Well.. Ok..

Left for work at around 5:00 a.m.

So today, i ventured into commuting to work for the first time. And frankly, this first timer ain't happy. I rode a Skyway bus that was headed for Makati in the Metropolis station at around 5:20 in the morning since, according to my Mother whom i love so much.. if i rode that bus, it would stop in a bus stop adjacent to my workplace.. Well that's according to her.. But according to the Metro Manila Development Authority or MMDA, that bus stop causes traffic, so to make the long story short.. They took that bus stop out and moved it somewhere farther. I went past that bus stop, walked back a few kilometers.. then headed for Ayala Avenue and rode a jeep where i thought they'd be turning right to Makati Avenue, And then went down the Ayala Strip to wait for non existent jeeps that pass through Makati Avenue for a good 20 minutes, and when i finally realized that there wasn't any jeeps passing that way, i just lit a stick and started walking the 3 kilometer stretch to my office.. Hay, i should have taken the car..

Got to the office at around 6:50 a.m.

The Bus Ride..

Before actually getting all stressed up in Makati, the bus ride from the terminal to the Central Business District was kind of nostalgic and somewhat nice. I remembered how it was getting up before the roosters started crowing for a 7am class to school and rushing to the station to get the first bus to Manila.. I still remember it, the Juaymah-Maureen bus with it's green and white stripes a logo of a weird elephant that's dancing. I still remember before, that when that bus hits the Skyway, i look at the lovely sunrise that's hitting the CBD of Makati and I start wondering.. "when" and after the toll, the bus goes past the first, second and third exits and heads straight for Manila and then Boom.. back to reality..

This morning i got the same feeling back but instead of a "when" it was a "now" with a nod. And instead of missing the exits, i went through the first one and it headed smack dab on the side of the CBD where the stress started. Actually, in a way it feels good, knowing that i already head there instead of heading for the last exit to Manila. Knowing that i'm already living that daydream of actually working in Makati. Eventhough i'm still kinda hoping that i'd be heading there in different circumstances, i'm already there nontheless.. so whatever.. i guess, i'll just make the best out of it.. or until i still can..

Anyway.. Tomorrow's another day..

PS.. Hey Bea.. i don't know why, but other than reminicing, i was really thinking about you the whole trip to work.. I dunno.. maybe i miss you.. or maybe I REALLY miss you.. or maybe we should talk reaally soon.. so here.. i got this off the "a softer world website" since it reminded me of..

Work.. (Week 1)

My Prayers have been answered..YES! i have a job already. Finally, my rents are off my back.. or so i thought. I'm not a chef in a hotel or in a restaurant though (but i'm currently working on that), I'm an F.O. in a Hotel smack dab in the middle of the RED LIGHT district in Makati. Nice noh?! According to my good friend Krizia "I have such a cool and glamorous job".. Ok.. sabi mo eh!

To tell you the truth, i'm thankful that my prayers of finally getting a decent job has been answered but this is not what i want to do.. and everyone knows that. On my first day last Monday, i wanted to quit already.. imagine what i'm feeling right now. The people in the workplace is nice don't get me wrong. I'm not being mistreated or whatsoever, it's just that for me, in order to be efficient in what you do, you got to love what you are doing. And frankly.. i don't like what i'm doing.. i'm actually in the verge of hating it since i don't like it so much..

Hay nako.. anyway..
From Tomorrow until next sunday i will be AWOL again from the youth and from the world.. hay...

I Can't Believe it's been a Year.. Happy Anniversary You Guys..

Our story still hasn't ended and it's still ours..

Happy Birthday.. That's all I can say as of now, i'd love to say some more but i'd rather not.. but still you know what i want to say. Since i got a new job i guess i won't be seeing you as much as before.. but believe me when i say i miss you already. And from how i see it.. i'll miss you even more tomorrow and then next week.. and more in the following weeks after that..

So I guess since we I got a crappy sched and you got a perfect one i guess I'll just see you soon hun, maybe we'll go walking or jogging the next time we both got the time or go to dinner.. have a good one.. Love yah.. :)

Part 1

Stop this train.. i have to get off..
It's going to fast and i don't want to jump off..
PLEASE STOP THIS TRAIN?!
The Conductor is a madman and,
He killed the Engineer with his thoughts..
CAN ANYONE STOP THIS TRAIN!!
I want to get off already..
It's going to fast and it's gonna hurt if i jump off..

Grey Street..

Look at how she listens,
She says nothing of what she thinks,
She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to grey street.
She thinks, "Hey, how did I come to this?"
I dream myself a thousand times around the world
But I can't get out of this place.
There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart

How she wishes it was different
She prays to God most every night
And though she swears he might not listen
There's still a hope in her he might
She says "I pray oh But they fall on deaf ears,
am I supposed to take it on myself?
To get out of this place?"

There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It's more like cold blue ice in her heart
She feels like kicking out all the windows
And setting fire to this life
She could change everything about her
Using colors bold and bright
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart..

A Sad Sad Friday..

And so, Instead of hanging out with the churchies last night since the Deen's are in Lobo, Batangas hence the Roots ain't got nowhere to hang out in, i fell asleep instead.. I have no clue on how and why this happened. The last thing i remembered was texting Anton about following wherever they are going after the chuch service and watching a low budged wannabe version of Sinbad in HBO.. Sad Sad Sad Friday..

Anyway on other things.. it's just now that it's hitting me that it's extremely difficult finding a job in my profession. Sheesh.. hard to take in but now i actually believe what the rents have been saying for the past few months.. I'm not depressed and shit don't get me wrong, it's just frustrating in a way.. Maybe i should just take that ticket the states this July and see what's in store for me back there.

Work ourselves, fingers to the bone
Suck the marrow, drain my soul
Pay your dues, and your debts
Pay your RESPECTS, everybody tells you
You pay for what you get
You pay for what you get

Everybody asks me how she's doin'
Has she all this time? i don't know
what's with her, has she lost her mind?
I said, I couldn't tell you..
I'VE LOST MINE!!

Words, words, words, have you heard
A bird in hand is much better than,
Any number free to wander
Fly away... Stay
You pay for what you get

Everybody asks me how she's doing
Is she really ok like what she says?
Everybody asks me how she's doing
I said I couldn't tell you
but I'm OK I'm OK...

Surprise, surprise
You pay for what you get

Sun will shine no matter what I do
Sun shines bright now with you
What a wonderful thing for you to do
Moon shine bright
Reflection in your eyes
A finer place he could not find

Winter's cold
Spring erases
And the calm away by the storm is chasen
Everything good needs replacing
Hope all these changes happen with you

In my life
Never before have I a lover so adored
Her eyes
Her hair
Everything she says
My delight can tickle me inside
Touch my heart
Touch my mind

No matter what's inside I'll
Give to her
No need to satisfy my hunger
Lost in her
And while I spend these hours
Five senses reeling
With biggest steps I'm running
After her I will run

No matter what's inside I'll
Give to her
No need to satisfy my hunger
Lost in her
And while I spend these hours
Five senses reeling
With biggest steps I'm running
After her I will run

After her..