Just Wake Me Up

Tell Me When im Free,
Free from depression and Hate,
Free from Tangled Emotions and Depression,
From Nonchalant words i don't mean.

Tell Me When im Free,
From mindless thoughts,
And Raging Pain from Within,
For I Can't Bear this Anymore.

Tell Me when im Free,
For i have to stop falling,
From this Feelings of Anxiety,
And start climbing back to Captivity.

So Wake me up when im Free,
For this so called heart is not dormant,
and still beating, beating away,
on its useless existence.

DDay 06.02.03

The Unexpected:

While i was on the brink of accepting what i have and not wanting anymore, unexpectedly my eyes landed on someone who i wanted for almost 2 years (You know this Vic). And at that moment my willingness to accept were gone and my feelings of wanting came back (well maybe for just 3 minutes), because his boyfriend came. depressing ain't it? I wasTelling the Lord "Hey Man.. You didn't have to rub it in". But you know what this maybe a sign or something.. i dunno.. ill keep you updated.. Peace out!!