Now a days, it seems like blogging a preveledge and not anymore a daily thang. Sucks really but hey, nothing fanatical has been happening these past few weeks anyway. So.. It's the first term, the sched is eleven to five every day with a not very tantalizing 3 hour break every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and a very very long and tormenting 4 hour break every Tuesdays and Thursdays. So far, i've been trying to cope up with this twisted schedule and as far as i know, it can be interesting sometimes. There are people there of course, really nice people. But most of the time, i'd be plugged up in my CD walkman like i always do, and basically just take a trip to "The Land of Neverending Beats" and just waste the long break away.. With schedules like these, it's just hard not to skip class.. sheesh! Moreover, after five years in college, it's the first time i joined a credited carpool with majority of the members being freshmen. Now, everytime i ride, or drive for them, i can't help but feel like a big brother (not good! not good at all!). Why join just now?! it's because the price of gasoline just won't stop climbing! Crazy Crazy Crazy! Dios Mio! I'm actually just waiting for our country to have an Economic Recession and hope that we get adopted the freakin' United States or Mexico or something so that there will be hope on everything being aight! For now that's all.. hmm.. i know i'm forgetting something, i'll just try and blog again tomorrow.. PEACE OUT!

Sounds from the Land of a Million Beats
- Dave Matthews Band
- 30 Seconds to Mars
- The Smoke City
- 2Pac
- The Notorious BIG
- Warren G and the G'Funk Family
- Counting Crows
- Coldplay
- Our Lady Peace
- The Used

Blogged... Again..

Seems like, eversince last month there has been a two week gap inbetween my entries. Anyways, i feel like shit. I have Cough due colds and it's getting worse. I skipped class today because of this and i just feel like it's not right, since this the very first time i skipped. Anyway, i hope the sun shines tomorrow.. fuck.. i'm beat..

Blogged..

And so summer's over, Yet, i still can't imagine that i only had just a weeks worth of break.. that's just too Dismal. Anyways, it's already the third week of school and now i just realize how miserable my schedule is. Imagine 11 am - 6pm everyday, for the next 3 months or so. That's not the best part, the best part is, every Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays i have a 3 hour break.. thankfully i have my good friend Chase to keep me from turning into a complete psychopath. Tuesdays and Thursdays though, i'll be spending my 4 hour break with my lonesome.. Shit.. To Be continued... Peace! Blog tomrrow..

Todays and yesterday's Soundtrack:
DAVE MATTHEWS BAND - STAND UP!!

Aunt Nelly.. Rest in Peace.. We'll Miss you..

Dosed

I got dosed by you and,Closer than most to you and,What am I supposed to do,Take it away,I never had it anyway,Take it away,And everything will be okay...In you a star is born and,You cut a perfect form and,Someone forever warm,Lay on, lay on, lay on, lay on..

Way upon the mountain where she died,
All I ever wanted was your life,
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide,
All I ever wanted was your life...

Show love with no remorse and,
Climb on to your seahorse and,
This ride is right on course,
This is the way,
I wanted it to be with you,
This is the way,
I knew that it would be with you,
Lay on, lay on, lay on, lay on,

Way upon the mountain where she died,
All I ever wanted was your life,
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide,
All I ever wanted was your life...

Show love with no remorse and,
Climb on to your seahorse and,
This ride is right on course,
This is the way,
I wanted it to be with you,
This is the way,
I knew that it would be with you,
Lay on, lay on, lay on, lay on,

Way upon the mountain where she died,
All I ever wanted was your life,
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide,
All I ever wanted was your life...

I got dosed by you and,
Closer than most to you and,
What am I supposed to do,
Take it away,
I never had it anyway,
Take it away,
And everything will be okay...

Way upon the mountain where she died,
All I ever wanted was your life,
Deep inside the canyon I can't hide,
All I ever wanted was your life...

Up and Away (To Last term..)

Everyday, everyday with youEvery little thing you do, the way you do, Little darlin' in your eyes, Got me all up and away, You get me high, I saw you there, since then everyday, It's like I'm lost and thinking of you in every way, Since I fell into your eyes,All I know is that you get me high, You get me high..
And then you walk the way you walk, You blow my mind to know the way, you walk in my way, Then I fall into your eyesUp, up and away, the way you rise, Oh, lovely,The way you make me high,
Cause when I'm thinking of you,When I'm flying above the world,How I wish I was drowning in you, I must admit that I'm oh so into you, you know?! Please don't ever let me go..You've done nothing to me but up, up and away you go, All up and away,You take me..Before you came you know I didn't care It's just the game I play All up and away Oh, all up and away You take me baby.l.

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WOW! How ORIGinAL!

First was the Cube Libre sessions withg JP, Cocoy and Mark's friends, where by the way, i was just tripping Coy with the honey and the sugar in the Mix.. And then goes another session with the Herrera's and the other friends.. so.. here's what i came up with..

These are things I feel but dont want to say, incase you feel that way, these are things I know but dont want to say, incase you feel that way, I'll wait another day, I can never change, cause the pain just makes me want to stare, at the same things I saw before, thinking there's something more, God it's a lonely place.. I will never know, how you feel about the things I think about. Will I get a chance to make up to you? The things I kept from you, you know I wanted to. I can never change the pain just makes me want to stare, at the same things I saw before, thinking that something's wrong. God it's a lonely place. Say the same things you said before, wanting you even more God it's a lonely place!

And it's all in how you mix the two, And it starts just where the light exists. It's a feeling that you cannot miss, And it burns a hole, through everyone that feels it. Well, your never gonna find it, If your looking for it. Won't come your way, Well you'll never find it, if your looking for it. Should've done something, but I've done it enough. By the way, your hands were shaking, rather waste some time with you. And you never would have thought in the end, how amazing it feels just to live again, It's a feeling that you cannot miss, it burns a hole, through everyone that feels it. I walked around my good intentions and found that there were alot. I blamed my father for the wasted years, we hardly talked. I never thought I would forget this hate, then a phone call made me realise: I'm wrong and if i dont make it known that, I've loved you all along, just like sunny days that we all ignore because were all dumb and jaded. and I hope to God I figure out whats wrong. I walked around my room, not thinking - sinkin in this box. I blame myself for being too much like somebody else. I never thought i would just bend ths way, then a phone call made me realise I'm wrong. And I hope to God I figure out whats wrong..

Spanish Title lost to Sevilla!!



Score:
2 - 2

What i think is Madrid's mistake is when Vanderlei Luxemburgo took Owen out and replaced him with Figo.. nothing more.. Sheeesh!! Next year, the Title is coming back to Madrid!

Grace is Gone.. (DMB)

Neon shines through smoky eyes tonight
It’s 2 AM, I’m drunk again
It’s heavy on my mind...

I could never like again
So much as I like you
Where you end where I begin
Is like a river flowing through..

Take my heart, take my eyes
'Cause I'll need them no more
If never again they’ll fall upon
The one I so adore..

'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong
'cause I don’t need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I’ll move on..

One drink to remember, and another to forget
How could I ever dream to find a love like this again
One drink to remember, and another to forget...

'Scuse me please, one more drink
Could you make it strong
'Cause I don’t need to think
She broke my heart
My Grace is Gone
Another drink and I’ll go...
One more drink my grace is gone..

I took this "Does your Blog own You" test last October 7, 2003 and came up with this result..

12.5 %

I took the test again and this is what came out..

18.75 %

I guess my blog own's me more now, i got something to say but it's 3 a.m.
i'll just tell you guys tomorrow..

Happy Birthday..

Today's Soundtrack:

Travis - The Last Laugh of the Laughter, Writing to Reach You

Flogging Molly - The Wanderlust

Cynthia Alexander - Comfort in Your Strangeness

Bizzy Bone - Nobody Can Stop Me, Thugz Cry

Incubus - Aqueous Transmission, Vitamin

A Conversation with An Excessively Happy Monotone

Conversation 1:
Person A: How do you do it?
Person B: Do what?
Person A: How do you manage to keep that smile while there's so much shit around you?
Person B: Well.. maybe i'm just good at smiling eventhough my world's already wrong side up.
Person A: With this shit that just happened to you?! i wouldn't blame you if you'd break down right infront of me.
Person B: Maybe i'm just good in keeping my views and my poignantness intact, that's why you don't see me distressed all the time. You know what i mean?! Maybe, i'm just so good at it that, you just won't see it at all. Maybe not unless i speak of it..
Person A: Oh...
Person B: Yeah.. Oh... (*Then Lights a Cigarette.. and looks up in the cloudy sky..*)
Person B: What a drag, there ain't no stars..

Conversation 2
Person C: This sucks..
Person B: Which one?
Person C: This year i mean..
Person B: What makes you say that?
Person C: Nothing great has happened to these past few months..
Person B: Well, you still got 6 months to go, before you can honestly say that this year did suck..
Person C: Yeah, your probably right..
Person B: Yeah.. probably.. good luck though
Person C: Yeah, Luck.. *sigh*
Person B: Maybe next year is "THE YEAR"...
Person B: or maybe it was "Last Year"...?
Person C: Probably last year..
Person B: Yeah, probably..

The Soundtrack:
Travis - The Last Laugh of the Laughter, Writing to Reach You
30 Seconds to Mars - Oblivion, Fallen, The Mission

The Bianconer over the Rossoneri in the Battle for the Scudetto, 5 nil for the Whites and a Halloween



Alessandro Del Piero and David Trezeguet made sure of a 1 - 0 victory against A.C. Milan in The San Siro, with only three match days remaining in the league season and the Scudetto at stake. The Bianconeri's won dominated the crucial match of the year with a great marking and a lot of scoring chances, like the crossbar hit by Del Piero and a lot more from Pavel Nedved. Now, three days away from the end, the Bianconeri are 3 points clear off The Rossoneri and a little more to their 28th Scudetto.

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A night of goals and history for Ronaldo, Raul and Michael Owen while making sure of their 7th consecutive league win and while putting pressure on Barcelona. With a 1-0 lead against Racing, Michael Owen scored the number 2,500 goal in the League for Real Madrid. On the other hand, Raúl and Ronaldo beat their personal records in the Championship. The Brazilian player went over 100 goals while the the player from Madrid reached the 250 goals in the different competitions.

GOALS:
1-0 28th: Owen after a perfect triangle line-up with Raúl and Ronaldo.
2-0 35th: Ronaldo scored a penalty that he provoked.
3-0 53th: Raúl after taking advantage a rebound from the goalkeeper Aouate.
4-0 71th: Raúl with a crossed shot after a pass from Owen. 5-0. Minute 92. Ronaldo after dribbling Aouate.

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Todays' Quote: How come this rhythm never quits, bags packed on a plane?

*Puts on his earphone's, turns on his CD player.. and just stares up to the sky, watching new born nebula's bloom.. while asking the question Why?..*

On the CD Player..
Coldplay - The Scientist
Dave Matthews Band - Halloween, Grace is Gone
2Pac - Fuck Y'All
Incubus - Echo, Warning
Dishwalla - Opaline, All your thoughts on God, Somewhere in the Middle, Nashville Skyline
Frank Sinatra - Somewhere Beyond the Sea

Just a Breath of Freedom..

A couple of days ago, i ran into "The Rose that Grew from Concrete Vol.1" book lying in the floor back in Brian's room. I know that i have read that book from cover to cover more that a thousand times, but sometimes, i just feel like i have to read it again. I don't actually know why, but everytime i see that book, there's this feeling inside me that screams that i should read it again. Maybe because i just relate to some of the entries in the book in someways.. yeah.. i can honestly say that. But i think that everytime i read that book, i simply find "Just the Breath of Freedom" i need..

What Can I Offer Her?
All of my life I dreamed of meeting one
with immense beauty, and once I found her
I would charm her and she'd be mine forever

I have found her and indeed she is all
I wished for and more but she is
not charmed nor intrigued. Then I
think 2 myself "What can I offer her?"
The tears warm my eyes and blur my
vision. I stick 2 my stance of bravado
and give her the same uninterested look
she gave me. She was so beautiful
But what can I offer her.

By 2Pac Shakur

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I'm going into this not knowing what I'll find,
but I've decided to follow my heart and abandon my mind,
and if there be pain I know that at least I gave my all,
and it is better to have loved and lost than to not love at all
In the morning I may wake to smile or maybe to cry
but first to those of my past I must say goodbye..

Thugz Mansion, Lemery Batangas


Niggaz need a spot where WE can kick it, A spot where WE belong, that's just for us. Niggaz ain't gotta get all dressed up and be Hollywood, Know what i mean? Where do niggaz go when we die? Ain't no heaven for a thug nigga. That's why we go to thugs mansion That's the only place where thugs get in free and you gotta be a G.. at thugs mansion..


A place to spend my quiet nights, time to unwind, So much pressure in this life of mine. I cry at times, I once contemplated suicide, and woulda tried But when I held that 9, all I could see was my momma's eyes. No one knows my struggle, they only see the trouble Not knowin it's hard to carry on when no one loves you. Picture me inside the misery of poverty, no man alive has ever witnessed struggles I survived. Prayin hard for better days, promise to hold on, me and my dawgs ain't have a choice but to roll on. We found a family spot to kick it where we can drink liquor and no one bickers over trick shit. A spot where we can smoke in peace, and even though we G's we still visualize places, that we can roll in peace. And in my mind's eye I see this place, the players go in fast, I got a spot for us all, so we can ball, at thug's mansion..


Dear momma don't cry, your baby boy's doin good, Tell the homies I'm in heaven and they ain't got hoods. Seen a show with Marvin Gaye last night, it had me shook Drippin peppermint Schnapps, with Jackie Wilson, and Sam Cooke. Then some lady named Billie Holiday sang sittin there kickin it with Malcolm, 'til the day came. Little LaTasha sho' grown Tell the lady in the liquor that she's forgiven, so come home. Maybe in time you'll understand only God can save us, when Miles Davis cuttin lose with the band. Just think of all the people that you knew in the past that passed on, they in heaven, found peace at last. Picture a place that they exist, together There has to be a place better than this, in heaven. So right before I sleep, dear God, what I'm askin, wemember this face, save me a place, in thugs mansion..

You'd just have to see this place.. belive me.. (you know who you are)..

On today's note, i studied Business Math the whole day.. the whole day.. yes ladies and gentlemen, the whole day. On the peak of everyone else's summer break, yes i am studying Business Math.. F = P(1+j/m)^n P= F/(1+j/m)^n.. sad if you ask me.. Anyways, right after school tomorrow i'm heading straight to Victor's beach house, also known as "The Thugz Mansion".. we're still deciding whether to stay over night or two night, either way it's all good.. staying overnight in the Thugz Mansion is better than no overnight at all.. so everything is all Good! everybody happy...

Happiness gauge: 37% <-- a little more..
Composure Gauge: 10% <-- dangerous level!

Today's Soundtrack
Incubus - A Crow Left in the Murder

Live and Still Dreaming..

And so i thought i was doing just fine.. and so i thought, Believed, alleged, said, held and supposed.. Anyways, i thought after at least two weeks of no contact, i'd be just fine.. and like what i said "and so i thought". Anyways, after picking up Cocoy and Marla in the domestic airport we headed straight to Magallanes and straight to her house. At the outset i was "it's cool, it's cool.. i can handle the goddamn pressure", but when the moment arrived and when the girl arose from her white front door, all that saved up composure from two weeks just vanished. I didn't know what happened.. Maybe i was just in awe since i haven't seen and conversed with the girl in quite awhile. Anyway, at some point in during our quick stop in the girls place.. i had this subliminal feeling where someone was stabbing me unswervingly in my chest and saying "You were just too late, now wait your turn..". Thank God we didn't stay long.. because if we did, i might have just ran off or something.. i don't know.. HAY DIOS MIO!!.. CHE COSTA LA SCOPATA! CHE COSTA L'INFERNO?! QUALUNQUE! maybe this is just another one of them tests, you know.. the "HOW LONG CAN MON REALLY WAIT TEST".. i remember one of my friends saying "it's probably gonna be a long hard wait.." the long part i understand but i never expected it to be this hard.. damn.. Struggle to pare! anyways.. i'll just pray that this wait's gonna be worth it..

Today's Sountrack
Incubus - S.C.I.E.N.C.E. , Make Yourself, Morning View
Montefiori Cocktail - Raccolta Vol. 1
Morcheeba - The Big Calm
Mars Volta - De-Louse in the Comatorium
30 Seconds to Mars
- Capricorn
- Year Zero
- 93 Million Miles
- Echelon
Flogging Molly
- The Wanderlust
- Within a Mile Home
- The Spoken Wheel
- Drunken Lullabies
- Swagger
- Another Bag of Bricks

Beached in Playa Papagayo, Subic

Far far far from Boracay.. Believe me. I'm not even sure whether the sand is gray, brown or black.. definately not white. Anyways, the compensation for the dissapointing beach was the people whom I was with. They are the type of people whom you'd want to be with when you press the Panic Button and all that stuff. The type of people where you'd forget everything when you are with them. Simple people.. You know what i mean?! it's nice to be around people like them once in awhile, you know.. just to get your perspective straight and all that shit.. Anyways, i have a date tomorrow with the Learning Institution so i guess i'll post again some other time.. Peace!

The Pictures are to follow..

The Weekend Soundtrack
Postal Service - Such Great Heights (Eccentric Version)
Iron and Wine - Such Great Heights (Slow Version)
Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Mase - Harlem World
Maroon 5 - Songs About Jane
Norah Jones - Come Away with Me, Feels like Home
Smashing Pumpkins - Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness
Sugar Ray - 14:59
The Sounds - Living in America
Mars Volta - Francine: The Mute
Cafe Del Mar - Ocho, Siete, Nueve, Dreams 1
Dave Matthes Band - Folsom Field, Gorge, San Francisco, Central Park

PANIC BUTTON PRESSED!!
Destination: Playa Papagayo, Subic

In exactly 12 hours me and mi Familia are leaving for Playa Papagayo, Subic. I was wishing Palawan but it doesn't matter now does it? for as long as there is a shore and a nice sunset, it's all good.. Though i got class this summer, i don't matter, in know i need this beach trip.. and besides, what's two days?! i'll just make it up when i come back... Anyways, gotta start packing.. Till Sunday! Au Revior!

Angels East, Angels West, North and South just do your best, watch her tight while she rests..