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Still sick from last weeks "flu". I took a leave last Saturday to just ease up on what i've been doing and to attend what probably is my last YE. Though it died down to colds and cough, I wanted so much to take another sick leave and just lounge around the bed the whole day in an attempt to ward away this stupid flu.. It's funny though, since if you've been sick this long, it makes you forget how it feels to be not sick. Well funny in a sense that It makes you appreciate the feeling and the fact that you will be better soon..

Line of The Week..

"Come to think of it.. Common sense isn't that common"

I seriously have to agree with that..

Graveyard Shift.. The Last Day

So, today is the last day of my graveyard shift. It's gonna be a long while before i get back to this schedule (Thank God..). So tomorrow, since technically it's already my day-off today, i'm gonna be on the Morning shift handling check-outs and just my luck the whole Stolt-Neilsen group which has 52 room will be checking out (Yahoo!! more work for me!!). Thankfully, that's my only morning shift up until next next week, where in i'm ending the month on the morning shift..

Anyway, so to sum everything up, my graveyard shif composed of hanging out with Miss Jen and yesterday with sir Ralph.. and work wise.. well.. let's not go there.. Oh yeah, they shampooed the carpet awhile ago and they have huge ass fans here to dry it, it's so freaking noisy in here that i feel like i'm in an airplane.. Well.. that's as close as i'm getting to Flying in a long while..

Ps. CHITO BELTRAN OF COMPUWARE AND MR. NEIL UEMAE OF 1704, YOU GUYS ARE THE SHIZNIT!

Ciao!

Graveyard.. Day 4

Well.. here's another one..

Graveyard Shift.. Day 3

And so, as expected, today is like yesterday and the day before that. And also, as expected, I've done everything that needs to be done, a little over an hour ago so now.. Once again, i'm waiting for day-end. God, this is such a boring night..

"The Supervisor"

Yesterday morning, I found out that out newly appointed "supervisor" was trying to implement a new rule that's only applicable here in the front desk. Apparently he's trying to remove the grace period given to us by the company so we avoid being late (FYI: the company gives us a grace period of 7 minutes before we are actually marked as late). Anyway, so what he's planning to do is we could still come in on our grace period regarding that we pay 1 peso per minute that we come in after our official time. Well this isn't actually the first time he tried to make a rule out of thin air. The first one was kinda ok and shit since the profiles really need some updating (FYI: the first one is every un-updated profile under your name is 5 bucks and yes, because of this i'm gonna be the sponsor of our christmas party). But this one is just pushing it.

Seriously man, where the hell did you get this Idea? There's an obvious good reason for the grace period man, thus the reason why it's there. It's not there just for the hell of it. If this is your idea of sucking up to our Front Office Manager, I think you should try a different approach.. A more smarter approach.. The type that won't make you look like an idiot..

PS. Just a thought.. Since you're not the one paying me, you don't have the right to take any away for me. So please don't be expecting me to pay you for that idiotic idea that you have if ever it pushes through.

Today's Literature: How to Think Like Da Vinci by Michael Gleb

Graveyard Shift.. Day 2

So like, day one, day two is just the same.. The only difference is, I have coffee, I took the bus to work today and i'm thirteen minutes late. Which means I only have 3 minutes more before i get suspended (I already accumulated 30 minutes from last September 1 and we are only alloted 46 minutes of lates in a month before suspension). Well.. If ever I do get suspended, at least I get to rest for three days right? The perfect time to go to the beach! hehe..

So right before work Me and Prim headed for this cocktail / wine tasting event in Mondrian, right beside Parque Espana in Alabang. It's another one of those micro-marketing events Vic and Citibank sets up for their potential clients and curent ones.. Well anyway, Vic always drags us into stuff like these and for some reason, i'm the one who's always present thus the reason why his boss knows me so well (not because I got a huge bank account! though i wish it was because of that). So.. Good wine + Good Food + Good Company + Good Conversation = OH SHIT I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT I HAVE TO GO TO WORK TONIGHT!

Yes, this is the reason why I was late and Primo.. well let's just say that's the reason why he took a sabbatical from work tonight. I was actually on the verge of taking one as well, but i all of a sudden grew a conscience, and thought about who was going on a straight shift if ever (Of all times that I really needed a conscience and didn't get one why on earth did i have to grow one now?!).. So there you go.. Now i'm at work.. Fucking Conscience..

Graveyard Shift.. Day 1

1:25 am

So from today till Friday, i'm on this God forsaken shift, though i'm thankful that it's just till Friday. I don't know how Sid survived a seven day graveyard trip.. Maybe she's used to it but frankly, i'd probably go insane with that schedule. Anyway, with no more rooms to check in and to check out and with no more rooms to sell since we'll already overflowing with guests and with everything else that I have to do is right after day-end which is not till 3AM, I guess this is going to be one long boring night.. And with my coffee technically finished thanks to the PM shift, i'd say i'm heading for an early shut down tonight, just hope Ms. Jenn doesn't shut down before me..

-It's nice to talk to you again Rica, i'll be seeing you next week.. :)

2:01 am

ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz....... I need a fucking cig..

2:05am

*Phone Rings*

So anyway, there hasn't been any change of mood in the past few minutes.. It's still boring as hell. How can I freaking forget to bring a book.. shiit, i'm seriously desperate for a good reading material.. Anyway.. back to.. umm... work?

3:00 am

- Out to Smoke -

4:30 am

Well.. once again, i've done everything that's needed to be done.. and once again, i'm bored to my skull.. I just simply can't wait for that freaking clock to strike 8.. three and a half hours more to go and i'm off.. Back to home sweet home..

Mental Note for Tomorrow:

- Bring a good long book since tomorrow is a repeat of today since the occupancy tomorrow is pretty much the same as today..

Sunday - Monday..

First of, prayers are needed for my Uncle Ben (Mom's Older Brother) who passed away this morning due to Pneumonia and Diabetes. At least you're happy now and you have you don't have to sit on that damn wheelchair of yours.. I'll miss you dude, see you at the crossroads..

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Well the day would be perfect if it wasn't for the tragedy this morning. Today I made sure that I wouldn't leave the radius of the Alabang, not unless there's something huge like Uncle Ben's but the rents left even before i woke up so, I didn't bother. And I think I'm heading there tomorrow so there you go..

Anyway, a long overdued hair cut + an ARMY NAVY SANDWICH + Ball in the evening + a night cap with Johnny Black and the craziest Braso de Mercedes i've tasted in my whole life in the HQ = somewhat of a solid way of spending the one and only day off i have for the week. Now my only problem is i have to sleep late since i'm starting graveyard tomorrow and i'm somewhat shutting down already.. Shit i'm so fucked tomorrow evening..

Quote for the Day..
The one and only reason why it is complicated is because the both of you want it to be when i can be as simple as simple can be..

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So after working eight days straight, it's finally my day-off, I still wish though even after four months that our offs would be two days. Not necessarily two straight days, but at least two days. Anyway, last night was another drinking session with the working people and in fairness, this was quite tame compared to the last time we all went out to drink..

And so, there's nothing really to say.. i'm just glad that the week is over already! Those eight straight days were just plain crazy because of the hotel occupancy..

Ps. Katrina, Maybe in the next life time.. when we're both cats.. :)

Don't drink the water here...

Come out, come out, no use in hiding.
Come now, come now, can you not see
There's no place here, what were you expecting?
No room for both, just room for me.

So you will lay your arms down,
Yes, I will call this home.

Away, away, you have been banished.
Your land is gone, and given to me.

And here I will spread my wings.
Yes, I will call this home.

What's this you say, you feel a right to remain?
Then stay and I will bury you.

What's that you say, your father's spirit still lives in this place?
Well, I will silence you.

Here's the hitch, your horse is leaving.
Don't miss your boat, it's leaving now.

And as you go I will spread my wings.
Yes, I will call this home.
I have no time to justify to you,
Fool, you're blind, move aside for me.

All I can say to you my new neighbor,
You must move on or I will bury you.

Now as I rest my feet by this fire
Those hands once warmed here, but I have retired them.
I can breathe my own air and I can sleep more soundly
Upon these poor souls,
I'll build Heaven and call it home.
Cause you're all dead now.

I live with my justice
And I live with my greedy need
I live with no mercy
And I live with my frenzied feeding
I live with my hatred
And I live with my jealousy
I live with the notion that I don't need anyone but me

Don't Drink the Water..

Happy Birthday Banana Pancakes.. Now since you're already 18 and all that am I still allowed to call you that? Anyway.. Hope you had a great one..

I Will Follow You Into the Dark..


Love of mine
Someday you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding lights or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of the spark

If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark..

In catholic school, as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me "Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

You and me
Have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes
Are all worn down, the time for sleep is now
But it's nothing to cry about cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark..

For some reason i know for a fact that ever since the start we had this thing going on and we just didn't want to blow it out of proportion because of the circumstances we both are into.. but now that it's fair game.. even if the dust hasn't settled yet.. i'm actually considering blowing it more than ever..

Monday - Tuesday..

So since Magnolia was kinda sick today, i technically held the desk most of the shift. I sure hope she makes it to work tomorrow though. So far the hotel is full of Arabs and can i just say, they are one of the most annoying guests any hotel can have. Seriously.. Other then the smell, they just can't fucking stop haggling about the hotel rate! Even though you already gave them the lowest rate you can they still want you to try to make it lower..

Scenario: 2 Arabs vs. Mon the Front Desk Agent

ARAB1: "blah blah blah blah blah" (translated in arab)
ARAB2: Do you have Suite with 2 room and kitchen?
MON: Sorry sir but we only have a one bedroom suite with kitchen..
ARAB1: "blah blah blah blah blah" (translated in arab)
ARAB2: No suite room with 2 room?
MON: Sorry sir..
ARAB2: Ok, how much in dollar?
MON: $130 night sir, and with buffet breakfast for two!
ARAB2: We stay for 1 week, how much in dollar?
ARAB1: *furious* "BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH" (translated in arab, and i don't even know if he understands what we are talking about)
MON: $910 sir
ARAB2: No discount?
MON: That's already 40% off the rack rate sir
ARAB2: Try harder my friend..
MON That's all i can do sir..
ARAB1: *Still Furious* "BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH" (translated in arab)
ARAB2: Ok I come back..
MON: Dick head..

I just shortened this portrayal of what really happens in the desk because if i wrote the whole thing, i might just end up writing a play. On another note, they ask for so much discounts and they never pay on time! and once you show them the bill they get so furious and start disputing everything on the bill! and sometimes even the room charge! what the hell is wrong with them! IN THE NAME OF ALLAH WHO IS KIND AND ALL THAT! PLEASE MAN! give us a break and help your people!

Anyway.. enough of this shit.. i'm hitting the sack!! and yeah WELCOME BACK VIC!

Tuesday - Wednesday..

Day 5

So Work was somewhat light tonight, though still i'd rather be doing something else, like shoot hoops or play football because I seriously suck already and this is not a good thing. I'm just greatful right now that's i'm back to the PM sched for 9 days since the AM sched just isn't right for me.. So far everything is in place, Though my plans on getting wasted last saturday was a total failure since I got the still got the AM sched back then. But anyway, everything is still in place so it's alright i guess.. So anyway, I actually just writing jibberish maybe because of the huge cup of java i just had with Kaye, Via and Cast (Magnolia, you were there in spirit, no worries) and i think i'm getting the shivers because of that.. looks like this is going to be a long night.. Shit i'm so fucked!

Ps. IF YOUR READING THIS RIGHT NOW.. HI! MAGNOLIA! I REALLY LOVE YOUR NAME!

Bartender..

If I go, before I'm old, brother of mine please don't forget me if I go.
Bartender, please
Fill my glass for me
With the wine you gave Jesus that set him free
After three days in the ground
And if I die, before my time, sweet sister of mine, Please don't regret me if I die..
Bartender, please
Fill my glass for me
With the wine you gave Jesus that set him free
After three days in the ground..
I'm on bended knees, I pray.. Bartender, please
When I was young, I didn't think about it now I can't get it out of my mind
I'm on bended knees, Bartender please..
If all this gold, should steal my soul away, sweet mother of mine, please redirect me if this gold..
Bartender, you see
The wine that's drinking me
came from the vine that strung Judas from the Devil's tree
His roots deep, deep in the ground..

I'm on bended knees, Bartender, please..

Saturday..

It didn't even feel like a weekend. Not even one bit.. From how I know it, time flies when your doing alot of things.. So, how come awhile ago, time was kind of on a stand still even though the stuff I was doing was piling up already and i was already running around the office checking in and checking out everyone all at the same time.. Shit, talk about time being against you.. that shit is just pretty fucked up. My nine hour shift felt like fucking three days!

Anyway, I'm not sure if i'm heading for Ton's or JP's tonight since I'm still in the morning schedule tomorrow till Monday. Shit.. Goodbye Social life!

WORKING IN A HOTEL = SOCIAL SUICIDE

And I get closer inch by inch day by day into oblivion.. Next thing you know, you'll be like.. "Who's Mon again? Oh yeah.. Him"

Note: For those who hasn't seen me in the past three months, i have hair already, and yeah it's not the nice kind. I just grew it for the sake of having hair since it's a requirement at work.

Thursday..

Yesterday, as much as I forced myself to head for work, it was just impossible since the weather refused to permit me. Plus the traffic was just horrible and that's an understatement. The traffic was so bad yesterday that Manila was almost on a standstill. Even the MRT stations were halted and people were stuck in places they didn't want to be in all over the metro. So technically, I guess it was everybody's day off yesterday.. And today is officially mine so i guess i get two instead of just one.

So tomorrow till Monday or Sunday, i'm not really sure, but my sched's gonna be back to AM (7am - 4pm). I guess there ain't gonna be another weekend for me. Or maybe my absence yesterday and my off today compensated for that.. i'm not really sure but whatever. And I doubt that the weather will be improving tomorrow. It's actually getting worse by the minute.. So good luck to me and the rest of the working people tomorrow.

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Back 14 years ago when there were no classes or when classed would get suspended due to heavy rains or a typhoon, what me and my friends would do, besides wait in line in the cuenca covered courts to wait for our turn to play ball was to get hooked in front of the tube and play the Super NES. We'd spend the whole day in front of it just playing Street Fighter 2, Final Fantasy 3 or Super Mario World the whole freaking day and we just wouldn't stop. Well, yesterday i acquired that console from Anton and that's what pretty much did the whole day.. It's just too nostalic to just let this moment pass. From how i remember, 14 years ago, it took me at least a month and a half or even more to finish the Super Mario World, yesterday it took me less than two hours.. hehe

Anyway, works at 7AM... FUCK!!!

Tuesday - Wednesday..

Before everthing, i'd just like to plug that this is just the second album that Dave did with Tim and so far, the first one has nothing on this one. The album doesn't contain alot of the old ones like "Satellite" and "Ants Marching", but the new ones like "Betrayal" and "Sister" make up for it. This by far is one of the best albums in my Dave Matthews collection. And i'm guessing for the next few weeks, this is the only thing i'm gonna be playing in my Ipod..

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So.. Nothing really happened today, and the clock ticked extra slow so it was quite a long night. Via and Em spent most of the time playing that game Chloue and Sid discovered off the net that involves dressing pin up dolls, but it's all good since nothing was really happening. And as for me? Basically I was just there watching them. It's actually quite funny since it's not everyday that you see grown-ups playing with pin up dolls.. though it's not like the classic paper made dolls, and it's already the interactive kind, it's still pin up dolls nonetheless..

And so at the briefing this afternoon, the Manager mentioned that the occupancy was 83% and the forcast for this evening was 90+%? and there was 17 rooms left to be sold and it would be nice if we could sell it before our shift ended. And so.. We did.. not everything though.. around 8 out of 17? good enough i guess..

Anyway.. Since it's already Wednesday.. Tomorrow is my Off and Friday is Pay Day.. I wonder how much i'll get this time..

Ciao..

Monday-Tuesday..

So Anyway, I just realized just a few hours ago that I actually gave the finger to our Front office manager Miss Mea during Jason's party last Saturday. I asked her early this evening if ever she recalls me doing something off to her, and thank God she doesn't remember.. I hope she ain't just playing or anything. Though, she remembered me dissing Miss Abi of.. Well as if I give a shit..

Mea: You called Abi Panget (or Ugly)!
Mon: Well.. She is, she just acts pretty
Mea: But you barely know her..
Mon: Ok.. That's nice..

Just so that you know, Miss Abi (I swear, it's so sad that she's named after my beautiful sister.) used to be the Duty Manager in the place i work in. And frankly, i wasn't drunk yet when i told her that she was butt ugly, i was still sober. I was just speaking the truth.. Well the truth hurts miss Aby.. so just LIVE WITH IT!!

So tonight is Kathleen's last night in the PM shift and she's bound for graveyard tomorrow. She's gonna be replaced by Via. So, it's gonna be Me, Via and Magnolia. Oh well.. C'est la vie! It's just sad that she didn't end her shift rotation with us. Jesus, i freakin can't wait for payday this Friday, i ain't got cash anymore.

Oh yeah, before I forget. Last Saturday was my third month evaluation and my contract got extended till the sixth. Though my evaluation wasn't that exciting compared to Kathleen's wherein, she got the service charge already by her third month, and still she's not yet a regular. I guess i'll be fine. Though I don't know weather I'll still be around the company in the next three months but ok.. whatever.. and just a though.. It's gonna be harder for me to resign no since the uniform fitting was awhile ago and they really took their time when it was my turn.. hooooly shhhiiit!

Anyway.. Ciao..

Ps. Jenn Looks pretty with the new uniform! Niiice!!
PPs. To the person who designed the uniform: Where the hell did you get the concept of the uniform? HOMEDEPOT?! JESUS CHRIST!! DO YOU REALIZE YOU PUT BLINDS IN THE MIDDLE OF OUR SHIRTS?!

Monday..

I seriously ain't in the mood to go to work today. I just want to fucking stay home and play football or basketball. Until now I still have no clue on why i haven't resigned yet. All signs point to fucking resignation but i'm still here. Am i a martyr for still being here? or am i just plain ass stupid? seriously.. your comments would be much appreciated..

Friday..

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!! AND THANK GOD IT'S MY OFF ALREADY!! Though i'm probably gonna spend the whole freakin day sleeping, it's technically all good since the schedule shifted to me, from being into the Midshift on Saturday to Evening shift which is for me, the best shift among the four. So far, we've exceeded the full capacity of the hotel which is 101%. Though we may have around 60 to check out later, at least we hit the 101 mark in my shift (EAT MY SHIT CAST!! I TOLD YOU I'D HIT 100 IN MY SHIFT!!).

Anyway, just before I left for work this evening, My Moms spoke to me about if I was interested on joining a cruise ship as an assistant Chef and the interview was this September and... What the hell.. OF COURSE I SAID YES! THIS IS IT!! THE CHANCE THAT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR!! I hope i get past the interview with flying colors!! I fucking can't wait!!

Anyway.. so that's it! the end of my graveyard shift.. Ciao

Ps. My condolences to Mr. Duty Manager Joe Nemenzio who lost his Dad yesterday due to a heart attack.. Hey.. At least he's in a better place now.

Thursday..

One of the best things I miss about highschool and College is the suspension of classes during a very violent downpour or a tropical storm. Yesterday and today, the weather bureau declared the suspension of classes on all levels, which is the reason why I almost skipped work today so that i could hang around and just sleep all day. Anyway, the weather is just too damn perfect to lie around the bed with a thick blanket or comforter and the aircondition on full blast, and sleep the whole day.. Damn I miss those days..

So as of the moment, we are already at 100% occupancy with everyone that's supposed to check in and check out done and, with everything i have to do done within the first hour of my shift. So as of right now, since there ain't anymore rooms to sell and i'm just waiting for the Day-End, i'll be bumming till then.. fuck.. this is going to b a long night.

Wednesday..

So 2nd day on the shift and so far so good. There ain't nothing much to do since i've done everything there is 3 hours ago. So now... It's just me, the blog and the Yahoo Messenger. Anyway, two of my best friends are currently hanging in Lake Tahoe and frankly if fucking annoys me that i ain't there right now.. Sheesh!! what a waste!!

Anyway, There ain't really nothing to say right now so.. till tomorrow..

....

if i had the world to make a day for you
i'd fill each hour with praises and shower you
if i held the sun inside my hands
i'd shine it bright inside your heart

and i'd turn my praise and focus to the thought of you
and stand you there
a statue in my soul forever

i dreamed i saw you dancing and i joined you there
and spun we did in the moon's warm light

know I dreamed that they take away everything that you held close and sorrowful for
I will love you like no man can and we will dance at the ide of love
I'll take the moon I'll take the sun from the starry sky
and decorate your nights with light and shadow like no other can, bright

I will dream of stealing you from all the things that bother and hurt you
you my love and only love alone

If I could make another day for you
and shadows taken all of you, and shadows taken all of you
and I can see my heart beat louder and my face grow warm
each time you stand by me my only love, ray on me

so if you, your friends and your family do remember this the time we only caught short view
of each other while in some it shine
I will rake in each day and sell it to you
and sell it to you and sell it to you my love

no captain but you my love
no queen but you

Tuesday (Early Morning Blog)..

3:30am (before day end)

First it was Karren now it's Jessica. And I seriously thought i'd be the first one out of the us three! JESUS JONES! What the hell is this world coming to! I can't believe i'm the only new one left here!

Well anyway, Today is the first day of my graveyard shif and technically, there's nothing to do. I've done everything except two things, and those two things are done right after day-end in which my duty manager should have done half an hour ago. It's not that busy anyway so everythings good.. I just hope it doesn't rain as much as it did today since i'm commuting home today.

Arrivals: 30
Departures: 30

Looks like things are going to be easy for the morning shift today..

Sunday..

Well I missed another church service since i'm in the Evening shift. Oh well.. so last night was Meggy's party and every one knows that once you hit Meggy's, it's either you get really fucked up or get violated. Well.. As if i'd allow myself to get violated so I got drunk, really drunk that all i remember are glimpses of the party itself and the double cheeseburger that i consumed in less that 3 minutes in Mcdonalds. And after that, i serioulsy have no clue on what happened and how i got home. I just woke up and i was in bed already, all dressed for bed and everything.. Come to think of it, that shit is fucking Scary..

So tomorrow till Thursday is another GRAVEYARDSHIFT for Mon. And this time it's going to be one-on-one with Mr. Nemenzio the Duty Manager. I can just imagine how this shift is going to be. AY-YAY-YAY!!

Mental note:
- Bring a Good Book
- Lots of Food and Coffee
- CHARGE THE IPOD

Anyway, off to never-never land..

PS. Bella, it doesn't matter what you do, we'll all respect that, but make sure what you do is what you want to do. Not what you feel is the right thing but you know it's the right thing.

Thursday (Scrub)..

To Kathleen Anne Quinia:

No words can describe the amount of gratitude I have towards you for taking me home all the way here in Alabang, wherein you had an option to just head home to Villamore, and in which you didn't really have to. Thank You multiplied by a million.. I owe you big time.. Seriously.. I'll make it up to you somehow.

Wednesday..

I know I shouldn't be doing this but i'm actually blogging at work with my duty Manager right behind me in which i know that i should some what watch what i say. Anyways, with 99% expected occupancy, all check outs have already been checked out, four left to check in and majority of the guests are long staying. I guess this is going to be one boring night. Well, it accually isn't supposed to be like this, considering that we're one percent shy of being fully booked, we're supposed to be cramped up with guest requests and the phones should be ringing every two seconds. But apparently we're just hanging while my boss taking his time with his Sinigang sa Sugpo..

Anyways, after this is Starbucks with Kathleen.. I'm actually looking forward to that since i haven't spoken to this girl in a longtime (She's actually the only one manning the desk right now while i Blog.. hehe sorry Kat). So there you go.. one and a half hours more to go and i'm off....

Ciao Bella..

Ps. To the Girl.. The Cheese cake was just awesome and i love you even more because of that.. :)

PPs. Garnett is in Boston! Shiiiieeeeet!!!!

Monday..

And I though i had enough of work. And so, Karren finally called it quits and decided to tell our boss that after two months and a half of working, she's resigning effective next week. I was actually surprised that she went through with it. I thought she was just bluffing or maybe just waiting for me to go first since we got this so-called agreement that we'd resign together if ever. I never knew that she'd actually do it.. i always thought that i's be the first one.

"Karren, if it was that easy, i've done it a very very long time ago.."

In my part, it's just sad to see her go, since i know for a fact that she's the only one in the work place that shares the same sentiments that i have. And other than that, she's a Benildean and we got accepted the same time in Oxford. Oh well.. Good luck "Karren Baby", i'll see you around i guess! Though I hope you change your mind after a few days. I don't want to be stuck with Jessica and her airheadness.

Anyway, tomorrow is my last day in the morning shift and then a few days on the evening shift and then back to the morning shift and then the mid shift and then GRAVEYARD again for five days and then i'm back to my usual evening shift.. (AND THAT'S HOW YOU KNOW HOW FUCKED UP SHIFTING SCHEDULES COULD BE!) well.. That's as far as i've sneaked into the schedule.. So far it's alright it's just the Graveyard that bothers me.. Though it's cool that they placed it on the weekdays compared to last month where it was on the weekend! But still.. i hate this fucking shift to the bone.. Hay Hay..

And so, i'm off to never never land.. Till tomorrow..

Sunday..

Apparently, you can play hookey at work as well.. hahaha! well.. i didn't go to work today since it's such a nice Sunday to spend it on the desk (i hope no one from work reads this).. Technically, I'm still sick from Via's flu, so i guess my being absent is still substancial. Anyway, it's been so long since we had a family lunch wherein everyone was there, well minus Sanch and Sabrina but we were complete nonetheless. Anyways, good meal, great conversation, marvelous people.. So what more can you ask for? This is just a perfect Sunday.. Thank God I skipped work..

So moving on.. tomorrow is another effin' working day tomorrow! Hay Hay!! and Friday is my next off................ Sige na nga..

Ciao

Saturday..

The one thing that i hate in this world, more that Barca and France is waking up early in the morning, On a Sunday and going to work. This seriously sucks.. I've never asked anything "huge" to the person who makes the sched but not make me go to work early mornings especially Sundays because, the tendency of me skipping work is 10 out of 10. And this is not a rough estimate.. This shit is like real! And to think tonight is Prim's birthday celebration?! HAH!! good luck to me tomorrow!

The only high point about this whole thing is i get to hear mass tomorrow. And for sure that's not something i'm bound to miss.. From how i see things, that's the only good thing coming for me this week.. and after that.. it's back to going down hill.. but hey.. at least it went up even for awhile right?

the real feeling..

Friday..

It's Quarter before five and i'm blogging. I guess i've got a serious problem. I'm trying to start the day right by complaining before everything that i can complain about even wakes up to be complained upon (Shit, i sound like i seriously need help). Anyway, having two days of no work seriously isn't good for me since it makes me feel how it it to have a weekend. Which is kind of wrong since i shouldn't feel that i have one, since i don't have one. Hence, making it even harder as it is to head for work, like right now i'm again considering to take another sick leave because in all honesty, i still don't feel well. Well, technically i still don't feel well but if i take another leave, what the hell am i gonna get when pay day arrives (as if i get shit!)?!

Anyway, here's to another wasted weekend ahead of me! Another weekend that's going to be spent drooling over discovery travel and living!

Thursday..

First of all, i'd like to thank my workmate Miss Via Valencia for being contagious enough to share her flu with me thus, making me sick on my Day off, and once again wasting it at home instead of spending it out with the girl or something. Thank you so much.. I seriously needed another reason to spend a whole freaking day in front of the television eating bread pan and pasta. *Shakes my head in dissapointment* THANK YOU! THANKS A LOT! I REALLY APPRECIATE THIS!!

Tuesday - Wednesday.. (The Samsung, PSP and Broken Phone)

I'm not sure if it's a punishment for being blunt and shit about how i feel about working or that's how it really is but after my off tomorrow.. I'm going to be on duty from 7am - 4pm for the next two weeks. Last week, my whole weekend was spent on the hotel working because of the graveyard shift. Now, my weekend is gonna be spent sleeping early because i have to go to work early the next day.. C'mon man!! give me a fucking break!! This is just not right anymore (as if it was ever right)..

I seriously don't know how you guys became in charge. Seriously.. Fiddling with the PSP?! Uploading songs on the phone?! Friendster?! Yahoo Messenger?! when the desk is busy?! (Is that even legal?!) If the desk wasn't busy maybe it's alright.. but when the desk is.. C'mon, let's be professional here, and to thihk you like what you do for a living? JESUS CHRIST!! this is just hard to believe..


Quote of the Day..

"I have a million different things I ought to worry about, especially money, but it is sunny outside and I have just enough change for a bag of potato chips.."

- Joey Comeau

You know what Joey? We should seriously talk, because we could make the best sense of what the world thinks won't make sense, and just laugh at it..

Sunday - Monday..

I made a major mistake awhile ago that imona have to write a anecdotal explaination in the next 48 hours and pay 2 grand for it. No one has to even say or even elaborate why i made this mistake. Stupidity? Nah.. I'm too smart for this mistake, too busy at the desk?.. Maybe.. Lack of Enthusiasm and lazyness because I hate my Job?! BINGO! I can't see anymore explainations on why i comitted such a mistake, because seriously, going to work becomes harder and harder everyday. If it was just that easy to resign and leave.. And yeah, i missed mass again today, shit.. this fucking sucks!

Magnolia: You know If miss Mea heard/read what you just said/written, she wouldn't be pleased..
Mon: Ok..

....

I don't normally write twice in one night. I sometimes just save it for the next day and just put it as a draft so that if ever i have nothing to write, i just post that down. But it think tonight i'm making an exception.

Just now i realizer that, i'm actually depressed because of work. And just so that you know, i'm not the type of person that gets depressed, Angsty yeah.. but depressed? never. This is actually the first time that i feel bad about what i'm doing. A few months back, i was just frustrated and annoyed with what I do.. now i think it already hit the depression level (Not Suicidal ok!!). I mean i can't even write properly anymore. It's just sad really.. i never thought that it would actually affect my writing. But anyway, i'm an inch closer to resigning.. i'm giving myself two more weeks and this is final. Two more weeks and if i still feel this way then that's it. I'm done with being a front desk officer..

Now It's proven that, i will never be happy unless, i work in the kitchen. I just can't work in a desk with shifting schedules. Maybe shifting schedules in the kitchen yeah?! but in the desk.. nah, i'll pass, it's all yours, whoever wants it.

Checklist after Resigning:
- SHAVE HEAD
- SEE THE GIRL
- LOOK FOR NEW JOB
- PLAY FOOTBALL
- PLAY BASKETBALL
- PLAY GOLF

Day Off.. Yeah Right..

I don't know how long i can take this anymore. Just last night, i told my duty manager straight up that I'm not happy with what i'm doing. Actually, that's like the soft version of what I said. What I actually said was "I Hate My Job" and I hate it with a vengeance.. Maybe, It was the effect of being in the graveyard shift that i was able to really say what I felt but I don't know, maybe i just really wanted to tell him already.. He asked if i was going quit already, i said soon but not now.. That actually felt good you know?! at least they already know what i really feel.

Anyway, today is my so-called "Day off".. Today, since i was graveyard i got home at around 11am?, and i have to go to work at 7 am tomorrow?! Is this day off just for formalities sake?! just so that you can write down on the schedule that i technically had a day off? And i'm working seven days straight next week? *Shakes my head in dissapointment..* Why not just shoot me in the head right now?.. sheesh...

Lastday...

So today marks the last day of my graveyard shift after a really long time i hope.. actually.. i hope never again. Tomorrow is my so-called "day off" since i'm going to be sleeping the whole day and i got work early on Thursday.. *shakes my head in dissapointment* So, the revised schedule for the next week is already posted and like my sched this week, i'm going to be working for seven straight days again since my "off" next week will be moved to Thursday.. I actually can't seem to understand why my "off" keeps on moving when i haven't requested it to be moved.. I'm guessing i'll be working seven straight days again next week.. Actually, i'm not guessing anymore, i'm already expecting it to be like that. I'd be happy with this set up if I was actually getting paid more.. *again.. shakes my head in dissapointment*

On other things, Karina, since she works for a manpower agency who ship people abroad, got my resume and submitted it to some hotel in the UAE. I hope i heard her right, UAE.. because she might have said Kuwait and if ever she did we're gonna have a serious problem.

Anyway.. off to Ever Ever Land! a place where you're underpaid and overworked with a horrible schedule!

Graveyard Shifting..

Tonight is going to be my third night in the shift and frankly, i seriously want to give up and report sick already. I hate this fucking shift.. I fucking hate it with a vengeance! Also, I actually hate that fact that I don't have a choice since everyone has got to pass through this at least once a month and from how i see it, i'm the only one who's not enjoying this shift. It seems that everyone likes this shift since it's not stressful and all that.. I still say crap! Just shoot me in the head instead of putting me in this shift.

Anyway, on my very first day of this shift i was with this workmate who, i swear to god if he wasn't my OIC, i could have punched him because of lack of sleep.. ok, he maybe ok at first but now.. actually, he's not ok, since he never was and he is a closet case, tolerable is more like it. He's tolerable, but now that he suddenly aquired a superiority complex, i swear.. one more out of him and i'll fucking hang him upside down. Apparently, he's trying to copy the old front office supervisor "Abi" who he idolizes so much and in which according to him is.. well a bitch since i ain't got any more words to describe how she is from how he described her. She's a perfectionist according to him. A perfectionist to a point where she acts like a bitch if she doesn't get what she wants. For her sake, thank the Lord Jesus that she already resigned after i got in.. so here..

"Dude, trying be her most definately won't make you her, and trying to act like a perfectionist doesn't make you one as well, so i suggest you to stop it, because it just makes you look more of a faggot that you already are..

Catch my drift?

Anyway, on other things.. After missing mass for almost a month, i was finally able to hear mass yesterday. Thank God! Maybe this is the only good thing about the graveyard shift! moving on.. It feels good to be able to hear mass again after missing it for three weeks.. I feel less of a sinner now.. hehe.. moving on.. well, my social life is offically down the dumps.. that shit doesn't exist anymore.. so i ain't got nothing to say about that..

Ciao...

Saturday Eveneing Bluees...

Tonight's Gimmick List:
Joni - Hang out with G and Noy and Someother people then to Bea's
Tin - Hang out with her Girls
Wowie - Museum trip with Aby then a Gig
Aby - Museum trip with Wowie then i dunno..
D7 - Probably Ton's house
The Roots - Probably poker at JP's
Sieg - Working (But he works in Alabang so that doesn't count)
Mon - To Oxford Suites Makati to work since he's on Graveyard shift today

Of all the days that i could have been placed on the graveyard shift, I don't understand why it had to be today till Tuesday. And on Wednesday since it's my off.. i'm gonna be sleeping the whole day, and on Thursday, my schedule is at 7 in the morning till 4 in the afternoon (So much for my off).. Seriously, i can't seem to find anything right about this situation i'm in, Seriously. Miss Mea, If you are reading this right now, do i complain too much?! at least do i complain right at you grill all the time? I mean yeah i've been absent a few times since i got in, but c'mon this is just not right. And of all the people to be in shift with! you put me up with CAST?! C'mon man!!! This is just so wrong.. AND TO TOP ALL THAT IT'S A FREAKING SATURDAY!! JESUS CHRIST!!!

Thursday..

So today.. i skipped work due to a "swollen knee".. or so they know. Actually, I could have just walked it off if i wanted to but hey, this is just the perfect opportunity to get a sick leave.. even if it's just for one day.. just to again, experience having a week with two off days instead of one. And seriously?! i fucking miss my weekends! seriously!!! Jesus Jones!! if only i had two days off in a week, i'd won't still be contented but hey, at least i get two days off right?!

Dude1: But you don't get paid when you take a leave right? at least not yet?
Mon: Yeah, and quite frankly i don't give a shit. It's just such a nice day to spend it listening to complaints and annoying Koreans..
Dude1: True that..

Anyway, the relatives that's been boarding here in the house for the wedding for the past week are one by one leaving and heading back home (so that's either Cebu or Surigao). This morning it was Grandma, Aunt Evangeline and Uncle Samson. Tomorrow it's Aunt Daday and Aunt Shirley and finally on Saturday it's Cousins Nina and Mia. Actually, since they arrived last week i have been sleeping on the couch or on the floor or on a sleeping bag along with spaceman. But moving on, It actually saddens me that they're already leaving since, i wasn't really able to hang around with them because i got work. And the last time we saw each other was what?! 2-3-4 years ago? i'm not really sure.. so i'm just thankful that the clan isn't complete this time around beacuse if they were? and i was the only one not present? Daymn... i'd be the saddest man in the world.

Aunt1: Why not take a leave from work so we can all go to that new big mall near the coastal road?
Mon: For how long?
Aunt2: at least 3 days? just right after the wedding
Mon: I can't.. sorry
Cousin1: But we haven't seen you in so long!
Mon: Yeah, I know.. so i'm really sorry..

They say i have to get used to the mentality of Work-over-Family not unsless the occasion is crazy like the Wedding or a Funeral. I say CRAP!

So... C'est la vie!

25th and it goes on..

According to stories from him, her and some other relatives, 25 years ago, he borrowed 5,000 pesos from his uncle so that he could finally get married to the girl of his dreams in a small church within the University of the Philippines. Of course, 5,000 won't cover as much so the wedding wasn't as grand as she wished it would be. A little flowers on the aisle, a red carpet, a few relatives and friends a simple reception right after. It's a wedding nonetheless so it was ok for her. The vows were still said, the rings were still given and the kiss was still well.. kissed, so what's the diff right? Though of course like any other girl, the dream of a grand wedding was always there.. She didn't have to say it, because he already knew..

25 years after. after four kids, 1 almost daughter in law and a handsome grandson. He fulfilled her dream of a grand wedding, in a big church, with all of the flowers the flowershop could provide, A really long red carpet, and a grand reception right after with Everyone invited. Eventhough she never asked him for a wedding like this after 25 years of being together, he gave it to her nontheless.. Good Job Dad..

Happy Anniversary you guys..

like what i said in my speech..

"I may not say it often, but i mean it everyday.. I love you guys.."

and Mom, Tita Jojo was there.. don't worry..

Tuesday-Wednesdsay..

Won't be able to blog tomorrow since tomorow is Mom and Dad's 25th Wedding Anniversary and it's just not right to not blog tonight. Anyway, Kathleen Anne is reading my blog right now so, hello Kat!..

Congratulations to my Mom and Dad!! to 25 more years!!!

Sunday..

Sundays are supposed to be the unofficial "Steady" day in the hotel. Well, technically it was, it's just that i wasn't in the mood to work.. It's not that i'm always in the mood to work because.. i never am, it's just that today, it's i'm not in the mood twice as much as i'm not in the mood everyday.. For the record, i didn't screw up considering i was technically surfing th net every chance i get which is every 10 to 15 minutes at a time.. Fuck! I ain't gonna even say it anymore..

Today's Briefing as of 3pm yesterday:

People to Check In: 12
People to Check Out: 5
Occupancy: 71%

I need a new Job...

Highschool High..

I accordance to Vic's recent post about our "so-called" high school, until now, i still cannot believe i survived three good years there. I say good because eventhough it maybe just a big house compared to the usual school building, and the curriculum just won't pass the minimum requirement of the US School board standards, how many people can say that "I technically have done everything i wanted to do legally and illegally inside the school without getting caught? or if ever with minimum sanction?" hahaha!! anyways.. TO HIGHSCHOOL!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!

Wednesday.. Midweek blog..

It seems that this midweek blogging is becoming a trend.. hmm.. not bad.. at least i get to blog semi-regularly. Anyway, It's the first time in a long time that i checked my multiply and i came across Bri's site, and i just realized.. DAMN! the fucker is still in the states! God!! LUCKY SHIT!! Eventhough a little piece of me is saying that i don't want to move there.. right now? GOD i wish i was back there.. with a freaking good job or at least a job that i like. Seriously speaking.. i think i already mentioned before that i drag myself to work everyday.. but now.. it's getting seriously worse.. i literally have to have anyone or everyone drag me to work everyday.. it's been what?! just a month and a half? and i feel this shit already?! JESUS JONES MAN!! This is not good!! this is not good at all..

On my way home from work last night at around 12 midnight, i passed through Ayala Avenue and just when i was waiting for the traffic light to turn green i just saw myself staring at Shangri-La Makati while wishing, "Damn I don't mind having a schedule like this.. as long as i'm working in a place like that..". It just saddens me to see that beautiful place just a few blocks away from the crappy ass hotel that i'm working in.. Shit.. i should quit already and start applying somewhere else..

Soundtrack.. Seeyousoongravediggergreystreetbartenderabsinthepartyattheflyhoneywarehousethefixeltorrete

I was supposed to go like i said.. but I just couldn't, i just can't.. it's just too hard. I'm so sorry.. have a great life back there though.. hope to see you in time years time or whenever. We never ended everything properly but i guess thats for the best.. hey.. at least you we got something to look forward to thee next time we see each other.. if ever we still see each other.. Take care of yourself you hear?

Wednesday.. Midweek..

So officially, i've worked 8 days straight last week just so that my off be moved to every Wednesday to accomodate my mother's wedding three weeks from now, and it'ss just now that i feel the serious stress of doing that. I never want to do that again.. Seriously.. it's just bloody hell. Anyway to more things that matter.. Yesterday, Tito George came home from the states after being gone for five years to pay respects to his wife who just recently passed away. According his kids he took it pretty well.. but while i was speaking with him last night i can just feel that he's bout to burst into tears with just a little more drama.. well.. seriously who can blame him..

On other things.. My colleague Kaye got a memo this morning stating that she's bout to get a salary deduction of 20,000 and a suspension on the 28th for negligence.. ok, why 20k? because apparently, she gave 20,000 worth or refund to the guest without having him sign a form stating that he got 20k and then since the from wasn't signed he asked for another 20k worth of refund.. and when we tred to get the refund back.. he denied that Kaye already gave him one.. so there you go.. go figure.. poor Kaye though..

Sunday..

We were never close yet, she was always here.. It's like loosing a second Mom.. Tita Jojo, at least your in a better place now. A place where depression does not exist and a place where you'll eternally be happy.. Say hi to Jesus for me..

League Champions..



Finally, after four years of waiting.. We're back on the TOP!!!!

1 Month..

So tomorrow, i'll be offically employed for a month.. And considering that i don't like doing what i'm doing right now? i can actually say that i'm doing a good job. I dunno, maybe that's just from my stand point, but from how i see it.. yeah.. everything is cool.. i'm runningg for the top upseller for the month.. and it's my first month. Though i'm still hoping i get an offer in the kitchen, or something hotel related but here in Alabang.. I seriously don'y mind doing this you know? as long as it's here in the vicinity.. Makati is just too damn far and too damn expensive for my puny ass salary.

Anyway.. Today's Convo with Karren my colleague:

Karren: Don't you just wish we work back in Alabang?
Mon: Isn't it obvious that i wish for that shit everyday?
K: Oh yeah.. hehe you're the one with the most complaints here..
M: Your one to talk.. Miss "i'm sick and i'm skipping work tomorrow".. Bullshit!! hahaha
K: Whatever..
M: Yeah.. Whatever..
K: Imagine if we were back there.. it would be easy for us to just say.. "let's hit starbucks right after work!" and not worry about the stress going home..
M: Yeah.. Whatever..
K: No Seriously..
M: Yeah, I Guess your right.. that shit would be nice
K: Yeah..
--Long Silent Pause for Contemplation--
M: Oh shit someone's bout to check out.. heeeree we go..

Soundtrack:HerecomesthesunBartenderLieinourgravesGraceisgoneGraystreetIdeaofyou

The Kingdom Crumbles and Roerto Carlos' last Press Conference as a Madridista

King James' Kingdom crumbles over the Spurs as they get swept in a hard fought game in Cleveland. Tony Parker is one lucky bastard.. Eva Longoria, The NBA Championship and the NBA Finals MVP.. Son-of-a-bitch.. what the hell can you fucking ask for?!



Yesterday it was Roberto Carlos' last Press conference with the White's after 11 years in the club. It's sad for me as a Madridista since he is the reason why i am. I always thought that he would end his career in the white and black shirt but i guess i thought wrong.. Madrid playe or not, i will still be a Roberto Carlos Fan. I wish this player the best and hope that they win the league title this Sunday.. HALA MADRID!

Thursday..

The Club bill just arrived and again, like always.. it's me who gets it. Seriously.. AM I THE ONY ONE WHO USES THE CAR AROUND HERE THAT ALL THE GAS BILLS ARE MINE? c'mon, for once, let's be realistic pops! I don't understand why it's always me who get's the shit when the club bill arrive.. Anyway.. nothing to blog again.. Tomorrow i hope something good happens.

Wednesday..

I clearly remember it like yesterday.. My very very first day as a college student. Orange Shirt, orange Bag, orange fisherman's Hat, baggy shorts, white sneakers and my ever so faithful CD walkman with a set of headphones.. Oh yeah, i was with Brian, JJ and John.. My neighbors and blockmates. I dunno with them but I was so eager to go to my first class and it was just General Psychology, i wasn't even close to the major culinary classes in my flowchart. Anyway, I'm posting this beacause it's been six years since that first day and now that i'm already working.. i wish that, that day would come back, because during those days, i could honestly say that the world was mine. I didn't have any care whatsoever of what's happening, I didn't have so much priorities in my life compared to now. All i had to do was go to class, pass all my subjects and as long as i had my CD player with me and my Orange Hat with me.. Everything is all good..

Good Luck on your first day Banana Pancakes..

Tuesday..

So, this is how it feels to have an extra off huh? you feel more compelled to go to work since you experienced two days without it, and you haven't experienced this in a long time. Anway, tomorrow i'm back to my usual PM shift.. Less stressful but even less time for my family and friends. Hay.. what can complaining do anyway? so screw it..

Anyway, i'm off to watch the tube.. there's nothing really to blog about today since i didn't do much.. so..
Ciaao!

Ps. Good talking to you LAS.. we'll talk again soon! and Thank you.. :)

Monday..

In my whole life, i always thought that there can only be just so much optimisim in a person, that it would only last until something really fucks you up. Well, that's what i thought up until I met my colleague Sid, which i think.. or let me say i know for a fact is overflowing with optimisim, and no vein of pessimisim in her system. As a realist, I never really consider those two facts of life, i just base my shit with what's gonna happen and what's happening now because of what i did, what i'm doing and what i'm going to do because honeslty, it's because of those three things are thye reasons why everything that's happening to you is actually happening to you..

Maybe i'm just babbling nonesense and not getting my point across, but it's just that it's the first time i've met a person wherein she lives in the dream world where there are no problems and everything is "Hello Kitty-ish" and everything is perfect, even if according to her.. she has a complicated life. I just don't understand how she survives the world with that kind of mindset..

Anyway , today's my off.. and so is tomorrow.. thank GOD! i guess he heard my prayers last night in church..

Sunday..

Yesterday aternoon was just great compared to this afternoon where i just spent the whole time sleeping.. Slept at 10am woke up at 4:30 in the afternoon. A hate this feeling you know? wasting the day sleeping wherein i could be doing something more productive like spend time with the family since it's a Sunday yeah? Anyway, thank God this is my last day in the graveyard shift in awhile and come Tuesday, i'm back to being in the usual PM shift..

I don't want to sound redundant but yeah, work sucks like anything. Especially yesterday where Kaye wasn't actually feeling good, sooo the newbie that i am, i had to do almost everything by myself (they say it's training, i say it's crap). So, instead of finishing with the paperwork i had to file a good hour and a half right after my shift started, i finished after 3 hours. Honestly.. the only good thing that happened in my shift is when this Spaniard checked out at around 3:30 am? and he gave us 500 bucks for a tip. We had Wendy's deliver us some food with that 500 bucks just so you know.. a Bacon Mushroom Melt with Iced Tea and Fries at 4:00 am.. How healthy is that..

Anyway.. till i complain again tomorrow.. and yeah, i'm not missing the Mass this time..

Saturday..

One fine Girl+ A trip to the Independence day bazaar + 2 Banana Splits +some Calamares and a Cup of the worst tasting Cappuccino i've ever tasted in the world= One Fine Day..

I can't ask for anything more..

Friday...

So Yesterday was the first day of the graveyard.. You know, I love to watch the sun rise on me yeah? but i just don't like it if the circumstances are when i'm either working or i'm just stressed out and I really want to sleep already but i just can't.. So in this case i'm working so go figure. Well, anyway in terms of efficiency at work, considering that I started doing the paperwork that had to be done at around 11:30 pm and I finished at around 12:30. So that just meant that from 12:30am onwards till 8:00am Me, Kaye and Cast weren't doing anything anymore.. Me and Kaye were literally looking for something to do, Cast was technically on the phone the whole time so whoopie for him. Hay.. And i'm bound to do this till Sunday.. I seriously don't know how long I can last doing this shit..

Anyway, today starts the YE Pilar and like most of the things in my life that i'm going to miss right after taking this job, i'm bound to miss that. It's supposed to be fun but yeah, i don't want to get started on that.. And yeah, today is Friday i'm gonna be missing that as well.. along with this Saturday and Sunday.. Shieet

Thursday..

Today starts my dreadful Graveyardshift. Thankfully the rents are generous enough to have my older brother bring me to work today. I don't really know but, according to my colleagues at work, you don't really do anything during graveyards.. basically you just fix a few paper work for the next day and your all set to bum the whole night. Frankly, I don't give a fuck, I'd rather be home doing nothing than be at work doing nothing and wishing i was home doing the same thing.

Well anyway, last night, after hanging with Vic and after the visit.. I went to Los' house to have a few beers.. Actually it's just supposed to be just one, but we ended up drinking at least four. Last night's night cap was actually what i really needed.. you know, a "few" beers and there ain't too much topics crossing over the conversation since we're just two so wasn't any information overload.

Anyway, off to work.. fuck..

Tuesday..

Today wasn't as different as the other days. Though today's occupancy wasn't as dreadful as last Sundays. Anyway, Today's shift I was with Kaye, and for some reason every time i'm in a shift with her, she makes the shift really worth while. Of course Em and Kathleen are just the best but it's just different with Kaye. Don't get me wrong, I don't have the Jones for Kaye, it's just that she just makes my job easier. She makes it a bit lighter in the sense that, i just tend to forget that i'm busy. Which is a good thing.. Since I don't really like what I do..

Anyway, while there wasn't anything going on, Me and Kaye started talking about how it was back in college and all that. And from that conversation on till right now, I still have this thing that, for some reason? i seriously miss college. Maybe it's because of the people i hang around with during that time or maybe it's just the great Chef's Jacket that i always wear in school (Which i know i will wear again soon).. or maybe it's just College in general. Maybe i just had so much fun in college that i kinda miss it.

Anyway, tomorrow is my last AM Shift for the next 2 weeks.. i'm off to graveyard on from Thursday all the way till Sunday.. I'll try blogging in the office..

Peace!

Monday..

The day off is composed of watching TV and basically just lounging around the house.. Wish i could have done something better.. This is officially my third week on the job and frankly eventhough i don't like what i'm doing, i'm actually starting to get used to this shit. Still eventhough, i got that 1 month thing standing. Oh yeah, that one month thing if i forgot to mention is, i'm giving this Job a month and if ever I still feel like shit every single day then i'm calling it quits. Anyway, so far it's still steady.. As long as they keep me in the PM shift or the Midshift i'll be alright.. just not AM's and Graveyard's in which can i just say that, i'm starting on Thursday. Yes ladies and Gentlemen, tomorrow i start A.M. till this Wednesday and from Thursday till Sunday i'm heading for the Graveyard shift.. Shit..

Oh Well.. C'est La Vie..

I don't want to post something that I would AGAIN regret because you won't be able to understand it or you'll refuse to understand.. so here.. another from a softer world..

I AM NOW A WITNESS..

Saturday..

I just don't know, maybe i'll get used to working on Saturdays and Sundays since i have a shift tomorrow, i just don't know.. I don't even think i'll be able to hear mass tomorrow because of this shift.. If ever, I'm sorry if i won't be able to. Anyway, I get the concept of working during weekends since hotels don't close but yet i refuse to accept it. I just need the weekends.. Times like these i wish i had a desk job, at least i get to sleep late on Fridays and slack off on Saturdays and Sundays.. Oh well..

Tonight is the One Way official 1 year Anniversary Celebration and i'm going to be late. As one of the Scribes, I don't think i have any excuse of being late, even though I have work and all that.. They're going to Re-Screen the whole show. FUCK!!!! I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE I'M GOING TO MISS THAT!... HAY..

Anyway.. this shit is getting tiring and redundant and i'm off to work..

Ps. I just got my paycheck yesterday afternoon.. and frankly.. i'm not happy..

Another Day Another Blog..

Yesterday was the Flores de Mayo celebration here in the villa and I was supposed to play a set with the Youth Praise Ministry. But of course since there's work, i've got to miss that and all. According to a friend it was fun, a lot of food was served and there were dancing and games. Oh well.. i guess that's a first of alot of shit that i'm headed to miss in the next few months.. oh well, at least i'm getting payed.. even if i'm underpayed with all the shit that i do.

So it's another Friday, normally i should be happy that it is. But right now i'm not so sure if should be, since i got work the next day. I just wish i have my weekends back and it'll be all good. I wouldn't mind working late nights and all that, as long as i have my weekends back, hay.. oh well.. off to work..

Well.. Ok..

Left for work at around 5:00 a.m.

So today, i ventured into commuting to work for the first time. And frankly, this first timer ain't happy. I rode a Skyway bus that was headed for Makati in the Metropolis station at around 5:20 in the morning since, according to my Mother whom i love so much.. if i rode that bus, it would stop in a bus stop adjacent to my workplace.. Well that's according to her.. But according to the Metro Manila Development Authority or MMDA, that bus stop causes traffic, so to make the long story short.. They took that bus stop out and moved it somewhere farther. I went past that bus stop, walked back a few kilometers.. then headed for Ayala Avenue and rode a jeep where i thought they'd be turning right to Makati Avenue, And then went down the Ayala Strip to wait for non existent jeeps that pass through Makati Avenue for a good 20 minutes, and when i finally realized that there wasn't any jeeps passing that way, i just lit a stick and started walking the 3 kilometer stretch to my office.. Hay, i should have taken the car..

Got to the office at around 6:50 a.m.

The Bus Ride..

Before actually getting all stressed up in Makati, the bus ride from the terminal to the Central Business District was kind of nostalgic and somewhat nice. I remembered how it was getting up before the roosters started crowing for a 7am class to school and rushing to the station to get the first bus to Manila.. I still remember it, the Juaymah-Maureen bus with it's green and white stripes a logo of a weird elephant that's dancing. I still remember before, that when that bus hits the Skyway, i look at the lovely sunrise that's hitting the CBD of Makati and I start wondering.. "when" and after the toll, the bus goes past the first, second and third exits and heads straight for Manila and then Boom.. back to reality..

This morning i got the same feeling back but instead of a "when" it was a "now" with a nod. And instead of missing the exits, i went through the first one and it headed smack dab on the side of the CBD where the stress started. Actually, in a way it feels good, knowing that i already head there instead of heading for the last exit to Manila. Knowing that i'm already living that daydream of actually working in Makati. Eventhough i'm still kinda hoping that i'd be heading there in different circumstances, i'm already there nontheless.. so whatever.. i guess, i'll just make the best out of it.. or until i still can..

Anyway.. Tomorrow's another day..

PS.. Hey Bea.. i don't know why, but other than reminicing, i was really thinking about you the whole trip to work.. I dunno.. maybe i miss you.. or maybe I REALLY miss you.. or maybe we should talk reaally soon.. so here.. i got this off the "a softer world website" since it reminded me of..

Work.. (Week 1)

My Prayers have been answered..YES! i have a job already. Finally, my rents are off my back.. or so i thought. I'm not a chef in a hotel or in a restaurant though (but i'm currently working on that), I'm an F.O. in a Hotel smack dab in the middle of the RED LIGHT district in Makati. Nice noh?! According to my good friend Krizia "I have such a cool and glamorous job".. Ok.. sabi mo eh!

To tell you the truth, i'm thankful that my prayers of finally getting a decent job has been answered but this is not what i want to do.. and everyone knows that. On my first day last Monday, i wanted to quit already.. imagine what i'm feeling right now. The people in the workplace is nice don't get me wrong. I'm not being mistreated or whatsoever, it's just that for me, in order to be efficient in what you do, you got to love what you are doing. And frankly.. i don't like what i'm doing.. i'm actually in the verge of hating it since i don't like it so much..

Hay nako.. anyway..
From Tomorrow until next sunday i will be AWOL again from the youth and from the world.. hay...

I Can't Believe it's been a Year.. Happy Anniversary You Guys..

Our story still hasn't ended and it's still ours..

Happy Birthday.. That's all I can say as of now, i'd love to say some more but i'd rather not.. but still you know what i want to say. Since i got a new job i guess i won't be seeing you as much as before.. but believe me when i say i miss you already. And from how i see it.. i'll miss you even more tomorrow and then next week.. and more in the following weeks after that..

So I guess since we I got a crappy sched and you got a perfect one i guess I'll just see you soon hun, maybe we'll go walking or jogging the next time we both got the time or go to dinner.. have a good one.. Love yah.. :)

Part 1

Stop this train.. i have to get off..
It's going to fast and i don't want to jump off..
PLEASE STOP THIS TRAIN?!
The Conductor is a madman and,
He killed the Engineer with his thoughts..
CAN ANYONE STOP THIS TRAIN!!
I want to get off already..
It's going to fast and it's gonna hurt if i jump off..

Grey Street..

Look at how she listens,
She says nothing of what she thinks,
She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to grey street.
She thinks, "Hey, how did I come to this?"
I dream myself a thousand times around the world
But I can't get out of this place.
There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart

How she wishes it was different
She prays to God most every night
And though she swears he might not listen
There's still a hope in her he might
She says "I pray oh But they fall on deaf ears,
am I supposed to take it on myself?
To get out of this place?"

There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It's more like cold blue ice in her heart
She feels like kicking out all the windows
And setting fire to this life
She could change everything about her
Using colors bold and bright
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart..

A Sad Sad Friday..

And so, Instead of hanging out with the churchies last night since the Deen's are in Lobo, Batangas hence the Roots ain't got nowhere to hang out in, i fell asleep instead.. I have no clue on how and why this happened. The last thing i remembered was texting Anton about following wherever they are going after the chuch service and watching a low budged wannabe version of Sinbad in HBO.. Sad Sad Sad Friday..

Anyway on other things.. it's just now that it's hitting me that it's extremely difficult finding a job in my profession. Sheesh.. hard to take in but now i actually believe what the rents have been saying for the past few months.. I'm not depressed and shit don't get me wrong, it's just frustrating in a way.. Maybe i should just take that ticket the states this July and see what's in store for me back there.

Work ourselves, fingers to the bone
Suck the marrow, drain my soul
Pay your dues, and your debts
Pay your RESPECTS, everybody tells you
You pay for what you get
You pay for what you get

Everybody asks me how she's doin'
Has she all this time? i don't know
what's with her, has she lost her mind?
I said, I couldn't tell you..
I'VE LOST MINE!!

Words, words, words, have you heard
A bird in hand is much better than,
Any number free to wander
Fly away... Stay
You pay for what you get

Everybody asks me how she's doing
Is she really ok like what she says?
Everybody asks me how she's doing
I said I couldn't tell you
but I'm OK I'm OK...

Surprise, surprise
You pay for what you get

Sun will shine no matter what I do
Sun shines bright now with you
What a wonderful thing for you to do
Moon shine bright
Reflection in your eyes
A finer place he could not find

Winter's cold
Spring erases
And the calm away by the storm is chasen
Everything good needs replacing
Hope all these changes happen with you

In my life
Never before have I a lover so adored
Her eyes
Her hair
Everything she says
My delight can tickle me inside
Touch my heart
Touch my mind

No matter what's inside I'll
Give to her
No need to satisfy my hunger
Lost in her
And while I spend these hours
Five senses reeling
With biggest steps I'm running
After her I will run

No matter what's inside I'll
Give to her
No need to satisfy my hunger
Lost in her
And while I spend these hours
Five senses reeling
With biggest steps I'm running
After her I will run

After her..

Low Cut Dwayne Wade's + Removed Ankle Support + a Really Physical Game of Ball in St. Cuenca Park = Ouch.. Sprained Ligamentless Ankle and I need Ice. I really don't know what to say anymore? maybe i should seriously listen to everyone na when they say "Hoy! Take care na nga of your knees and Ankles! You know they're weak na nga and you still do all that!!"..

To the Girl: Yes, i may deny it before but now i admit it.. I'm stubborn..

Starting tomorrow i will seriously take into consideration that taking care of my ankles and knees thing.. Promise.

Anyways..
Scenario: No Lights in the court, Sprained Ankle and a game of 21 with Chase, Carlo and Ean.
Me: Chase, I can beat you in this game with only one hand..
Chase: OK GAME!

And so.. instead of just beating Chase in the game.. I ended up beating Everyone with only one hand.. Hehehe.. told you i was good..

Tonight, Live in Manila.. I'm not really a fan, and according to my ears, the Love Mysterious album is not as great as the last one. But who knows maybe right after this event they change their mind..

Quote of the day:

"You make me want to be a better man.."
- Jack Nicholson

I'm hanging on
here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
just hanging on
even though
I watched you come and go
how was I to know
you'd steal the show
one day ill have enough to gamble
ill wait to hear your final call
and bet it all
I'm hanging on
here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
just hanging on
even though
passed this time alone
somewhere so unknown
it heals the soul
you'll ask for walls I'll build them higher
we'll lie in shadows of them all
I'd stand but they're much too tall
and I fall
Floating in the Dark!
Temporary scars!
February stars!

Mon's Problem

So.. what's Mon's problem. I can't seem to understand or to know when "Enough is Enough". Seriously, this has been an issue with me for the past Ten years.. and to be honest with you, this shitty ass mentality get's me to more shit compared to more good shit. i mean, i seriously don't understand why i'm even like this.. some people say "maybe becaus ever since birth you've had something against authority thus the mentality is implanted in you".. but c'mon i seriously doubt that. *sips on my dr. pepper* anyways, seriousy, i should get this shit out of my head.. this shit ain't healty no more.. specially now that i'm in the verge of something unusual... i'll explain more about that when i'm not intoxicated...

ps."i'm not sure but now a days i realize that i write more personalized entries when i'm intoxicated.. hahahahahaha!! NIIIIIIICE!!! RAAAW!!!

pps. I'm starting to hate constellations and the sky up above us.. and i refuse to say why.. maybe it's the alcohol talking but who knows?! maybe i do but maybe someone else does but who knows?! maybe you do?! or maybe he or she does?! or maybe your grandmother does but i sure don't know.. when you find out please tell me..

ppps. i went to the church of st. jude the other day, and st. jude supposedly is the "patron saint of the impossible" and i prayed to him for some impossible stuff that i needed. i dunno man.. but i think i'm just to eager about getting what i prayed for but yeah, i'm hoping he pulls through! i got faith in you brudda!! i'll still be cpraying

Bored.. and these Pictures from a Softer World simply explains what's going on inside my head right now..

Please sleep, my darling, sleep.
Your cry for inspiration, never reaches ears on distant stars.
And every night our lonely planet slides ACROSS THE UNIVERSE.
And I won't pretend I understand.

Please sleep, my darling, sleep.
Your death by information won't disturb the peace on DISTANT STARS.
And even when you lock the doors and slide behind the unlit shades,
None of us are strangers anymore.

So fall asleep with the windows open.
Come to me with the worst you've said and done.
You'll close your eyes and see me.
A little death makes life more meaningful.
I stand no chance at all.

Please sleep, my darling, sleep.
Your car crash in slow motion won't upset the pace on distant stars.
And one by one our years of OUR LIVES stumble as the moments pass.
So please hold on. Please hold on.

So fall asleep with the windows open.
Come to me with the worst you've said and done.
You'll close your eyes and see me.
A LITTLE DEATH makes life more meaningful.
I stand no chance at all.

Please sleep, my darling, sleep.

>

You gotta love them constellations man..
and yes Gians, i live for the challenge..

Kobe's 43 snaps his 50 point Streak



Kobe's 43 Point performance against the Golden State Warriors snaps his 4 game 50 point streak!

MVP!! MVP!! MVP!!

I'm Bored..

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66 Questions.. Why?! I'm still Bored..

1. Single or Taken:
No Idea..
2. Happy about:
Constellations
3. Sibling/s:
Sieg, Aby and Wowiecaster
4. Eye color:
Dark brown
5. shoe size:
12
6. Height:
5'10"
7. What are you wearing right now?
Shorts and a Shirt
8. Righty or lefty:
Righty
9. Can you make a dollar in change right now:
Yes
10. Best place to go for a date:
Beach.. Terazzas

=FAVORITES=
11. Kind of pants:
Slacks
12. Number:
3,4,5,6,7,8,11,13,15,24,81,84
13. Animals:
Emperor Penguins
14. Drink(non alcoholic):
Tampico
15. Sport to watch:
Football, Basketball, Tennis, Golf
16. Month
January, May, September, October, November and December
17. Juice:
Orange
18. Favorite cartoon character:
Speedy Gonzales, Peppi the Skunk and Heckle and Jeckle

=Have You Ever...=

19. Given anyone a bath:
Yup.. Sancho my Nephew
20. Made yourself throw-up?
Probably..
21. Gone skinny dipping?
I wish..
22. Eaten a dog?
Yup
23. Loved someone so much it made you cry?
Nope
24. Broken a bone?
Nope
25. Played truth or dare?
Yup
26. Been on a plane?
Yup
27. Came close to dying?:
Yup
28. Been in a sauna?
Yup
29. Been in a hotub?
Yup
30. Swam in the ocean?
Yup
31. Fallen asleep in school?
Always
32. Ran away?
Nope.. It's Pointless
33. Broken someone's heart?
Yup
34. Cried when someone died?
Yup
35. Cried in school?
Yup
36. Fell off your chair?
Yup
37. Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?
Nope
38.Saved AIM conversations?
Yup
39. Made out with JUST a friend?
Yup
40. Used someone?
Probably
41. Been cheated on?
Nope

=What is...=

42. Your good luck charm?
The two bands i'm wearing right now
43. New fav. song?
Akon - Don't Matter
44. What is beside you?
Headphones, Ipod, Speakers, Ipod Plug, Earphones and a Table
45. Last thing you ate?
Mr. Chips
46. What kind of shampoo/conditioner:
Garnier

=Ever Had..=
47. Chicken pox:
Yup
48. Sore Throat:
Right Now
49. Stitches:
Yup
50. Broken nose:
Nope

=Do You...=
51. Believe in love at first sight?
Sometimes
52. Long distant relationships?
Sometimes
53. Like school?
Who likes school?!
54. Question?
Always
55. Who was the last person that called you?
My Mom
56. Who was the last person you slow danced with?
This girl who likes constellations
57. Who makes you smile the most?
This girl who likes constellations
58. Who knows you the best?
My Ipod and Headphones
59. Do you like filling these out:
Nope
60. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?:
I refuse to
61. Do you like yourself:
Sometimes
62. Do you get along with your family?
Most of the time

=Are You...=

63. Obsessive Compulsive?
Nope
64. Suicidal?
Nope
65. What did you do yesterday?
Jogged and Got Sick
66. Hated someone in your life?
Yup

I'd rather dance with you than talk with you. So why don't we just move into the other room? There's space for us to shake, and hey, I like this tune.. Even if I could hear what you said, I doubt my reply would be interesting for you to hear.
Because I haven't read a single book all year and the only film I saw, I didn't like it at all.

I'd rather dance, I'd rather dance than talk with you..

The music's too loud and the noise from the crowd Increases the chance of misinterpretation. So let your hips do the talking and I'll make you laugh by acting like the guy who sings and you'll make me smile by really getting into the swing..

Getting into the swing, getting into the swing..
That's why I'd rather dance than talk with you..

Wedding, Boxing and One Cute Pope..

So in about three days time, My good friend will be married to his girlfriend of 5 months, and i think a few days. Oh yeah, i forgot to mention, they're both 24. According to him it's not a "shotgun wedding" or something that he just conjured up when he had indigestion, he said he actually put good thought to this before he asked the girls hand in marriage.. i dunno, maybe it wasn't indigestion he had, maybe it was hyperacidity..

Anyway, once again don't get me wrong, the woman he's about to marry is one of the sweetest people i've ever met. Not the prettiest i've ever seen, but you know, she's sweet nontheless. And for one thing, he's gonna be well taken care of with this girl and from what i see and how i know the guy, that's what he needs.. and that's what's important

I think i should stop right here.. i should be saying things like these.. i'm the freakin' best man for crying out loud!

Anyway, boxing?!, Pivot, Pivot, Straight, Jab, Hook, Uppercut, Weave.. i don't know man, i'd rather learn how to dance.. and yeah, i'd rather not start on that "Cute Pope" that's just way way off.. believe me...

Early Morning Blog..

Technically it's not early morning.. it's 9:00 am, it's just that i haven't actually written something this early in so long. Anyway, i seriously have to do something already, i'm bored to my witts..

According to Bri's blog i took our nutrition subject twice back in college.. well, that's according to him.. just so that you know, i only took it once, along with my other culinary related subjects..

Moving on, Madrid drew against Barcelona in the El Classico due to a late goal from Leonnel Messi and a screwed up defence.. also, the Lakers lose to the Mavs on what appears to be their worse loss in franchise history 108 - 72.

What is the world coming to!?!?!

Madridista's fall in Europe and the Bucks beat LALA

Seriously, these past few months could not get any more messed up. Yeah yeah, we all know the shit i'm right now, but other than that, i just don't understand why Madrid had to lose to the freakin' Germans and The Lakers to the Bucks.. I mean, c'mon man! give me freakin' break!

Kiss my ass Chris! Manchester ain't gonna win the Champions League! Dream on BOY!! hahaha!

So you think you've been through it all?
But I can't help but wonder now.
Yesterday I found my worst regret.
I'll hide it away so no one ever knows.

I'm dying.
I'm trying to leave.

Let me slip away. I'm barely holding on.
Every now and then I feel the end of us.

I never meant to say I'm sorry,
And I'm not sad to see you go.
We're human shapes burned on concrete walls.
These days the sun don't shine here anymore.

I'm dying.
I'm trying to leave.

Let me slip away. I'm barely holding on.
Every now and then I feel the end of us.
I laugh away. You breathe inside my head.
But something's gotta' change. I'm barely holding on.

Entry #601..

After 600 entries of no holds barred writing and expressing whatever it is that i got in this crazy head of mine, this is the first time i gonna be trying to watch what i write in this shit.. seriously, i can't believe i'm doing this and i am not jumping for joy that i'm doing this. For those interested on why i'm doing this.. just ask me through email.. i just don't want to get into more shit expressing myself.

Anyway, since i have to be "discreet" and all that.. here's what's been going on..

i feel like crap, i've been playing football, work is stupid, as always.. i'm the bad guy and i have to start learning how to dance.. clear enough for ya?

Scenario:

Dude1: Gotti.. why not change the address?
Me: Because it's such a hassle
Dude2: if you don't want to change the add, then just watch what you write
Me: Seriously, you expect me to do that?
Dude3: If you don't want to get into deeper shit then yeah.. or make a another one..
Me: another one.. hmmm..

I am not a lucky man...
You are like a butterfly
A Catipillars dream to fly
So bust out of this old cocoon
And dry your wings off
Butterfly
Go ahead, and fly

Its always such a lonely loom
Its sudden like a broken bone
And your luck wont always come along
So dry your tears away
Butterfly
Go ahead and fly

Dry your tears away
Butterfly
Dont you, Cry