DDay 12.25.02

Well.. Merry Christmas to all y'all. Basically i want to be as forthcoming as i can be so here i go. i didn't get what i wanted, i don't even have A gift you know and after a long time this is my first christmas without someone special to spend it with besides my family.. if you know what i mean. this has not been the most fucked up christmas i ever had and this has not been the very best christmas i ever had but you know its just that ive been expecting a lot from this christmas and i guess i didn't get as much as i wanted you know. But im thankful that my family is here and all that shit.. so anyways.. Merry Christmas And hope you enjoy it!!
Peace Out!!

Anmi

For years you have been the light of my soul,
The inspiration of my thoughts,
Definition of beauty and power for a Woman,
My dream that i hoped will never fade,

Everytime i see u i smile,
You Complete my day,
Adore you in each and every way,
And because of you i was happy

Suddenly you dissapeared,
We, i guess went our separate ways,
Our lives have changed,
and i never told you how i really feel.

I guess now its too late, your not the same,
you got a man, and damn, you happy,
your still in me, you never were gone,
and believe me.. your presence still amazes me,

Here We Go Again..

For those who dont know me.. This aint for you..

A while ago, i was in the strangest place.. i was in the house of the girl that i "used" to have feelings for... i was invited by her brother to go there because of a damn party.. i acctually dont know why i said yes..anyways i was parking accross the street when this car pulled up their driveway and then she came out... I acctually dont know what i felt. its like all coming back bro.. the "used to" suddenly became a "still". you Dig? the first thing i said when i saw her was...."Damn you fine". I was supposed to wave but for some pathetic reason i didn't know how... She's already taken just to let you know and to make things worse. She bloomed bro.. prettier than ever. Anyways now i lie here in my bed typing this shit.. what do i do? For those who know me.. HELP!!!

Cesca

For the little girl i still adore,
i hope he adores you, more than i do
For the Little girl i used to make smiles for,
i hope he makes you smile, more i do

For the Little girl i used to make laughs for,
i hope you still laugh, eventhough im not there anymore
For the little girl i have feelings for,
well i guess i just have to let it go

For the little girl i dream about,
well i guess i should stop dreaming
For the Little Girl im about to let go..
Little girl hope your happy, kuz i don't know what ill be

Little Woman With a Dog

Little Woman with a dog, Where are you
For I ain't got anyone to talk to
Little Woman with a dog, Where did you go
For I can't find you

I am in the street and i am alone,
Looking for someone to talk to
Little woman witha dog, where are you
for i guess we all miss you..

I Who Falls From Within

I Who falls from within
Which my feelings brought me down,
and anxiety kept me from going up,
i am still here, buried in feelings from my fall.

Inch by Inch i try to climb,
but lonliness keeps me,
from reaching the sunshine
on top of me, and I am still here,
buried in feelings from my fall

My falling is my own doing, for i haven't cooled
the fire of my longing for you, So now i have fallen,
so deep i can't reach you anymore, and now i am buried,
buried in feelings that i can no longer keep.

What of Love Unspoken

I know my heart is lying before,
but now it speaks with honesty,
of an invinciblebond of friendship,
that was formed in secrecy.

comin' from me it may seem hard,
but o God i swear its truth,
we are friends for eternity and forever i will..
love you..

All my life i have dreamed of someone,
who emmits beauty in them,
and once i found her,
would charm her and she'd be mine forever.

I found her and indeed, she is all i had wished for,
and more than i can see, its not char more than inrigue.
i say to myself, what could i offer her?

The tear bloat my eye and blurred my vision,
as soon as i can clear i gave her,
the instantaning look, that she gave me..

Look at you, you are so beautiful,
but what could i offer you?
you said you love me forever..
but what about today?

and if my doubts and questions upset you,
forgive my fragile heart,
i just want to know if you lover me forever
before today....

-2Pac Shakur

Ouch..

A Girl they are talking about..
A Girl they are talking about infront of you..
A Girl so different.. u dare not to explain how
A Girl you are inlove with
A Girl..
A Girl thats with your friend

Ouch...

I wish this could have been for you..

Love me, not as the dreaming nurses
my falling lungs, nor as the cypress
in his age the lass's clay.
love me and lift your mask

Love me, not as he girls in heaven
their airy lovers, nor the mermaiden
her salty lovers in the sea.
love me and lift your mask

Love me, not as the ruffling pigeon
the tops of trees, nor as the legion
of gulls the lip of waves
love me and lift your mask.

Love me, as loves the mole his darkness
and the timid deer the tigress:
hate and fear by your two loves
love me and lift your mask

Was there a time

Was there a time when dancers with their fiddles
in children's circuses could stay their troubles?
there was a time they could cry over books,
but time has set its maggots on their tracks.
under the arc of the sky they are unsafe.
whats never known is safest in this life.
under the skysigns they who have no arms
have cleanest hands, and, as heartless ghost
alone's unhurt, so the blind man sees best

Because of you

As depression rolls in my body
I ask myself what does it want from me?
And as I stroll into the depths of my mind,
I see that it has already shadowed my whole existence.

Too all this I say to myself,
This is all because of you.
The fear of loosing you, was once my nightmare
But now that I have awaken, it is now a reality

Reality has struck me hard, and I now lie on the floor
And I say to myself that I can’t take it anymore
But what can I do?
This is the reality that I really wished I shouldn’t have knew

You know who you are..
You showed me reality.. you showed me how it is in the real world.. you told me how you struggled in life and how lucky i am right now.. you taught me the brilliance of the shining sun bringing light and warmth and if necessary fire, and the reaffirmance that if it sets.. i will rise again in full grace.. So to you i owe my grattitude.. for you have showed me reality.. the reality that they have never showed me...

Dusk

As dusk cover the sky of blue
Here I sit thinking of you,
You don’t make a sound,
Or make yourself felt;
I am empty
For I want you here with me

As I think of what to say
I am trampled by the fear of rejection,
I don’t know what to do,
Or how to react;
For being with you,
Is a dream come true?

What should I say or do,
To make me be with you,
I am now in shambles,
As I sit here,
Under the dusk covered sky thinking,
What’s up with you.