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There's this line i keep on telling people whenever they're confused, or being fickled about something important or just something they can decide on..

" It doesn't matter what you do, or what anybody says because at the end of the day, when you're lying on you bed alone with just your thoughts, it's still up to you on what you decide on doing"

The reason probably why I'm able to say that is because, it happens to me all the time, thus I'm like this. I'm able to look numb and all that during the day when everything is on the fast lane. But at the end of the whole thing, when the night cap is over, everything is gathered and i become this person who's vunerable enough to be pushed around.

I'm writing all this down tonight because the line I mentioned awhile ago is hitting me in a different perspective. It's just that right at this moment, 12:55 am 19th of November 2007, I realize that i have become the person i swore to not be and hate.. There's no point on hiding it anymore. I've done the damage. No matter how big or how small it is.. Someone still got hurt because of my actions..

I'm sorry.. like what i said the other night, no words nor entries nor phrases can explain what i did.. no matter how pure my intentions were.. i did what i did, and i regret it like anything.. I lost one of the most precious things i cherish in my whole life.. which is a friend..

What is my Greatest fear?: My greatest fear is that i'm not incompetent, but i'm powerful beyond measure.. It's my light that i fear not my darkness..