Bright lights in my smokey eyes tonight, its 2am. i'm still up again and its heavy in my mind. And to fucking think i gots an 8am class later(god damn it!).I thought i could fall asleep again like the way i do. Shit this is the lonliest time of my fucking day.. I kinda envy you guys with normal sleeping habits and fuck i kinda miss sleeping too.. ain't that a bitch.. Shit i don't even know why the fuck this is happening to me.. Maybe i think too much and all that bullshit! Anyhow..

What did i do wrong?! Was it some thing i said? What did i say to you that made you turn your head?! Do i deserve this? or you just enjoy doing this?!I don't mind you doing this as long as i'm a bitch.. am i bitch or ain't i just worthy? Tell me if im just wasting my time and tell me straight up.. I know i'm in a Ditch but will you pull me up?help me out in this madness i am in?Unplug your T.V.,Turn off your Phone, I'll stop dreaming,Stop Re-living and tell me where i stand.. Pull me up and tell me something i don't know but i'm not your Fan.Please i'm begging you, ok now i'm on my knees..Take my Eyes take my Pride i need them no more just tell me Should i stay or should i go so i know where my dissapointments will roll.. Will I Rise or Will I Fall? I don't care no more. As Long as I know your Decision and all your stories Untold.

Unto your dreaming
When you're alone
Unplug the TV
Turn off your phone
Get heavy on with digging your ditch

Cause I'm digging a ditch where madness gives
Digging a ditch where silence lives
Digging a ditch for when I'm old
Digging a ditch where stories told
Where all these troubles
That weigh down on me will rise
Unto your dreaming
When you're alone
Where all these worries
Weigh heavy on my heart
Will rise..

I Wonder how ya Doin..
We Havent Talked in awhile..
And I Haven't See you in a long time..
Hope you're thinking of the same thing..

I Guess I miss You..
I guess I still Want you..
Does the moon shine in Paris?!
or Does it shine here alone?!

The 36th

yeah yeah i scream...
with you on my mind so heavy and so hard
i don't know quite everything
you make me think of a better thing
better things to fill my day with
but they don't mean to go
please don't be too bad with me, God
please don't be too good...
let some women's light, women's light
chain my hands with me singing
Honey Honey, come and dance for me,
sooner there..
Honey Honey, come and dance for me
only the brave
feeling the night..
lead me back home to life..

you made heaven turn to dirt..
and dirt turn to dance on..
heaven come my way..
baby surely do..
maybe some moonlight..
maybe some, baby surely do..
maybe some moonlight
say this say this...
Honey Honey, come and dance for me
underneath the moonlight..
Honey Honey, Come and dance for me
come on, come on go
Honey Honey, come and dance for me

oh man, i can't talk
a man was tall and once tore a piece of freedom for us all
when, then, you least expect it
hun can cut from of his own heart
for us all, that man
don't believe it, oh yeah....
God, two men slice and dice eachother up in his place
they don't believe it...
well leave it
leave it lying, leave it lying, leave it lying
got me singing
Honey Honey, come and dance for me..

"Lullabye"

goodnight, goodnight sweet baby
the world has more for you
than it seems
goodnight, goodnight
let the moonlight take the lid off your dreams

we took a small flight
in the middle of the night
from one tiny place to another
and my parents they remained
at the shack with Aby Wowie,
and my aunt and Maids and brother
we walked past the tarmac
and boarded the craft
the rain had me chilled to the bones
just the three of us took flight that night,
Dave Matthews, You and Me
and the pilot he gave me a blanket
while the tall man with a Guitar sang to me in deep rich tones...

Goodnight, Goodnight Sweet Baby...

the world has more for you
than it seems
goodnight, goodnight
let the moonlight take the lid off your dreams..

Countdown.. 30 min. Left and its our mid-terms in philosophy.. goddamn! and i don't know jack shit!

"Demons"

My words confuse you
My eyes don’t move a blink
Cause it’s easier sometimes
Not to be sincere

Somehow I make you believe..
Believe..
When I speak I cross my fingers

Will you know you’ve been deceived?
I find a need to be the demon
A demon cannot be hurt
Honest is easy
Fiction is where genius lies
Cause it’s easier sometimes
Not to be involved

Somehow I make you believe..
Believe..
When I speak I cross my fingers
Will you know you’ve been deceived?
I find a need to be the demon

A demon cannot be hurt...

This Morning i took my midterms with a hang over.. Good thing i knew what the test was all about. And after that it was our lab.. still the hang over was still there.. i almost cut my finger with the knife because of my motherfucking headache and dizzyness!.. Now its exactly 1:36 pm and im in Angelo King international Center.. Writting this shit, and wating for my next class which is not until 4:20 pm, And goddamn i still have the fucking hang over.. i tried going to the clinic but they said that if my excuse was "i have a hang over.." they wouldn't accept that and they wouldn't let me sleep there.. shit.. how i wish i was in my bed right now.. lying down.. full blast aircon.. with a fuckin' comforter.. sleeping this whole shit out! Oh yeah, I went out to Studio 1 last night to Rap once again.. the whole S.E.E.E.E.E.E.C. was there... hehehe... thanks for coming guys! Merci!

Merci<--- c/o Crizelle! hehehe!

Until next time... Vamanos!

"Warning"

Bat your eyes girl
Be otherworldly
Count your blessings
Seduce a stranger
What's so wrong with
Being happy
Kudos to those who
See through sickness
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves before it's
Made illegal
When will we learn?
When will we change?
Just in time to
See it all fall down
Those left standing...will make millions
Writing books on the way it should have been
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
Floating in this
Cosmic jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
To the water
Starting to boil
No one flinches
We all float face down
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by

I never knew that i would..
I never imagined that i could..
I never really thought that it would..
But i did... you still with me?
ain't that something?
I'm not talking about you know who..
But im talking about you know what..
and you know what is what you know..
tough isn't it?
take your time and try to understand..
what im trying to conversate about..

this all about me..
falling..
and standing up..
but not knowing..
i'd end up falling again..
Damn..

Reality struck..

Dreaming without even sleeping..
What the fuck was i thinking?!
Waking up and your not sleeping?!
ain't that a very interesting predicament?!

Reality Stuck..
Thinking so much differently.. because im dreaming..
it feels so good, but waking up is such a drag..
its like bumping you head in a post..
and falling down in your knees in pain..
As if your gonna combusticate...

What was i thinking?
dreaming of you while im awake..
eyes wide open and you look like your awake?
Dreaming of you while im awake..

"Magic"

from the back of your big brown eyes
i knew you'd be gone as soon as you could
and i hoped you would
we could see that you weren't yourself
and the lines on your face did tell
it's just as well
you'd never be yourself again

saw you last night
dance by the light of the moon
stars in your eyes
free from the life that you knew

you're the magic that holds the sky up from the ground
you're the breath that blows these cool winds 'round
trading places with an angel now
saw you last night
dance by the light of the moon
stars in your eyes
free from the life that you knew
saw you last night
stars in your eyes
smiled in my room

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Third Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Extreme
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

Oh, my head lay back on the seating
Been so tired, throw away my surrounding
Like the sun and moon take for granted
Soon we move through the flood and we fade away

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
We'll be ok

Lean upon me,
I'll lean upon you,
We'll be okay

Oh, I lay myself at your feet laughing
Hope mine eye made of the soul choir

Lean upon me,
I'll lean upon you,
We'll be okay

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
Soon fade away

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
We'll be okay

Tables turned again
On you, my friend
You and I face each other
All time and time out

I know it's sometimes hard
But knowing just
That we will get along
Until we're old and grey
And huddled up
And doubled up, we'll say...

And laugh of times were hard
Laugh of times when we thought all
Would end it all, it's over
And then again

And though all I know is this way
And to leave you
Well, I'd die
Oh, my friend
It will be you until the end with me, always

Always...

"DDAY 08.07.03"

While Minding My Own Business in school and looking for a computer to blog on or just go online on, or something, because of my fuckin' 4 hour break.. I just saw the person whom i would least expect in the computer lab. Its was this person whom i call "Little Girl"... So to those people who knows... hehehe i guess you know how im feeling right now... haha!! ain't life a bitch!

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

I AM FUCKIN' WINNIE THE POOH! HOW DEPRESSING IS THAT?!?!

"A Certain Shade of Green"

A certain shade of green,
tell me, is that what you need?
All signs around say move ahead.
Could someone please explain to me your ever present
lack of speed?
Are your muscles bound by ropes?
Or do crutches cloud your day?
My sources say the road is clear,
and street signs guide my way.
Are you gonna stand around till 2012 A.D.?
What are you waiting for,
A certain shade of green?
I think I grew a gray watching you procrastinate.
What are you waiting for,
A certain shade of green?
Would a written invitation
signed, "Choose now or lose it all,"
sedate your hesitation?
Or inflame and make you stall?
You've been raised in limitation,
but that glove never fit quite right.
The time has come for hand-me-downs,
choose anew, please evolve,
take flight
What are you waiting for?
A written invitation?
A public declaration?
A private consolation?

"Redefine"

Imagine your brain as a
canister filled with ink
yeah, now think of your body
as the pen where the ink resides
Fuse the two; KAPOW!
What are you now?
You're the human magic marker, won't you
please surprise my eyes?
It's in your nature,
you can paint whatever picture
you like no matter what
Ted Filon says on channel 2 tonight
So modify this third rock from the sun
by painting myriads of pictures
with the colors of one
I'm sick of painting in black and white
my pen is dry, now I'm uptight
So sick of limiting myself
to fit your definition
Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye,
manifest and become illustrated
You'd be sure man that every
line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated
So, must we demonstrate that
we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture,
now we're drowning in paint
Lets figure out what the fuck it's about
before the picture we painted
chews us up and spits us out
I'm sick of painting in black and white
my pen is dry, now I'm uptight
So sick of limiting myself
to fit your definition
Redefine

Oh my dear,
When I was dreaming,
Take your lie's elsewhere
don't Give them to me

Oh my friend,
Old as you are,
How could I trust you as far
As I could throw your brother?

As to you my love,
My precious baby,
If I die be sure that you meet me up
Where I can stay with you.

Take my flesh,
And eat it down
Drink my blood for every pound you can brother.

We reconcile, our differences,
When I saw God and the devil walking on and on.
We reconcile, our different tastes,
When I saw the devil swimming in the Lord's swimming pool.

To drink his wine,
God forgive him,
Your falling angels doing fine
He's got you under boards.

Oh then God,
This dream may be done,
How he had given rise to him what would we care.

If there were no Judas,
Or there were no devil,
Where would God and this little boy be now?
No where I swear.

Oh it's said,
When it seems extreme,
When all we do is reconcile our differences here.

"Pardon Me"

Pardon me while I burst
A decade ago, I never thought I would be.
A Nineteen on the verge of spontaneous combustion. Woe-is-me
But I guess that it comes with the territory.
An ominous landscape of never-ending calamity.
I need you to hear. I need you to see.
That I have had all I can take
And exploding seems like a definite possibility
To me...

So Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games
So Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Not, two days ago I was having a look in a book
And I saw a picture of a guy fried up above his knees
I said I can relate
Cause lately I've been thinking of combustication as a welcomed vacation from.
The burdens of the planet earth, like gravity, hypocrisy, and the perils of being in 3-D...
And thinking so much differently...

Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games
Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Never be the same...

I Got This Poem Form My Friend Primo's Blogger. This poem was written By Juventus F.C. Superstar Alessandro Del Piero. I Always thought that he was a great Football Player.. But I Didn't think He Could write for shit! FORZA JUVE!

In Italian:
"Arriva la Primavera"

la finissima pioggia
di marzo e arrivata
portando con se
la primavera
che arriva
a galoppando
su di un cavallo ricoperto
di fior di pesco.
la principessa primavera
candida come I fiori del melo riempie
tutto il mondo di gioia.
l'inverno se n'e andato per il mondo
a fare provvista
di nuove bufere, di nuove temporali e nuove nebbie
ma c'e ancora tempo,
prima che ritorni,
e questo tempo basta
per tutti noi
ad essere felici,
a riempire il cuore
di luce dorata,
dei mille colori del sole
dei loro profumi,
del canto degli uccelli.

written by Alessandro Del Piero in 1983, nine years of age

English Translation:
"Comes the spring"

the very light rain
of March has arrived
bringing along
the Spring
that comes
galloping
on a horse recovered
with peach tree flowers.
the princess Spring
innocent as the apple tree flowers fills
the whole world with joy.
the Winter has gone around the world
to store
new tempests, new storms and new fogs
but there is still time,
before it returns,
and this time is enough
for all of us
to be happy,
to fill the heart
with golden light,
with the million colours of the sun
with their perfume,
with the birds' song

I don't think you notice
When you see my face
I guess you're waiting
To spin me around again

Wheels I guess are turning
Somewhere inside my head
I know that this is
Deeper than you get

But you're coming back again
You don't mean to waste my time
But you're coming back so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine
Here finding me
Me

I've already given
Up on getting through
I never question
Who I'm talking to

Oh so much for nothing
But nothing means so much
I know it's touching
But I've been out of touch

And it's all that I can do
I'm a sight for my sore eyes
But it's all I am so

I don't think you notice
When I can't reach out
I guess you're waiting
On somebody else again

Oh so much for talking
It's all been said before
I'm hearing something
but I wish you'd just say more

But you're going off again
When I try to just hold on
But you're going off so

Hey, my friend
It seems your eyes are troubled
Care to share your time with me
Would you say you're feeling low and so
A good idea would be to get it off of your mind

See, you and me
Have a better time than most can dream
Have it better than the best
And so can pull on through
Whatever tears at us
Whatever holds us down
And if nothing can be done
We'll make the Best of What's Around

Turns out not where but who you're with
That really matters
That really matters
And hurts not much when you're around
When you're around

And if you hold on tight
To what you think is your thing
You may find you're missing all the rest
She ran up into the light surprised
Her arms are open
Her mind's eye is...

Seeing things from a
Better side than most can dream
On a better road I feel
So you could say she's safe
Whatever tears at her
Whatever holds her down
And if nothing can be done
She'll make the best of what's around

Turns out not where but what you think
That really matters
And hurts not much when you're around

I know I'll miss her later
Wish I could bend my love to hate her
Wish I could be her creator
To twist her arms now

She stares up at the stars when
The stars fell from her hair then
I bent down to collect them
And then she was gone

Oh, I sleep just to dream her
I beg the night just to see her
That my only love should be her
Just to lie in her arms

Oh, I came there to find out
Find out she'd made up her mind, oh
My arms are all tied up
To me she was blind

This space between us
Where wingless dreams fall earless
Will you not bear me witness
With your back to me now

It seemed so unnerving
Still somehow deserving
That she could hold my heart so tightly
And still not see me here, oh

Oh, I sleep just to dream her
Beg the night just to see her
That my only love should be her
Just to lie in her arms

I know I'll miss her later
Wish I could bend my love to hate her
Wish I could be her creator
To be the light in her eyes

I was falling always
And now I'm falling this way
What will become of me
When I'm all far away

I'm spinnning down
I'm spinning up
Upon this way
Wondering what will become of me
When I'm all far way

I'm spinning down
I'm all away
A greater way

What Will Become of Me?

You Never Diss your Homie

You Never Diss your own homie. You know what i mean.. in all aspects! you gots to respect the one you call "Brother". You still with me?! You gots to know where you stand, and you should know where you can only be you know. Having Brothers from the hood is sacred, because you know they there for you when you need them.. ya dig?! and for one, since they always there for you and all that, its a fuckin' mortal sin to diss them. Mistakes are there G, but they can be prevented you know what i mean? if you only thinkin' straight!

Know where you are next time G.. Know where you are, and know where you should be, So this shit ain't gonna happen again.. I'm still with you G, But what you did was cruel.. Stay true to who you callin your brother.. because you damn well know they stayin true to you.. Peace out Homes!

Did you ever get the feeling of waking up in the middle of the night, realizing you didn't sleep at all?! you know what i mean?! if ever you have felt this crazy ass feeling.. contact me!! hehehe

"There is.."

this vacation ain't useless
these white pills aren't kind
i'm giving it a lot of thought on this coming 8-hour drive
i missed the grinding concrete where we sat past 1 and past somemore time
and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
i've given a lot of thought to the nights we used to have
the days have come and gone
our lives when but so fast
i faintly remember breathing on your living room floor
where we told stories and i sweared i loved you more

do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off pretend its all okay
that there someone out there who feels just like me
there is..

those notes i wrote you
i've kept them all
i'll give a lot of thought of how to write you back this june
with every single letter in every single word there
will be a hidden message about a boy that
loves a girl
do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off
pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is..

"Angel in the Rain"

Verse1:

Sitting by myself
On this cold and stormy day
Thoughts of you on my head
Wondering if you'll come my way

You'd make the cold much warmer
The gray so colorful to see
Everything just seems so beautiful
When you are with me

Chorus:

You're my angel in the rain
You see me through darkness and through pain
And when the sun shines so bright and clear
Then I know you must be near
Somewhere here, Close to me
Somewhere here, Close to me

Verse2:

Sometimes I just wonder
When I'll next see your face
The touch of your hand on my shoulder
The comfort of your sweet embrace

And I know that day will come
Maybe when I need you best
You'll just suddenly be beside me
And you will be my rest

Bridge:

Oh I can be strong and stand tall
For you are with me through it all
And its just so plain to see
You're all I need
Right here, with me

"written and copyrighted to Sebastian".."inspired by the lady he calls his angel"

"REAL MADRID TAKE LA LIGA FOR THE 29th TIME!!!"



38 Days of tension, 38 days of illusion, 38 of dreaming, 38 days.. with one objective. To win their 29th Spanish La Liga Title. The Real Madrid C.F. Proved once more that they are truly Spain's greatest football club! Real Madrid staged the achievement of the Liga title tonight before all its fans after beating Athletic Bilbao in an intense and thrilling game. Ronaldo did one of his best games with Real. Today he scored two goals and provoked the free kick that Roberto Carlos took to hit another target. On leaving the field to be replaced by Morientes, the Brazilian forward got a huge applause from the stands, as a sort of pre-celebration of the title. Real Madrid has achieved its 29th Liga bringing this excellent season to such an spectacular end!

THE MATCH:
2 - REAL MADRID: Casillas; Michel Salgado, Hierro (Pavón, 90’), Helguera, Roberto Carlos; Makelele, Guti; Figo, Raúl, Zidane (Solari, 89’); and Ronaldo (Morientes, 83’).
1 - ATHLETIC: Aranzubia; Luis Prieto, Lacruz, Karanka, Del Horno; Gurpegi, Alkiza; Joseba Etxeberria (Tiko, 69’), Yeste (Oscar Vales, 75’), Ezquerro (Arriaga, 69’); and Urzaiz. REFEREE: Ramírez Domínguez, Navarra Referees Association. Yellow cards to Hierro and Gurpegui.
GOALS:
1-0: Min. 9: Roberto Carlos and Figo’s move on the left flank, the Brazilian sends a centre shot to Ronaldo, who scores.
1-1: Min. 36: Alkiza takes Casillas by surprise with a long-range shot.
2-1: Min. 45: Roberto Carlos, free kick.
3-1: Min. 60: Centre pass from Zidane to Ronaldo, who beats Aranzubía with a right-footed shot.
OTHER FACTS: Liga Matchday 38. Santiago Bernabéu Stadium, full. It has been the 18th time that the tickets have been sold out this season at Bernabéu. Hot evening and field of play in perfect condition.

I see the stars sparkling so bright,
Within the moon kissed sky.
I hear the lark so sweetly sing,
Amidst the morning dawn.
I smell the flower full in bloom,
And see their royal pomp.

And yet some place so deep within,
I'm shrouded and I'm closed.
The brilliance there I can't see,
In mists of misery.
Enshrined inside, unable thus,
To touch the warmth without.

I gaze upon this passion spent,

And yet . . . Inside I die.

The Lost Soul


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"David Beckham Becomes a Madrista!"

"I could not let this opportunity pass me. I know that I will always regret it later in life if I had turned down the chance to play at another great club like Real Madrid", said English footballer David Beckham following the confirmation of his signing for Real Madrid. "I recognise that this is an amazing opportunity for and my family," he explained.
England captain who will become a Real Madrid player for the next four seasons, recognised "this is an amazing opportunity for me at this stage in my career and a unique and exciting experience for my family". Besides, Beckham thanked "other clubs who were interested in signing me, but I really want to play in the Champions League."

When it was time for him to say farewell to Manchester, Beckham, trained by Alex Fergusson, said something about his mentor: "I would like to publicly thank Sir Alex Ferguson for making me the player I am today," he said. "I will always hold precious memories of my time at Manchester United and Old Trafford as well as the players, who I regard as part of my family, and the brilliant fans who have given me so much support over the years."

Florentino Pérez: "Beckham wanted to come"
Following the confirmation of Beckham's signing, Real President Florentino Pérez denied that the Club has made huge efforts to sign the top world players and said that it is the players themselves who wish to be part of the white side.

"It is not that we make efforts, but there are some footballers who wish to join Real because it is a very attractive team right now. Last year Ronaldo happened to be ready to leave his side and this year Manchester and Beckham agreed to go separate ways, but, only and exclusively to play in Real, you can be sure of that. It has been a bit of a coincidence", said Real President.

Florentino Pérez stated that the thransfer of the English international player had to be brought about ahead of the schedule because Madrid did not want to "run the risk of having to pay a higher price for the move". About the number Beckham will be wearing on the back of his shirt, the President said "he will take the number that is free, just like the others did".

Valdano: "We are delighted about Beckham's arrival"
"There is an agreement at last, and now we can announce it. We are delighted to have David with us. It is an strategic signing that will make us a more competitive team", said Sporting Director Jorge Valdano as he confirmed Beckham's signing for Real".

Valdano said "I am sure Figo is going to be lined up, the question might be which position Beckham is going to take. The megastars find their place and always end up in the starting lineup. He is a very good player, he has such a powerful image that people sometimes forget about his skills on the field. It is not only that he plays good football, he is also a good professional and is in perfect physical condition". Regarding the club's signing policy, he admitted "it is about signing top world footballers as they already come with a great publicity potential. The reputation of the Club increases with them, they reinforce our brand".

Jorge Valdano assured "our relationship with Manchester United is stronger after this deal, though what actually made everything possible was the player's wish to play in Real ".

My head lay back on the seating
Been so tired, throw away my surrounding
Like the sun and moon take for granted
Soon we move through the flood and we fade away..

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
We'll be ok..

Lean upon me,
I'll lean upon you,
We'll be okay..

Oh, I lay myself at your feet laughing
Hoping my eye is made of the soul choir..

Lean upon me,
I'll lean upon you,
We'll be okay..

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
Soon fade away..

Lie about it,
Cry about it,
We'll be okay..

Lean upon me,
I'll lean upon you,
We'll be okay..

"One Sweet World"

When My Troubles Seem's Outside my door..
And When My Music is not Playing..
Deep Inside i'm almost in tears..
I Can't Just Help but go Outside..
And Realize.. this One Sweet World..
This One Sweet World..

Even if your not here with me..
feeling this breeze that's out..
with this rain that falls like tears..
I will still go outside tonight..
and dance in the street with our mother's fears..
and just say.. this is just one sweet world...

From the top of the mountains you will see..
Green grass and the City lights below..
Where people dream and slumber with uncertainty..
so there you sleep in our mother's breast..
where you can rest in peace..
And so what if the stars ar so high up above..
in there its like hand's reach..
Ain't this just One Sweet World?!

Nine Planets surrond the sun..
but here is where we can only see..
it set in Punta Fuego's Beach..
Where the Sun Dance with the Sea..
Ain't this just One Sweet World?!

Share the time again, I spend with you.. A friend is always good to have, But a lover's kiss is better than angels raining down at me. I dream of you at times, when your by my side i dream you're not just like you are so troubled, and doubling my pain just one more tear you shed for me. I wish that I could climb inside your mind, and spend some time and hug and hold you and mold you into what i'd like.. But no i can't do this, even with just a kiss to spend a while by you, and your familiar smile and voice...

I lay awake and dream, that I can lean back and smile with you. Most everything I do for you, you say.. And the while let's make our way and feel warm in the middle of this storm with you.. and you say it like an angel

Oh, what the friends say is good is right, I say when you were again and you were my friend Before the Dream, This one, say yes I do and with you Sometimes..

But while i do my best, with all the rest i leave to you, can't wait for the hour and when two things become this, and all this trouble from a thought, i'll do it. And then you come up smiling and I'm thrown Into I get a little storm with you, I'll do it..

Always.. Lover, line up and yeah, the road to you is long and I've been on it for a while, and a need a warm embrace.. I'll take a break and say.. I want to leave you awake Always.. im here.. Angel... Even if i Feel Tired I'm Here.. Angel..

I'll Back You Up
I remember thinking
I'll go on forever only knowing
I'll see you again
But I know
The touch of you is so hard to remember
But like that touch I know no other

And for sure we have danced
In the risk of each other
Would like to dance
Around the world with me

I'll be falling all about my own thing
And I know your the heaviest weight
When your not here that's hung
Around my head

And your lips burn wild
Thrown from the face of a child
And in your eyes
The seeing of the greatest few
Do what you will, always
Walk where you like, your steps
Do as you please, I'll back you up

I remember thinking
Sometimes we walk
Sometimes we run away
But I know
No matter how fast we are running
Somehow we keep
Somehow we keep up with each other

I'll be falling all about my own thing
And i know your the heaviest weight
When your not here that's hung
Around my head

And your lips burn wild
Thrown from the face of a child
And in your eyes
The seeing of the greatest few
Do what you will, always
Walk where you like, your steps
Do as you please, I'll back you up

"This is for you.. You know who you are..

"My Second Family"

Last Weekend Me, My Family and 9 other Families served in the Family Encounter. It a weekend where families that are in trouble and families that just want to be close to each other attend and settle their differences and fix it up in order to understand each other even more. We are served this years family encounter because we had it last year, so i guess its our turn. Anyways..

I'd like to thank the people in our family encounter specially the youth for making it memorable for me. from my heart to yours, You guys are the something else "My Second Family". Nothing can come between us...

Mishy and Trina- The Ate's that I never had!
Nicky- YB in the bushes in BLD! how can i forget!
Maita- My Cute Little Sister! (I OWE YOU A BONNET!!)
Tisha- My Sister's Friend that is also my Sister
Paolo- A Brother that is also a Friend
The Conception Ladies- The Cool Version of the Brady Bunch!
Little Justin Conception- My Little Pal! (Im adam sandler and he's the Kid from Big Daddy)
Anthony- Sting me little Brother!!
Allan- Kuya Allan
Primo- Forza Juve!
Kathleen- younger version of Heart Evangelista
Joan- The Director!
Mike-6'2 from La Salle
Inigo- The Shepherd's Son
The Go's- Of Course! You guys are the my own flesh and blood! how can i forget you guys! hehe! nice one!

See You All in Fuego this weekend or when ever!

Sometimes a Jimi Thing slides my way and keeps me swinging
I'd like to show you what's inside
And I shouldn't care
If you don't like it
Brother chaos rule all about
Sometimes I walk there
Well yes God knows sometimes I take a bus there
Shouldn't care shouldn't care
Bereaved as I'm feeling..

The day is gone
I'm on my back
Staring up at the ceiling
U take a drink sit back relax
Smoke my mind make me feel
Better for a small time
What I want is what I've not got
And what I need Is all around me
Reaching searching never stop
And I'll say...

If you could keep me floating
Just for a while
Till I get to the end of this tunnel Honey
If you could keep me floating
Just for a while
I'll get back to you

"Fergie Wants Gianluigi Buffon after his Spectacular UEFA Performance"

Alex Ferguson say that Gianluigi Buffon is the Juventus star they'd most like to see at Old Trafford.The Juve keeper impressed during the Champions League Final last Wednesday, and of all the Turin-based players on show, he's the one that Reds want Fergie to buy. He wouldn't come cheap, though - at £32.6 million he's the most expensive goalie in the history of the game, Alessandro del Piero came second in the poll, which only included the Juventus players who took part in the final - hence no Pavel Nedved who was suspended.
The striker won 24.7% of the vote to Buffon's 40.8%, with midfield terrier Edgar Davids coming in third with 15.1% of the vote.
Lilian Thuram was the only other man to get into double figures of votes, polling 12.3% of the total number.

Oh, just sitting while she listens
She says I don't need this place
It seems a million years she's stuck here
But says nothing of what she thinks

She thinks, "Hey,
How did I come to this?
I dreamt like anybody else one night
I would be a beautiful princess."

But then the roads in the park fall
And then she rode the line in
And the colors mix together to grey
And break me out

Oh, when I'm indifferent
She prays to God most every night
Although she swears He doesn't listen
There's hope in her that He just might

She says, "I pray
But then my prayer fall on deaf ears
I'm supposed to take it all myself
To get out of this place."

She feels the lumps in the heart fall
And she rose up in the back
She hears the cars scream out from outside
And she whispers sometimes about this
But the colors mix together to grey
And wake me up

Oh, he grows up living
He says take what you can from your dreams
Make them real as anything
It takes the work out of the courage

She said, "Please,
There's a crazy man standing outside my door
I live on the corner of a dead end street
At the end of the world."

Oh, and the rocks out in the heart fall
And she dreams her way to life
And she knows no one will lift her
So she might as well do it herself

And then bummed out and worried
Of leaving city life
But all the colors mix together to grey
On Grey Street

You say you think you are nothing
No one else will do it for you
Reach up and grab hold of the sunlight
When you are waiting for what's right
You're holding on your Heaven
I Won't leave you, yeah, yeah...

And the colors mix together to grey
Wake me up, wake me up, wake me up
To grey.

"Last Day of Summer"

All i can say is.. I had a great summer, and I have to thank one person for that. I can't name names but i call her "My Angel". She made my summer something dreamy and somewhat a reality. This summer for me is like a dream and now that its over, im waking up in a beautiful dream.. you know what i mean? Waking up in a beautiful dream and so determined in making that dream a reality. No matter how hard and how nearly impossible that dream is you know.

Anyways.. to those people who were and wer'nt with me this summer..thank you for making this summer as complete as i want it to be. Tomorrow i already have classes so i guess this is my last blog for the summer.. probably my next blog would be how bullshit school will be.. hehehe.. The Hot Southern Sun is Gone and The Cold Stormy Clouds are here in A.A.V.

To the Angel-->You know who you are..

"The Whites Draw against Celta de Vigo 1-1 in Santiago Bernabéu"

Celta ran out with an undeserved draw in the bag after a game that Madrid should have won without much trouble. The Galician side displayed some ordinary and defensive play on the field, a sort of antifootball that brought them an undeserved reward. Mostovoi and Raúl (the best player of the night) scored the goals. The ref disallowed a goal by Salgado when the scoreboard was showing the 1-1 draw. This result does not benefit Madrid in their quest for the title, though we have to wait and see what happens tomorrow between Real Sociedad and Valencia.

THE MATCH:
REAL MADRID: Casillas; Mú€hel Salgado, Hierro, Helguera, Roberto Carlos; Flavio (Morientes, 46�E, Makelele, Figo, Zidane; Raúl y Ronaldo.
CELTA: Cavallero; Velasco, Cáceres, Juanfran, Silvinho; Luccin, Jos�EIgnacio, G. López (Jesuli, 58), Angel, Mostovoi (Wagner, 63�E; Edu (Catanha, 87).
GOALS:
0-1: (35�E Mostovoi, header, taking Madrid defence by surprise.
1-1: (68�E Raúl scores with a precise header.
REFEREE: Fernando Carmona Méndez. Yellow cards to Cáceres, Roberto Carlos, Hierro, Cavallero, Figo, Ángel, Juanfran and Wagner.
OTHER FACTS: Santiago Bernabéu Stadium. Liga Matchday 36. Rainy evening. Tickets sold out.

Photos: Ángel Martínez

"Angel in the Rain"

Verse1:

Sitting by myself
On this cold and stormy day
Thoughts of you on my head
Wondering if you'll come my way

You'd make the cold much warmer
The gray so colorful to see
Everything just seems so beautiful
When you are with me

Chorus:

You're my angel in the rain
You see me through darkness and through pain
And when the sun shines so bright and clear
Then I know you must be near
Somewhere here, Close to me
Somewhere here, Close to me

Verse2:

Sometimes I just wonder
When I'll next see your face
The touch of your hand on my shoulder
The comfort of your sweet embrace

And I know that day will come
Maybe when I need you best
You'll just suddenly be beside me
And you will be my rest

Bridge:

Oh I can be strong and stand tall
For you are with me through it all
And its just so plain to see
You're all I need
Right here, with me

"written and copyrighted to Sebastian".."inspired by the lady he calls his angel"

"The Battle of Italy's Finest"

Alessandro Del Piero and the Squad of Juventus F.C. will face Filippo Inzaghi and A.C. Milan on the 28th of May in the UEFA Champions league final thats going to be held in the famous Old Trafford in Manchester. Juventus FC's European record since their 1997/98 UEFA Champions League final defeat by Real Madrid CF has been below expectations. But since the 2001 return of Marcello Lippi, under who Juventus won the 1996 tournament and reached the next two finals, the 'Old Lady' has been in fine fettle. While AC Milan, only Real Madrid CF have won more European Champion Clubs' Cups than AC Milan - but even the holders have been outdone by the Rossoneri in this campaign.

This will be a match to be remembered! Be sure to watch it!

There is something definately wrong with my blogger! son of a bitch!!! so i guess i won't be blogging for awhile!! look at the entry before this.. i can't seem to edit it..
ain't that a bitch!!

Monday, May 26, 2003

"1-2:Ronaldo Hero over Valencia"



Ronaldo became the heroe of the evening on Valencia’s ground. His two targets made it possible for Real to clinch to the top of the table. The Brazilian striker has scored 26 goals so far this season, fulfilling his promise from last September. Del Bosque’s boys showed all their authority during the second half of the game. Hierro was a last-minute absence and Pavón had to take over from him. Guti was cautioned so he will be out of the next match against Celta, which tonight beat Deportivo dragging them away from the top positions. Real Madrid is temporarily at the top of the standings pending Real Sociedad’s result in Málaga.



The first half did not leave either side a second to breathe. Both of them played with the highest intensity, especially in the midfield, which provoked many turnovers and counterattacks. This is how Ronaldo’s first chance was brought about. Valencia faced up to the challenge trying hard to get past Flavio and Guti. Aimar stepped up with the support from his teammates Vicente and Fabio Aurelio. The Argentinean player made some dangerous moves between lines, especially when he got a link to Baraja.

The home crowd was not happy about the visitor’s clear authority on the pitch. The lethal stroke could happen any moment. The local side went a bit flat after all the effort they had made in the first half. Figo sent a long-range pass to Figo, who got around Cañizares to make it 1-2 (65’).

Guti, Zidane, Figo and Raúl took control of the game making it hard for the home side to get hold of the ball. Roberto Carlos had the chance to secure the win, but his shot went wide ten minutes from time. The local coach replaced Pellegrino with Mista and Cambiasso came on for Figo. The three points have put Real at the top of the standings pending Real Sociedad’s result. Celta will be the next meeting for the Whites.

THE MATCH
1 – VALENCIA: Cañizares; Pellegrino (Mista 83´), Djukic, Ayala, Carboni (Kily González 68´); Fabio Aurelio, Baraja, Marchena, Vicente (Rufete 59´); Aimar and Carew.
2 – REAL MADRID: Casillas; Míchel Salgado, Roberto Carlos, Pavón, Helguera; Flavio, Guti, Figo (Cambiasso 83´) y Zidane; Raúl (Solari 90´) and Ronaldo (Morientes 87´).
GOALS:
0-1, min. 25: Ronaldo, heads into the net from a centre shot by Figo.
1-1, min. 32: Fabio Aurelio, receives from Aimar and beats Casillas with a cross shot.
1-2, min. 65: Ronaldo gets Figo’s pass under control in an amazing way, dribbles Cañizares and scores nice and easy.
REFEREE: Pino Zamorano, Castilla-La Macha Referees Association. He cautioned Marchena (41´), Carboni (44´), Guti (62´), Ayala (80´)
OTHER FACTS: Liga Matchday 35. Mestalla Stadium, full. Real Madrid worn its third kit (purple) for a second time this season.

Photos: Ángel Martínez

"From Baguio and Back"

I arrived from Baguio just 10 minutes ago.. we left Baguio at around 3pm.. its now 12:45am. Ain't that a bitch! nine and a half hours on the fuckin' road.. doing nothing.. just contemplating on the thought that schools about to start in a week..

Anyways Baguio ain't that bad. its cold and has lots of fog. There is this place called "Ukay-Ukay" where used clothes from all over the states and God knows where are brought to be sold at very cheap prices. And when i say cheap, damn their cheap! you know what i mean! but anyway.. i didn't get anything from there.. i kinda wanted to go to Baguio not for that but for the place itself. The place is so nice and shit and you know, it would be nice to just stay there and relax and forget the stress down below the mountains. But i didn't get a chance to just stay in one place and be alone and just be in my own space because if we ain't doin anything there are just so much people around you. you feel me?! but its cool!.. overall the trip was cool..

"There is.."

this vacation ain't useless
these white pills aren't kind
i'm giving it a lot of thought on this coming 8-hour drive
i missed the grinding concrete where we sat past 1 and past somemore time
and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
i've given a lot of thought to the nights we used to have
the days have come and gone
our lives when but so fast
i faintly remember breathing on your living room floor
where we told stories and i sweared i loved you more

do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off pretend its all okay
that there someone out there who feels just like me
there is..

those notes i wrote you
i've kept them all
i'll give a lot of thought of how to write you back this june
with every single letter in every single word there
will be a hidden message about a boy that
loves a girl
do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off
pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is..

DDAY 22.05.03-Baguio City 24 hours in Counting

I won't be Blogging for three days because im going to Baguio tomorrow morning at around three. That's like a six hour drive from Manila. This is the first family outing were gonna be having so i really have to go, you know what i mean. hehehe.. ill post something before i leave.. and bring home some peanut brittle or something.. hehehe.. Peace out!!

Ronaldo wins two Laureus Sports Awards



Ronaldo has become the first sportman to win two Laureus Sports Awards in the same year. The Real Madrid player collected the accolade for the Comeback of the Year and, after that, on behalf of World Cup winners Brazil, he picked up a second Statuette for the Laureus World Team of the Year. At Monte Carlo Grimaldi Forum, the Megastar was accompanied by Emilio Butragueño and Spanish Sports Secretary Juan Antonio Gómez-Angulo. It is hard to find an adjective to describe the season the Brazilian player is experiencing after having won the Golden Ball, the FIFA World Player Award, the 2002 World Cup Golden Ball, the Intercontinental Cup (at which he was named as best player) and the ONZE d'Or

Ronaldo has been crowned in Monte Carlo. The Brazilian footballer has been the triumphant character of the 2003 Laureus Awards. After the ceremony, he will fly back to Madrid with two trophies in the bag. The first one is for the Comeback of the Year and the second one for the Team of the Year. He is sharing the latter with all his Brazil teammates, including Real Madrid player Roberto Carlos.

By vote, Real forward beat skiers Janica Kostelicand Hermann Maier, tennis player Pete Sampras and swimmer F. Van Almsikc. His impressive performance after having recovered from two serious injuries on his knee has earned him the accolade. Ronaldo succeeds tennis player Goran Ivanisevic in this award.

The audience at Monte Carlo Grimaldi Forum rose to their feet when the Megastar went up to the stage for a second time to collect the Team of the Year Award for Brazil. The Carnarinha stood ahead of Real Madrid, Canadian National Ice Hockey Team, the European Ryder Cup Team and Ferrari's Formula One Team.

Apart from the Real Madrid striker, there were more triumphant characters in Monaco. Lance Amstrong was designated as the Sportsman of the Year, Serena Williams the Sportswoman of the Year. NBA's Houston Rockets player Yao Ming was the Newcomer of the Year and the award for a lifetime achievement went to golfer Gary Player.

The only Spaniard that has been awarded is golf p`layer Sergio García when, in 2000, he won the Newcomer accolade. The jury of the awards has two Spanish members: Miguel Indurain and Severiano Ballesteros.

2003 AWARD WINNERS:
Comeback of the Year: Ronaldo
Sportsman of the Year: Lance Amstrong
Sportswoman of the Year: Serena Williams
Team of the Year: Selección de Brasil
Alternative Sportsperson: Dean Potter
Sportsperson with a Disability: Michael Milton
Newcomer of the Year: Yao Ming
Lifetime Achievement: Gary Player
Sports for Good Award: Arnold Schwarzenegger

Report: José L. Sánchez
Photos: Diario AS

"All For You"

Finally I figured out
But it took a long, long time
But now there's a turnabout
Maybe 'cause I'm trying

There's been times, I'm so confused
All my roads, They lead to you
I just can't turn and walk away

It's hard to say what it is I see in you
Wonder if I'll always be with you
But words can't say, And I can't do
Enough to prove,
It's all for you

I thought I'd seen it all
'Cause it's been a long, long time
But then we'll trip and fall
Wondering if I'm blind

Rain comes pouring down
Falling from blue skies
Words without a sound
Coming from your eyes

Finally I figured out
But it took a long, long time
But now there's a turnabout
Maybe cause I'm trying

"Surreal"

With my head above the water
I can breathe to stay alive
But I'll try a little harder
If you want me to survive

Won't somebody tell me?
How I got to this stage?
When consequence is inconsequential
And
Staring in the spotlight
Is better than real life

It's been surreal, how do you feel
When the seas part before your eyes
It's just so real how does it feel
When the stars that follow die

With my head above the water
I could drift along, beyond the tides
But I can try a little harder
If you help me to reach the other side.

It's been surreal, how do you feel
When the colors have left you blind
It's just so real how does it feel
To have left yourself behind

"5-1:Feel the White Magic Mállaga"



With some top-class football, authority and determination. From all the leading candidates to the Liga title, Real has stood out this matchday with a sort of ‘reflexive’ football, as some have called it. They got back to their old style amid the usual support from the stands, which were already full by kickoff. The applauds from the crowds resulted in the best possible reward for any football fan. Morientes (2), Raúl (2) and Roberto Carlos all got more targets to their names in a flawless game. Guti did a wonderful performance against the courage of the visiting side, who today happened to pay for the Turin defeat. The Liga could not get more exciting.

The game was already sorted out by the 18th minute of play. Three early attakcs by Morientes, Raúl and Roberto Carlos got the Bernabéu crowds more interested in listening to what was happening on Real Sociedad’s ground (they got a win today, which puts them on the top position). But the best news is that these three attacks were not one-off actions or moments of brilliant inspiration
Quite on the contrary, these actions were fruit of an overwhelming control of the midfield by the white players. A lot of their goal scoring-opportunities started off at the midfield. Over the first half of play, Raúl (twice) and Roberto Carlos enjoyed clear chances to make it a bigger win. The Whites remained in the possession of the ball most of the time. Guti was the main responsible player for this clear dominance with some spotless actions. Del Bosque’s boys kept reaching the opposing goal by playing the ball on the first kick.

Besides, Malaga showed a very generous attitude, playing and letting play, resulting in a very beautiful footbal show. The visiting coach (who has never managed to beat Madrid) remained loyal to his style, even when the score was most unfavourable for his side.

The visitors were playing with six footballers from the Real Madrid reserve teams, so tonight they displayed all the skills they have learnt during their training in the white club. They could have hit Madrid’s goal more times, but then, the home defenders did a great performance in blocking their area. We watched a duel between the most veteran forward and the youngest keeper of the Liga, with the result that Dely Valdés found it impossible to reach Casillas’ goal through the white defence.

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Real fans had not seen such a nice and easy second half for ages. The win seemed secured, so both sides preferred to play some nice football for the crowds to enjoy (there were also many Malaga fans on the stands). They both staged beautiful and showy actions every time they could. Morientes made the win bigger and Manu (the best visiting player without a doubt) score the goal of the honour. Raúl concluded the show with a great target following one of the many assists by Guti. Del Bosque gave a break to Zidane, Figo and Roberto Carlos in the final stretch of play. All three left the field amid the applause of the followers. There are other important fixtures in the schedule now that the final stretch of the Liga is round the corner. It will be a thrilling competition until the very last matchday.

THE MATCH:
5 - REAL MADRID: Casillas; Michel Salgado, Hierro, Helguera, Roberto Carlos (Cambiasso, 81’); Figo (McManaman, 75’), Flavio, Guti, Zidane (Solari, 65’); Raúl and Morientes.
1 - MÁLAGA: Contreras; Josemi, Sanz, Roteta, Valcarce (Iznata, 29’); Manu, Musampa (Leko, 72’), Miguel Angel, Gerardo, Sandro; and Dely Valdés (Canabal, 72’).
REFEREE: Puentes Leira, Galicia Referees Association. Yellow cards to Gerardo (37’), Iznata (45’), Manu (66’), Miguel Angel (76’).
GOALS:
1-0: Min. 4: Counterattacking interplay between Zidane and Figo, who passes to Morientes to beat the goalie with a cross shot.
2-0: Min. 15: Guti’s centre shot towards Raúl, who scores from the penalty spot.
3-0: Min. 18: Roberto Carlos makes the most of a clear in the area.
4-0: Min. 53: Morientes, following a perfect assist by Raúl.
4-1: Min. 63: Manu, right-footed from a pass by Sandro
. 5-1: Min. 82: Another great assist of Guti’s to Raúl, who tricks Roteta and beats Contreras.
OTHER FACTS: Santiago Bernabéu Stadium. Liga Matchday 34. Tickets sold out for the 16th time this season. Field of play in excellent conditions.

"One Drop"

Feel it in the one drop
And we'll still find time to rap
We're making the one stop
The generation gap
So feel this drum beat
As it beats within
Playing a rhythm resisting against the system
Ooh-we I know He'll never let us down
Pull your rights from wrong
I know He'll never let us down
Oh no! oh no! oh no!
They made the world so hard
Everyday we got to keep on fighting
They made the world so hard
Everyday the people are dying
From hunger and starvation, lamentation
But read it in Revelation
You'll find your redemption
And then you give us the teaching of His Majesty
For we no want no devil philosophy
Feel it on the one drop
And we still find time to rap
We're making the one stop
And we fill in the gap
So feel this drum beat
As it beats within, playing a rhythm
Fighting against ism and skism

"Waking up in a beautiful Dream..."



Its like waking up in a dream so wonderous that you just wished that you just die and live in that dream. And the feeling of waking up is so fucking depressing, because you wished and prayed and worked so much that if ever you have that dream, when you wake up its still there.. but no.. it ain't there and you know you worked your ass off to have that dream and its fades into nothing right in your face. And you have to work all over again in order to have that dream back and make it into a reality. You know what i mean.. and the Best part of this is you don't care if you wait a thousand years, work a million times better in order to get that back and make it a reality.. you understand what i mean?! depressing and desperate as i may sound, this is for real.. i guess this is my definition of love you know, i doesn't matter if you know the person that well or not, if you feel it, you feel it.. and when it happens, it happens. And when you don't know the person, well i guess when your inlove with the person and she feels the same way, the getting to know you part just comes with the territorry of being inlove even more.

"The White Magic did not Prevail in Delle Alpi"



The Whites will not be going back to Old Trafford in England to defend their UEFA Champins league title. Seems like Juventus had more of a championship form than the Whites. Right from kick off, the game started to give feelings very different from what we saw at Old Trafford. Ronaldo’s absence did not make the white attack as dangerous as usual. Compared to the first leg, today Davids and Tacchinardi carried the weight of their team’s play from the midfield, so they could let Nedved play as a third striker behind Del Piero and Trezeguet.



The worst happened when both squads were still settling on the field. Nedved received the ball from the right, Helguera did not make it to get in the way, Del Piero got around Michel and Trezeguet scored the first goal after beating Cambiasso.

The rest of the white charges (Zidane, Flavio, Figo...) did not give Buffon much trouble. In the meantime, Juventus withdrew to their ground until they could come up with a counterattack. It was Trezeguet who set if off first, though it all ended up in Casillas’ hands (34’). The game was going a bit flat. Juventus wanted to war and Madrid fell into this trap. In the 43rd minute Del Piero worked hard to find a gap and score the second goal. Old Trafford and Turin were getting near each other.

Real Madrid could do nothing to recover from this blow, though there still was some hope left until Nevded, who did fantastically all the time, received a long-range shot from Zambrota and put it past Casillas. It was a far too big punishmet for the Whites, who, despite all the setbacks, never gave up on the fight. Now it was tougher, but not impossible. In the 88th minute, Zidane, the best white player of the night, fired a left-footed shot that got in by the post. It was the only way to beat Buffon. There were two minutes left... plus five more minutes of additional time. Kill or die. Raúl pulled all his weapons but missed it in the 94th minute. The tenth cup will have to wait. I guess we just have to retire and concentrate on La Liga and Get back our first place position.

THE MATCH:
3 - JUVENTUS: Buffon; Tacchinardi, Montero, Birindelli (Pessotto 60´), Thuram; Tudor, Nedved, Zambrotta, Davids (Conte 89´), Zambrotta; Del Piero and Trezeguet (Camoranesi 75´).
1 - REAL MADRID: Casillas; Salgado, Roberto Carlos, Hierro, Helguera; Cambiasso (McManaman 75´), Flavio (Ronaldo 52´), Zidane, Figo; Raúl and Guti.
GOALS:
1-0, min. 11: Trezeguet beats Cambiasso and, once inside the goal atrea, beats Casillas.
2-0, min. 42: Del Piero, hard shot from the left corner of the area.
3-0, min. 73: Nedved beats Casillas from the edge of the area.
3-1, min. 88: Zidane, left-footed cross shot.
REFEREE: Urs Meier, Switzerland. He cautioned Flavio (22´), Montero (57´), Salgado (57´), Tacchinardi (63´), Hierro (74´), Nedved (80´), Figo (85´).
OTHER FACTS: Second Leg of Champions League semifinal. Delle Alpi Stadium, 60253 spectators. Juventus has qualified for the Final next May 28th against AC Milan at Old Trafford.

"To My Hero"
(For My Mother)

To the Lady whom i owe my existence,
Myself, My live and My well being,
To Whom i give my unconditional love to,
My Hero, Thank you for everthing..

To the Lady who was always there,
who took care of me,
when my asthma was killing me,
My Hero, Don't worry you are appreciated

To My Mother, whom i love so much,
This is your day, so take a bow
and be merry, we all love you!
Happy Mother's Day!!

"Heaven Ain't Hard to Find.. All You Got to do is Look.."

Summertime in the A.A.V.
(Mon's version of summertime in the LBC)

Yeah, This is MC-Mon from the Tha Shack Gettin those here out
kickin it at Cuenca Park wit all the homies Heh, and you know what I'm sayin?
So why don't you uh check out my homie Coy,Bri and JP..

I ride wit the I slide wit the Loccs and doggs from the A.A.V
I know Keen's wanna kick it wit me Cuz I run wit Siegmund G
Braid your weaves bustaz and G's Water balloon fighters
Low riders, and east siders
All come around
To hear the Tha Shack's G Funk sound
All come around
To kick it in my town Yeah
Let me hear you say oohhhhh ahhhhh
Summertime in The A.A.V.

Two months of pleasure
How can I measure The relaxation All the fun I'm facin My homies got green
That's them For show 'do Hit the sto' 'do So I can get a 40
My lil' cousin rushin to the park too much Standin in line tah get a free lunch
Why do we do what we do when we do what we do Hangin out late wit no curfew..

I'm smuthareen ribs wit barbacue sauce
Fools get tossed if they reach across my barbacue grill So continue tah chill
At Tha Shack in the A.A.V. That's where ya'll find me
Hangin wit my homies and my friends We got the coke in hand
We got Vic, Hatch and the Prim, We got Siegmund G and the C-Y-G.
All come around Tah hear tha Shack's G Funk sound

your shit.


What swear word are you?
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"Fool to Think"

Look at me dreaming of you ,all I could hope is to have you, to have you walking with me, laughing so in love, we two, almost drunkenly
I did imbibe of this, fantasy of you and me.Was I a fool to think? the way you looked at me, I swear you did but you looked away too quick, was I a fool, was I a fool to think that you would take me, as if I was yours? was I a fool to think at all?

I've haven't grown tired of love,You're not the trouble with me, I watch you walk right by, I smile, you do not notice me, Treat me recklessly, all you do is toss my pockets out, But the silence in me is screaming,Will you come and get me? Will you ever come and get me? or am i a fool to be thinking?

I'd dance a thousand steps for you, If you say yes to me..I'll be whatever gets you through

Float away here with me
An evening just wait and see
But tomorrow go back to your world
I'm back to my world
And we're back to being friends
Wait and see me,
Tonight let's do this thing
All we are is wasting hours until the sun comes up it's all ours
On our way here
Tomorrow we go back to being friends..

Lately I've been feeling low
A remedy is what I'm seeking
I take a taste of what's below
Come away to something better
What I want is what I've not got
What I need,
Is around me
Reaching, searching never stop
And I'll say...

If you could keep me floating
Just for a while
Till I get to the end of this tunnel,
If you could keep me floating
Just for a while
I'll get back to you

"English Premiership Champions 2002/2003"

Congratulations to all Manchester United Fans!! They are the English Premier League Champions.. they lead Arsenal by 8 points in the Premier League standings. I can Actually feel Fergies delight! Their next game is against Everton in five days.. but who gives a shit!! they're already the champions!! Too bad they can't do this in the UEFA champions league. Too bad they had to face the Whites hehehe better luck next year!!

"Mallorca Seizes Santiago Bernabéu once more"



5-1:The Whites lost against R.C.D. Mallorca in their home pitch at Santiago Bernabéu. The last time the Whites lost a La Liga game at home was exactly five months and two years ago on November 1st, 2000. That time, their opponent was R.C.D. Mallorca, very same as today's. The visiting squad stopped Ronaldo's celebration by doing a spectacular and unexpected second half. They managed to change the direction of the wind by scoring 5 times after Ronaldo's goal. One including Roberto Carlos' shot deflection on Novo which sends the ball flying to the goal. The Whites leadership in the La Liga is not threatend by Deportivo and Real Sociedad its just that the Lead has been cut short.

THE MATCH:
REAL MADRID, 1: Casillas; Míchel Salgado, Hierro, Helguera, Roberto Carlos; Makelele, Guti (Morientes, m.65); Figo, Zidane, McManaman (Solari, m.53); and Ronaldo (Portillo, m.78).
MALLORCA, 5: Leo Franco; Cortés (Campano, m.80), Niño, Lussenhoff, Poli; Novo, Marcos, Ibagaza, Riera; Eto'o (Carlos, m.91) and Pandiani (Biagini, m.85).
GOALS:
1-0. Min. 9. Ronaldo, in the middle of the area, gets a pass from McManaman and scores.
1-1. Min. 47. Pandiani from the edge of the goal area.
1-2. Min 51. Riera finishes off an amazing counterattack led by Eto’o.
1-3. Min. 62. Eto'o dribbles past Roberto Carlos and beats Casillas with a shot cross.
1-4. Min. 68. Roberto Carlos deflects Novo’s shot with the tip of his foot and the balls gets into his own goal.
1-5. Min. 91. Carlos finishes off another counterattack.
REFEREE: Alexis Manuel Pérez Pérez (Canary Islands). Yellow cards to: Hierro (min. 29), Niño (min. 32), Riera (min. 34), Novo (min. 37), Makelele (min. 40), Ibagaza (46).
OTHER FACTS: Liga Matchday 32, Santiago Bernabéu Stadium, 64.329 spectators. Takings: 402.155 €.

Damn,was it some thing i said? pretend you don't see so you turn your head.. The Question is,are you ready for the real revolution? which is the evolution of the mind? if you just seek and you shall find, that we all come from the divine, now if you take heed to the words of wisdom that comes written from the walls of the light then universally we will stand and divided we will fall because love conquers all, you know what im sayin'? now this is a call for all you sleeping souls,wake up and take control of your own cypher,look out for the spirits knife thats trying to take control of your life? you know what im sayin'?!

I Cross my fingers everytime you speak..

I got my fingers crossed everytime you speak..
the feelings i share are my extremes,
and at those times, you don't even breathe,
say a word,
or even blink,
but believe me everytime you get to,
I got my fingers crossed even before you do.

"Crash Into Me"

You've got your ball
you've got your chain
tied to me tight tie me up again
who's got their claws
in you my friend
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
and sweet you roll
Lost for you I'm so lost for you

You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

If I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
to forgive me
in my haste
When I'm holding you so girl
close to me

Oh and you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show your world to me
In a boys dream.. In a boys dream

Oh I watch you there
through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing but you
wear it so well
tied up and twisted
the way I'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash
into me

"Just Like Water..You are"

Moving down the streams of my lifetime
Pulls the fascination in my sleeve
Cooling off the fire of my longing
Boiling off my cold within her heat
Melting down the walls of inhibition
Evaporating all of my fears
Baptizing me into complete submission
Dissolving my condition with his tears

Coursing through my senses, he's prevailing
Floating through the space of my design
Drowning me to find my inside sailing
Drinking in the mainstream of her mind
Filling up the cup of my emotions
Spilling over into all I do
If I only I could get lost in his ocean
Surviving on the thought of loving you

Bathing in the fountain of her essence
she causes my expression to remain
Humbled on a mountain by hes presence
Never washing my intentions with her name
Sealing off the floodgates of her passions
Saving all his liquid for her own
Moisturizing me to satisfaction
In my imagination? No no!
She's pouring out her soul to me for hours and hours
Drawing out my nature with her hands
Yearning I'm so thirsty for her love
Burning to be worthy of her hands

She's just like the water,I ain't felt this way in years

Manchester United Rocked by Ronaldo

4-3: Ronaldo puts Madrid into semifinals to face Juventus, but that match is only future. Now we have just enjoyed one of the best games in recent years. A one-to-one duel was staged tonight with two giants on the spotlight. Above all that, tonight the most outstanding figure on the pitch earned all the glory and worship of the Real Madrid family. Ronaldo’s three goals turned the showdown all white (maybe black on this occasion). It was a showdown full of passion, intensity and good football thanks to the great footballers on the field and, of course, the goals. Old Trafford began to shout “We want six!!! That finally was one goal short because we saw seven targets tonight. And Ronaldo’s three had more weight than Manchester’s four. Hello, Juve!

THE MATCH:
2 - MANCHESTER UNITED: Barthez; Silvestre (Phil Neville, 78’), Ferdinand, Brown, O’Shea; Butt, Keane (Fortune, 81’), Verón (Beckham, 62’); Solskjaer, Giggs and Van Nistelrooy.
3 - REAL MADRID: Casillas; Míchel Salgado, Hierro, Helguera, Roberto Carlos; Makelele, McManaman (Portillo, 68’); Figo (Pavón, 87’), Zidane, Guti; Ronaldo (Solari, 66’).
GOALS:
0-1 (11’): Ronaldo rounds off an excellent long-range assist from Guti.
1-1 (42’): Van Nistelrooy shoots near the goal line from a pass by Solskjaer.
1-2 (51’): Ronaldo scores without much difficulty following an interplay by Zidane and Roberto Carlos.
2-2 (52’): Helguera kicks the ball but Casillas mistook it following a bad shot by Verón.
2-3 (59’): Ronaldo, fantastic right-footed missile from 25 metres off.
3-3 (70’): Beckham from a free kick.
4-3 (85’): Beckham shoots, hits Hierro, and the ball slips into Casillas’ goal.
REFEREE: Pierluigi Collina (ITA). Yellow cards to Verón (17’), Figo (71’) and Fortune (+93’).
OTHER FACTS: 2002/03 Champions League quarterfinals, second leg. Old Trafford, 72.000 spectators. Real Madrid will play Juventus at the semifinals.

Somwhere In The Middle

I Was In school the other Hour
And I saw you in our Cubicle
and I was waving as you were sitting,
You had thins look of an Angel,
In a very bad disguise,
Did You think for a second i wouldn't Realize?

I was home the other night,
i saw you in the internet,
it was late and i was lonely,
so i asked if you could call you,
for a talk that i know will last the night,
so spoke and brought you my message,
for a second i din't hear i sigh,
you had this voice like of an angel,
it was such a bad disguise,
did you think for a second i wouldn't realize?

tripping hard falling down onto the ground
cause I can't stand up
and I can't fall down
and I'm somewhere in the middle of this

well I find it hard
I always tried to find the sane life
but I don't like the way things are
and I keep falling to my knees
somewhere in the middle of this

somewhere in the middle of love..

DDAY 18.04.03

Another Day, Another Step to life as we know it.. its like damn dude, life is a bitch. I didn't actually get what i wanted and damn thats frustrating bro. The thing that wanted was the thing that i have been praying for all these years. And when i actually found it, it wasn't ready for me yet. Oh well Shit happens.. but it doesn't mean i will stop fighting...

For You (#41)

Come and see
I swear by now I'm playing time
I against my troubles
I'm coming slow but speeding
Do you wish a dance and while I'm
in the front
the play on time is won
but the difficulty is coming here

I will go in this way
And find my own way out
I wont tell you to stay
But I'm coming to much more
Me
All at once the ghosts come back
Reeling in you now
What if they came down crushing
Remember when I used to play for
all of the loneliness that nobody
notice now
I'm begging slow I'm coming here
Only waiting I wanted to stay
I wanted to play
I wanted to love you

I'm only this far
And only tomorrow leads my way

I'm coming waltzing back and moving into your head
Please, I wouldn't pass this by
I would take any more than
What sort of man goes by
I will bring water
Why wont you ever be glad
It melts into wonder
I came in praying for you
why wont you run
in the rain and play
let the tears splash all over you

"Echo"

There’s something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you’re so worth the fight

My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
Strange how it turns out that way, yeah
Could you show me dear?
Something I've not seen.
Something infinitely interesting
Could you show me dear?
Something I've not seen.
Something infinitely interesting

There’s something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something someone contrives
Your movements echo that I've seen the real thing.

I wish this could have been for you..

Love me, not as the dreaming nurses
my falling lungs, nor as the cypress
in his age the lass's clay.
love me and lift your mask

Love me, not as he girls in heaven
their airy lovers, nor the mermaiden
her salty lovers in the sea.
love me and lift your mask

Love me, not as the ruffling pigeon
the tops of trees, nor as the legion
of gulls the lip of waves
love me and lift your mask.

Love me, as loves the mole his darkness
and the timid deer the tigress:
hate and fear by your two loves
love me and lift your mask

ONE FINE DAY!

I over slept, my bag got stolen inside my friends van. i fuckin slipped and fell face first in the bathroom. i played ball and had a really idiotic game. and finally i just figured out my life was with my stolen bag.. my journal was in my fuckin bag.. the journal where all of my poems that aint published here are written. my most priced possesion (my discman is and large ass earphones is a second next to it and it was stolen too along with all my Bob Marley CD's). How can this day get any better?

To the person who fuckin stole my bag.. God Bless you! AND I HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL BITCH!!!alsoI HOPE SATAN PUTS A STAKE THROUGH YOU ASS AND HANGS YOU BACKWARDS! CUT OFF YOUR BALLS AND FEED IT TO YOU! YOU HEARD ME? FUCK Y'ALL DOIN'! DON'T NEVER RETURN THE SHIT YOU STOLE FROM ME ANYMORE! KUZ IF YOU DO AND I SEE YOU! BELIEVE ME IMONA KILL YOU SON OF A BITCH! IMONA MAKE SURE THAT YOU GONNA BE IN HELL AS SOON AS POSSIBLE! BITCH!

Strike Two

Somedays I just wanna up and call the quits, I feel like I'm surrounded by a wall of bricks, Everytime I go to get up I just fall in pits.My life's like one great big ball of shit! If I could, just put it all onto what I spit Instead of always tryina swallow it Instead of starin' at this wall and shit.While I sit writin' this plot, sick of all this shit! Bitch, i keep on sayin Shit! All I know is I'm about to hit the wall If I ever have to give up with this Chick, Bitch!

This is it last straw That's all, That's it I ain't dealin' with another fuckin' politic I'm like a skillet bubblin', until it filters up I'm about to kill it, I can fill it buildin' up Blow this buliding up, I've been sealed enough My cup, When its over I'da filled it up Then it explodes, and spills my guts You think all I do is stand here and feel my nuts.

Well.. Imma show you what, You gon' feel my rush If you don't feel it, then it must be too real to touch Build the dutch, Im about to tear shit up Goosebumps, Yea Imma make your hair sit up, Yea sit up Imma tell you who I be, Imma make you hate me, Cuz you ain't me You ate, it ain't too late for you to finally see What you close-minded Fucks, What you Blind to see Whoever finds me is gonna get a finders fee Out this world, they no it ain't a mind to me You need piece of mind? Here's a piece of mine All I need's a line, Sometimes I don't always find the words to rhyme To express how I'm really feeling at that time, Yes Sometimes,but That sometimes is always me How dark can these hallways be The clock strikes midnight 1, 2, then half passed 3 This half-ass rhyme, with this half-ass piece of paper I'm desperate in my task If I could just get the rest of this shit off my chest, Again Stuck in this slump, Can't think of nothing Fuck, I'm stumped, Oh Wait Here comes something, No! Its not good enough, scribble it out New pad, crinkle it up, and throw the shit out I'm fizzling out, thought I figured it out Balls in my court but I'm scared to dribble it out I'm afraid, but why am I afraid? Why am I a slave To this Tray? Sign not to spit to the grave Real enough to route you up, Want me to flip it? I can rip it any style you want. Fuck it!

"Lover Lay Down"

Spring sweet rhythm dance in my head
Slip into my lover's hands
Kiss me won't you kiss me now
And sleep I would inside your mouth
Don't be us too shy
For knowing it's no big surprise that
I will wait for you
I will wait for no one but you

Oh please lover lay down
Spend this time with me
Together share this smile
Lover lay down
Spend this time with me
Walk with me, walk with you
Hold my hand your hands
So much we have dreamed
And you were so much younger
Hard to explain that we are stronger
A million reasons life to deny
Let's toss them away
See you and me we
Lay down look see
She and he
By my lover's side
Together share this smile
Each other's tears to cry
Together share this smile
Lover lay down
Oh please oh please
Oh please lover lay down
And you weep
Lover lay down
Cause it's over
Lover lay down

Say love, say love, say love, say love, say love
Should I love you
Could you love me
Darling it's all the same
'Til we dance away
Chasing me all around
Leading me all around
Leading me all around in circles
Say...

Nice song.. a very nice song..

Something in between of what's awake and still dreaming

Something in between of whats real and just a dream.. when your not sure if your sleeping or your awake. When reality feels as if its not. The feeling of happiness, until you realize that you are still awake and your just dreaming. The feeling of having it but not.

Sometimes.. when you feel this shit, and your enjoying it.. its really frustrating when you realize that it ain't real and you really wished it was..

Things I Love and the Things I Hate

Love:2Pac's music crawling from my ears through my brain,
Hate:Boybands and their pathetic Music
Love:Having a beer with my friend while talking about Life
Hate:Sitting alone outside thinking about life
Love:Giligan's Island and the Church People
Hate:The Motherfuckin' Doggy's in the Village
Love:The Black Starry Night in Cuenca Field
Hate:My Room when its bed time.. I have Insomia
Love:My Family when they are all in a good mood
Hate:My Family when they act like Bitches
Love:Brain Numbing Tequilla and Vodka straight up
Hate:The Hang Over Tomorrow
Love:Cute Petite Girls with Palm Pilots
Hate:Selfish Bitches who act like your world revolves around them
Love:this cute girl with a palm pilot and her smile
Love:this cute girl with ma palm pilot and the way she mingles with it.
Love:this cute girl with a palm pilot.. for some reason.. i dunno why

Just Wake Me Up

Tell Me When im Free,
Free from depression and Hate,
Free from Tangled Emotions and Depression,
From Nonchalant words i don't mean.

Tell Me When im Free,
From mindless thoughts,
And Raging Pain from Within,
For I Can't Bear this Anymore.

Tell Me when im Free,
For i have to stop falling,
From this Feelings of Anxiety,
And start climbing back to Captivity.

So Wake me up when im Free,
For this so called heart is not dormant,
and still beating, beating away,
on its useless existence.

DDay 06.02.03

The Unexpected:

While i was on the brink of accepting what i have and not wanting anymore, unexpectedly my eyes landed on someone who i wanted for almost 2 years (You know this Vic). And at that moment my willingness to accept were gone and my feelings of wanting came back (well maybe for just 3 minutes), because his boyfriend came. depressing ain't it? I wasTelling the Lord "Hey Man.. You didn't have to rub it in". But you know what this maybe a sign or something.. i dunno.. ill keep you updated.. Peace out!!

I am just here

Here i sit talking to you, giving you hints
yet, you are just there smiling, and talking back,
not noticing anything, are you that ignorant?
and i am just here.

I see you in halls and as i give you my nicest greeting,
you reply with a smile, yet you still don't notice it.
and i just shake my head sayin' how could this be?
and im just here.

I saw you awhile ago, and gave you no attention,
yet you give me yours, i gave you my best smile,
and yet you still dont't get it, how could this be?
and i guess i am still here.

you were just there

At my first glance, i treated you as nothing
an eye candy, just someone to make me smile,
to complete my day and just someone to converse with,
and you were just there.

At my second glance, i sensed something different,
you were more than just an eye candy and more than just a friend,
but i took it forgranted, and acted as if it was nothing,
and you were just there

At my third glance, my feeling were already different,
i didn't just want to be your friend, i wanted something else,
but its too late.. you are already taken.. and still
you are just there.

Music is your Pain

Music is yor pain,
for when its played,
ithits you where it hurts,
your heart.

Music is your pain,
where pain is re-lived
remembered, and in your mind,
and it hurts so bad.

Music is your pain,
where messages are hidden,
but it is decoded by your soul,
and it hits you where it hurts the most,
your heart.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to all y'all. Hope Y'all have a very good year. I have evaluated my 2002 and it wazn't pretty. Anyways hope i have a good year ahead of me.. even though im having a rough start as of now. To those people who made 2002 a memorable year for me (you know who you are..) I'd like to give y'all my deepest thanks and to all those people who fucked up my year (You know who you bitchez are!!) Fuck you all!! hope you guys burn in hell...

One of my friends told me something about a certain somebody that made me fall down my knees and just be helpless. Its so ironic my side that this shit happens. you know this Vic. anyways.. Fuck it..