Prologue: (Rewind 8 years back)
8 years ago, back when i was still in 6th grade, there was this girl that i liked. First time i laid my eyes on her, i knew that i wanted to be with this girl. There was nothing really special about this girl, i mean she the kind of girl you encounter everyday. The only thing that made her special was her extreme sweetness. She is as sweet as those swiss white chocolates. For two semesters i tried my very best to get her attention, i tried and tried but without success until the start of the third where we were introduced. From there i never did waste any more of my precious time. I only got 1 more semester to make this girl mine. And i knew thta being a 6th grader it's gonna be difficult for me to persue this over the summer for i still wasn't allowed to use the car by myself and i still had a curfew. I did everything to make this girl mine and just 2 weeks before the semester ended, we became an icon. The first week, we were like peas and carrots, nothing can separate us. We even sat beside each other during class and stayed after class just so that we could spend some time together. The second week was a bit different, this is where it all falls down. I could still remember it like it was yesterday. For a week, it's been a routine for me to call her everytime the sun sets and we'd stay on the phone for hours at a time. I could recall it being a Sunday, where just right after the Saint James 7:30 p.m. church service, i went straight for the phone to give her a call. I was already supposed to tell her that Four letter word, but before i could even spell it with my toung, she told me one of the most depressing lines that a person im my state of admiration for someone could ever recieve in their lifetime. She told me that she was migrating to Canada the week after next. The worst part was, she thought i already knew from the start. At that moment, i felt like i was carrying the world on my shoulders. Questions which i already knew the answer to just kept on coming on to me like a broken record. Everything i worked for, gone in just a few words of parting. This was the first time i got jacked for something i worked hard for. But worse, this was the first time i fell in love and got heart broken at the same time. On that moment, i broke everything off with her. I just couldn't stand the pain. I felt like i was cheated on something i wanted and worked my ass off for. From then on, i never spoke to her.. She wrote me a letter which i read, but never replied to. a couple of years after that, she gave me a ring, but i never answered. I did once but i was giving her the cold treatment so that doesn't count. I erased her from my vocabulary, i didn't want to know her anymore. For 8 years this is how i felt... 8 years until now....

I. In My Lifetime Volume 1:

Last Tuesday, that 8 year streak was broken. I finally spoke to the girl after all this time. I saw her up in friendster and i had a message coming from her. She added me in her Yahoo Messenger and i caught her online. We chatted for an hour or so, just catching up on that 8 year gap. I was shocked when i heard some of the things that she told me. One of the things were, she was looking for me, for the past 5 years. Trying to reach me with whatever means possible. I was also shocked to find out that she still knew my Address and phone number. She just wasn't sure if i still lived there and if my digits was still correct. But more importantly, she was still the same sweet girl i knew back then. Nothing really changed with her. Maybe her accent but that doesn't really count. Now, i'm looking forward to my next yahoo messenger chat with her. The wound is still here but it doesn't hurt as much as before. The title "In My Lifetime" are for flash backs like these.. just reminding.. I'll unpdate you guys on this...

P.S. I won't be here from Friday to Sunday so probably my Monday entry will be once again compiled.. PEACE!!!

Today's Soundtrack
- 2Pac-
- Thugz Mansion
- Staring at the World Thorugh My Rearview
- Hit em' Up 2
- Freestyle feat. Biggie
Warren G
- Transformers
- Relax ya Mind
- This DJ
- Back Up
Kanye West
- All Falls Down
- Through the Wire
- Slow Jamz feat. Twista and Jamie Foxx
Nate Dogg
- I Got Love (Remix)
- Another Short Story
- Area Codes feat. Ludacris
- Oh No
Blackstreet - No Diggity feat. Dr. Dre
Eminem - Go to Sleep feat. Obie Trice and DMX
50 Cent - In Da Club
Outkast - Roses