from Punta Fuego.. Like before the place was the shit.. the beach was perfect, it rained though but fuck it it was still the shit! we didn't see the sunset because of the rain but its ok.. we had fun anyways. When night came.. of course alcohol was there and Everyone was wasted.. those people who don't know our friend.. they were introduced to him and his girlfriend.. Bong and Weng-Weng.. hehe.. of course i was standing.. hehehe

Also.. if you have noticed.. i have anew format for my blog, sorry if its kinda fucked up.. its still under construction..

anyhow.. Until next time!

Friday, July 25, 2003

I see you now
Oh, fill me now, my friend
I feel it's coming down
My voice cries out
And I only hope that you're the one
My words will fall upon

I play my cards
But it's by the grace of love
That I play my cards at all
Come fill me up
Oh fill me now when I'm empty
When I'm all dried out

Rain down on me
Again and again
Rain down on me

Oh, I see it now
I see them all, see them all
They line up to drink the blood
I see it now
I believe the devil and the lord have been dancing all along

Watch that be just not the way
Left and right we're different, different
What live, oh, then to give, what to become to take your time, oh
What's this, oh, what to give to get home all alone
To save me, child

I feel it now
I see you standing there like an angel
That fell down from above
I see you now
I don't believe anything but a billion years
Could make you what you are

Say, oh, God give, don't take away
Who is the one to break up, break up
Made it all, tears in the way
Hope to get me to break my time off
God give, don't take away
Oh, but what to save me, child?

Rain down on me
Again and again
Rain down on me

Thursday, July 24, 2003

Bright lights in my smokey eyes tonight, its 2am. i'm still up again and its heavy in my mind. And to fucking think i gots an 8am class later(god damn it!).I thought i could fall asleep again like the way i do. Shit this is the lonliest time of my fucking day.. I kinda envy you guys with normal sleeping habits and fuck i kinda miss sleeping too.. ain't that a bitch.. Shit i don't even know why the fuck this is happening to me.. Maybe i think too much and all that bullshit! Anyhow..

What did i do wrong?! Was it some thing i said? What did i say to you that made you turn your head?! Do i deserve this? or you just enjoy doing this?!I don't mind you doing this as long as i'm a bitch.. am i bitch or ain't i just worthy? Tell me if im just wasting my time and tell me straight up.. I know i'm in a Ditch but will you pull me up?help me out in this madness i am in?Unplug your T.V.,Turn off your Phone, I'll stop dreaming,Stop Re-living and tell me where i stand.. Pull me up and tell me something i don't know but i'm not your Fan.Please i'm begging you, ok now i'm on my knees..Take my Eyes take my Pride i need them no more just tell me Should i stay or should i go so i know where my dissapointments will roll.. Will I Rise or Will I Fall? I don't care no more. As Long as I know your Decision and all your stories Untold.

Unto your dreaming
When you're alone
Unplug the TV
Turn off your phone
Get heavy on with digging your ditch

Cause I'm digging a ditch where madness gives
Digging a ditch where silence lives
Digging a ditch for when I'm old
Digging a ditch where stories told
Where all these troubles
That weigh down on me will rise
Unto your dreaming
When you're alone
Where all these worries
Weigh heavy on my heart
Will rise..


Wednesday, July 23, 2003

I Wonder how ya Doin..
We Havent Talked in awhile..
And I Haven't See you in a long time..
Hope you're thinking of the same thing..

I Guess I miss You..
I guess I still Want you..
Does the moon shine in Paris?!
or Does it shine here alone?!

Monday, July 21, 2003

The 36th

yeah yeah i scream...
with you on my mind so heavy and so hard
i don't know quite everything
you make me think of a better thing
better things to fill my day with
but they don't mean to go
please don't be too bad with me, God
please don't be too good...
let some women's light, women's light
chain my hands with me singing
Honey Honey, come and dance for me,
sooner there..
Honey Honey, come and dance for me
only the brave
feeling the night..
lead me back home to life..

you made heaven turn to dirt..
and dirt turn to dance on..
heaven come my way..
baby surely do..
maybe some moonlight..
maybe some, baby surely do..
maybe some moonlight
say this say this...
Honey Honey, come and dance for me
underneath the moonlight..
Honey Honey, Come and dance for me
come on, come on go
Honey Honey, come and dance for me

oh man, i can't talk
a man was tall and once tore a piece of freedom for us all
when, then, you least expect it
hun can cut from of his own heart
for us all, that man
don't believe it, oh yeah....
God, two men slice and dice eachother up in his place
they don't believe it...
well leave it
leave it lying, leave it lying, leave it lying
got me singing
Honey Honey, come and dance for me..

Sunday, July 20, 2003

"Lullabye"

goodnight, goodnight sweet baby
the world has more for you
than it seems
goodnight, goodnight
let the moonlight take the lid off your dreams

we took a small flight
in the middle of the night
from one tiny place to another
and my parents they remained
at the shack with Aby Wowie,
and my aunt and Maids and brother
we walked past the tarmac
and boarded the craft
the rain had me chilled to the bones
just the three of us took flight that night,
Dave Matthews, You and Me
and the pilot he gave me a blanket
while the tall man with a Guitar sang to me in deep rich tones...

Goodnight, Goodnight
Sweet Baby...

the world has more for you
than it seems
goodnight, goodnight
let the moonlight take the lid off your dreams..

Friday, July 18, 2003

Countdown.. 30 min. Left and its our mid-terms in philosophy.. goddamn! and i don't know jack shit!

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

"Demons"

My words confuse you
My eyes don’t move a blink
Cause it’s easier sometimes
Not to be sincere

Somehow I make you believe..
Believe..
When I speak I cross my fingers

Will you know you’ve been deceived?
I find a need to be the demon
A demon cannot be hurt
Honest is easy
Fiction is where genius lies
Cause it’s easier sometimes
Not to be involved

Somehow I make you believe..
Believe..
When I speak I cross my fingers
Will you know you’ve been deceived?
I find a need to be the demon

A demon cannot be hurt...

This Morning i took my midterms with a hang over.. Good thing i knew what the test was all about. And after that it was our lab.. still the hang over was still there.. i almost cut my finger with the knife because of my motherfucking headache and dizzyness!.. Now its exactly 1:36 pm and im in Angelo King international Center.. Writting this shit, and wating for my next class which is not until 4:20 pm, And goddamn i still have the fucking hang over.. i tried going to the clinic but they said that if my excuse was "i have a hang over.." they wouldn't accept that and they wouldn't let me sleep there.. shit.. how i wish i was in my bed right now.. lying down.. full blast aircon.. with a fuckin' comforter.. sleeping this whole shit out! Oh yeah, I went out to Studio 1 last night to Rap once again.. the whole S.E.E.E.E.E.E.C. was there... hehehe... thanks for coming guys! Merci!

Merci<--- c/o Crizelle! hehehe!

Until next time... Vamanos!

Monday, July 14, 2003

"Warning"

Bat your eyes girl
Be otherworldly
Count your blessings
Seduce a stranger
What's so wrong with
Being happy
Kudos to those who
See through sickness
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves before it's
Made illegal
When will we learn?
When will we change?
Just in time to
See it all fall down
Those left standing...will make millions
Writing books on the way it should have been
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
Floating in this
Cosmic jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
To the water
Starting to boil
No one flinches
We all float face down
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by

I never knew that i would..
I never imagined that i could..
I never really thought that it would..
But i did... you still with me?
ain't that something?
I'm not talking about you know who..
But im talking about you know what..
and you know what is what you know..
tough isn't it?
take your time and try to understand..
what im trying to conversate about..

this all about me..
falling..
and standing up..
but not knowing..
i'd end up falling again..
Damn..

Sunday, July 13, 2003

Reality struck..

Dreaming without even sleeping..
What the fuck was i thinking?!
Waking up and your not sleeping?!
ain't that a very interesting predicament?!

Reality Stuck..
Thinking so much differently.. because im dreaming..
it feels so good, but waking up is such a drag..
its like bumping you head in a post..
and falling down in your knees in pain..
As if your gonna combusticate...

What was i thinking?
dreaming of you while im awake..
eyes wide open and you look like your awake?
Dreaming of you while im awake..

Saturday, July 12, 2003

"Magic"

from the back of your big brown eyes
i knew you'd be gone as soon as you could
and i hoped you would
we could see that you weren't yourself
and the lines on your face did tell
it's just as well
you'd never be yourself again

saw you last night
dance by the light of the moon
stars in your eyes
free from the life that you knew

you're the magic that holds the sky up from the ground
you're the breath that blows these cool winds 'round
trading places with an angel now
saw you last night
dance by the light of the moon
stars in your eyes
free from the life that you knew
saw you last night
stars in your eyes
smiled in my room

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Third Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Extreme
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

Friday, July 11, 2003

Oh, my head lay back on the seating
Been so tired, throw away my surrounding
Like the sun and moon take for granted
Soon we move through the flood and we fade away

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
We'll be ok

Lean upon me,
I'll lean upon you,
We'll be okay

Oh, I lay myself at your feet laughing
Hope mine eye made of the soul choir

Lean upon me,
I'll lean upon you,
We'll be okay

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
Soon fade away

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
We'll be okay

Tables turned again
On you, my friend
You and I face each other
All time and time out

I know it's sometimes hard
But knowing just
That we will get along
Until we're old and grey
And huddled up
And doubled up, we'll say...

And laugh of times were hard
Laugh of times when we thought all
Would end it all, it's over
And then again

And though all I know is this way
And to leave you
Well, I'd die
Oh, my friend
It will be you until the end with me, always

Always...

Tuesday, July 08, 2003

"DDAY 08.07.03"

While Minding My Own Business in school and looking for a computer to blog on or just go online on, or something, because of my fuckin' 4 hour break.. I just saw the person whom i would least expect in the computer lab. Its was this person whom i call "Little Girl"... So to those people who knows... hehehe i guess you know how im feeling right now... haha!! ain't life a bitch!

Sunday, July 06, 2003


Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!


I AM FUCKIN' WINNIE THE POOH! HOW DEPRESSING IS THAT?!?!

"A Certain Shade of Green"

A certain shade of green,
tell me, is that what you need?
All signs around say move ahead.
Could someone please explain to me your ever present
lack of speed?
Are your muscles bound by ropes?
Or do crutches cloud your day?
My sources say the road is clear,
and street signs guide my way.
Are you gonna stand around till 2012 A.D.?
What are you waiting for,
A certain shade of green?
I think I grew a gray watching you procrastinate.
What are you waiting for,
A certain shade of green?
Would a written invitation
signed, "Choose now or lose it all,"
sedate your hesitation?
Or inflame and make you stall?
You've been raised in limitation,
but that glove never fit quite right.
The time has come for hand-me-downs,
choose anew, please evolve,
take flight
What are you waiting for?
A written invitation?
A public declaration?
A private consolation?

"Redefine"

Imagine your brain as a
canister filled with ink
yeah, now think of your body
as the pen where the ink resides
Fuse the two; KAPOW!
What are you now?
You're the human magic marker, won't you
please surprise my eyes?
It's in your nature,
you can paint whatever picture
you like no matter what
Ted Filon says on channel 2 tonight
So modify this third rock from the sun
by painting myriads of pictures
with the colors of one
I'm sick of painting in black and white
my pen is dry, now I'm uptight
So sick of limiting myself
to fit your definition
Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye,
manifest and become illustrated
You'd be sure man that every
line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated
So, must we demonstrate that
we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture,
now we're drowning in paint
Lets figure out what the fuck it's about
before the picture we painted
chews us up and spits us out
I'm sick of painting in black and white
my pen is dry, now I'm uptight
So sick of limiting myself
to fit your definition
Redefine

Oh my dear,
When I was dreaming,
Take your lie's elsewhere
don't Give them to me

Oh my friend,
Old as you are,
How could I trust you as far
As I could throw your brother?

As to you my love,
My precious baby,
If I die be sure that you meet me up
Where I can stay with you.

Take my flesh,
And eat it down
Drink my blood for every pound you can brother.

We reconcile, our differences,
When I saw God and the devil walking on and on.
We reconcile, our different tastes,
When I saw the devil swimming in the Lord's swimming pool.

To drink his wine,
God forgive him,
Your falling angels doing fine
He's got you under boards.

Oh then God,
This dream may be done,
How he had given rise to him what would we care.

If there were no Judas,
Or there were no devil,
Where would God and this little boy be now?
No where I swear.

Oh it's said,
When it seems extreme,
When all we do is reconcile our differences here.

Thursday, July 03, 2003

"Pardon Me"

Pardon me while I burst
A decade ago, I never thought I would be.
A Nineteen on the verge of spontaneous combustion. Woe-is-me
But I guess that it comes with the territory.
An ominous landscape of never-ending calamity.
I need you to hear. I need you to see.
That I have had all I can take
And exploding seems like a definite possibility
To me...

So Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games
So Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Not, two days ago I was having a look in a book
And I saw a picture of a guy fried up above his knees
I said I can relate
Cause lately I've been thinking of combustication as a welcomed vacation from.
The burdens of the planet earth, like gravity, hypocrisy, and the perils of being in 3-D...
And thinking so much differently...

Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games
Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Never be the same...

I Got This Poem Form My Friend Primo's Blogger. This poem was written By Juventus F.C. Superstar Alessandro Del Piero. I Always thought that he was a great Football Player.. But I Didn't think He Could write for shit! FORZA JUVE!

In Italian:
"Arriva la Primavera"

la finissima pioggia
di marzo e arrivata
portando con se
la primavera
che arriva
a galoppando
su di un cavallo ricoperto
di fior di pesco.
la principessa primavera
candida come I fiori del melo riempie
tutto il mondo di gioia.
l'inverno se n'e andato per il mondo
a fare provvista
di nuove bufere, di nuove temporali e nuove nebbie
ma c'e ancora tempo,
prima che ritorni,
e questo tempo basta
per tutti noi
ad essere felici,
a riempire il cuore
di luce dorata,
dei mille colori del sole
dei loro profumi,
del canto degli uccelli.

written by Alessandro Del Piero in 1983, nine years of age

English Translation:
"Comes the spring"

the very light rain
of March has arrived
bringing along
the Spring
that comes
galloping
on a horse recovered
with peach tree flowers.
the princess Spring
innocent as the apple tree flowers fills
the whole world with joy.
the Winter has gone around the world
to store
new tempests, new storms and new fogs
but there is still time,
before it returns,
and this time is enough
for all of us
to be happy,
to fill the heart
with golden light,
with the million colours of the sun
with their perfume,
with the birds' song


Tuesday, July 01, 2003

I don't think you notice
When you see my face
I guess you're waiting
To spin me around again

Wheels I guess are turning
Somewhere inside my head
I know that this is
Deeper than you get

But you're coming back again
You don't mean to waste my time
But you're coming back so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine
Here finding me
Me

I've already given
Up on getting through
I never question
Who I'm talking to

Oh so much for nothing
But nothing means so much
I know it's touching
But I've been out of touch

And it's all that I can do
I'm a sight for my sore eyes
But it's all I am so

I don't think you notice
When I can't reach out
I guess you're waiting
On somebody else again

Oh so much for talking
It's all been said before
I'm hearing something
but I wish you'd just say more

But you're going off again
When I try to just hold on
But you're going off so

"The Motherfuckin' Saga Continues.."

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