Well.. Ok..

Left for work at around 5:00 a.m.

So today, i ventured into commuting to work for the first time. And frankly, this first timer ain't happy. I rode a Skyway bus that was headed for Makati in the Metropolis station at around 5:20 in the morning since, according to my Mother whom i love so much.. if i rode that bus, it would stop in a bus stop adjacent to my workplace.. Well that's according to her.. But according to the Metro Manila Development Authority or MMDA, that bus stop causes traffic, so to make the long story short.. They took that bus stop out and moved it somewhere farther. I went past that bus stop, walked back a few kilometers.. then headed for Ayala Avenue and rode a jeep where i thought they'd be turning right to Makati Avenue, And then went down the Ayala Strip to wait for non existent jeeps that pass through Makati Avenue for a good 20 minutes, and when i finally realized that there wasn't any jeeps passing that way, i just lit a stick and started walking the 3 kilometer stretch to my office.. Hay, i should have taken the car..

Got to the office at around 6:50 a.m.

The Bus Ride..

Before actually getting all stressed up in Makati, the bus ride from the terminal to the Central Business District was kind of nostalgic and somewhat nice. I remembered how it was getting up before the roosters started crowing for a 7am class to school and rushing to the station to get the first bus to Manila.. I still remember it, the Juaymah-Maureen bus with it's green and white stripes a logo of a weird elephant that's dancing. I still remember before, that when that bus hits the Skyway, i look at the lovely sunrise that's hitting the CBD of Makati and I start wondering.. "when" and after the toll, the bus goes past the first, second and third exits and heads straight for Manila and then Boom.. back to reality..

This morning i got the same feeling back but instead of a "when" it was a "now" with a nod. And instead of missing the exits, i went through the first one and it headed smack dab on the side of the CBD where the stress started. Actually, in a way it feels good, knowing that i already head there instead of heading for the last exit to Manila. Knowing that i'm already living that daydream of actually working in Makati. Eventhough i'm still kinda hoping that i'd be heading there in different circumstances, i'm already there nontheless.. so whatever.. i guess, i'll just make the best out of it.. or until i still can..

Anyway.. Tomorrow's another day..

PS.. Hey Bea.. i don't know why, but other than reminicing, i was really thinking about you the whole trip to work.. I dunno.. maybe i miss you.. or maybe I REALLY miss you.. or maybe we should talk reaally soon.. so here.. i got this off the "a softer world website" since it reminded me of..

Work.. (Week 1)

My Prayers have been answered..YES! i have a job already. Finally, my rents are off my back.. or so i thought. I'm not a chef in a hotel or in a restaurant though (but i'm currently working on that), I'm an F.O. in a Hotel smack dab in the middle of the RED LIGHT district in Makati. Nice noh?! According to my good friend Krizia "I have such a cool and glamorous job".. Ok.. sabi mo eh!

To tell you the truth, i'm thankful that my prayers of finally getting a decent job has been answered but this is not what i want to do.. and everyone knows that. On my first day last Monday, i wanted to quit already.. imagine what i'm feeling right now. The people in the workplace is nice don't get me wrong. I'm not being mistreated or whatsoever, it's just that for me, in order to be efficient in what you do, you got to love what you are doing. And frankly.. i don't like what i'm doing.. i'm actually in the verge of hating it since i don't like it so much..

Hay nako.. anyway..
From Tomorrow until next sunday i will be AWOL again from the youth and from the world.. hay...

I Can't Believe it's been a Year.. Happy Anniversary You Guys..

Our story still hasn't ended and it's still ours..

Happy Birthday.. That's all I can say as of now, i'd love to say some more but i'd rather not.. but still you know what i want to say. Since i got a new job i guess i won't be seeing you as much as before.. but believe me when i say i miss you already. And from how i see it.. i'll miss you even more tomorrow and then next week.. and more in the following weeks after that..

So I guess since we I got a crappy sched and you got a perfect one i guess I'll just see you soon hun, maybe we'll go walking or jogging the next time we both got the time or go to dinner.. have a good one.. Love yah.. :)

Part 1

Stop this train.. i have to get off..
It's going to fast and i don't want to jump off..
PLEASE STOP THIS TRAIN?!
The Conductor is a madman and,
He killed the Engineer with his thoughts..
CAN ANYONE STOP THIS TRAIN!!
I want to get off already..
It's going to fast and it's gonna hurt if i jump off..

Grey Street..

Look at how she listens,
She says nothing of what she thinks,
She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to grey street.
She thinks, "Hey, how did I come to this?"
I dream myself a thousand times around the world
But I can't get out of this place.
There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart

How she wishes it was different
She prays to God most every night
And though she swears he might not listen
There's still a hope in her he might
She says "I pray oh But they fall on deaf ears,
am I supposed to take it on myself?
To get out of this place?"

There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It's more like cold blue ice in her heart
She feels like kicking out all the windows
And setting fire to this life
She could change everything about her
Using colors bold and bright
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart..

A Sad Sad Friday..

And so, Instead of hanging out with the churchies last night since the Deen's are in Lobo, Batangas hence the Roots ain't got nowhere to hang out in, i fell asleep instead.. I have no clue on how and why this happened. The last thing i remembered was texting Anton about following wherever they are going after the chuch service and watching a low budged wannabe version of Sinbad in HBO.. Sad Sad Sad Friday..

Anyway on other things.. it's just now that it's hitting me that it's extremely difficult finding a job in my profession. Sheesh.. hard to take in but now i actually believe what the rents have been saying for the past few months.. I'm not depressed and shit don't get me wrong, it's just frustrating in a way.. Maybe i should just take that ticket the states this July and see what's in store for me back there.

Work ourselves, fingers to the bone
Suck the marrow, drain my soul
Pay your dues, and your debts
Pay your RESPECTS, everybody tells you
You pay for what you get
You pay for what you get

Everybody asks me how she's doin'
Has she all this time? i don't know
what's with her, has she lost her mind?
I said, I couldn't tell you..
I'VE LOST MINE!!

Words, words, words, have you heard
A bird in hand is much better than,
Any number free to wander
Fly away... Stay
You pay for what you get

Everybody asks me how she's doing
Is she really ok like what she says?
Everybody asks me how she's doing
I said I couldn't tell you
but I'm OK I'm OK...

Surprise, surprise
You pay for what you get

Sun will shine no matter what I do
Sun shines bright now with you
What a wonderful thing for you to do
Moon shine bright
Reflection in your eyes
A finer place he could not find

Winter's cold
Spring erases
And the calm away by the storm is chasen
Everything good needs replacing
Hope all these changes happen with you

In my life
Never before have I a lover so adored
Her eyes
Her hair
Everything she says
My delight can tickle me inside
Touch my heart
Touch my mind

No matter what's inside I'll
Give to her
No need to satisfy my hunger
Lost in her
And while I spend these hours
Five senses reeling
With biggest steps I'm running
After her I will run

No matter what's inside I'll
Give to her
No need to satisfy my hunger
Lost in her
And while I spend these hours
Five senses reeling
With biggest steps I'm running
After her I will run

After her..

Low Cut Dwayne Wade's + Removed Ankle Support + a Really Physical Game of Ball in St. Cuenca Park = Ouch.. Sprained Ligamentless Ankle and I need Ice. I really don't know what to say anymore? maybe i should seriously listen to everyone na when they say "Hoy! Take care na nga of your knees and Ankles! You know they're weak na nga and you still do all that!!"..

To the Girl: Yes, i may deny it before but now i admit it.. I'm stubborn..

Starting tomorrow i will seriously take into consideration that taking care of my ankles and knees thing.. Promise.

Anyways..
Scenario: No Lights in the court, Sprained Ankle and a game of 21 with Chase, Carlo and Ean.
Me: Chase, I can beat you in this game with only one hand..
Chase: OK GAME!

And so.. instead of just beating Chase in the game.. I ended up beating Everyone with only one hand.. Hehehe.. told you i was good..

Tonight, Live in Manila.. I'm not really a fan, and according to my ears, the Love Mysterious album is not as great as the last one. But who knows maybe right after this event they change their mind..

Quote of the day:

"You make me want to be a better man.."
- Jack Nicholson

I'm hanging on
here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
just hanging on
even though
I watched you come and go
how was I to know
you'd steal the show
one day ill have enough to gamble
ill wait to hear your final call
and bet it all
I'm hanging on
here until I'm gone
I'm right where I belong
just hanging on
even though
passed this time alone
somewhere so unknown
it heals the soul
you'll ask for walls I'll build them higher
we'll lie in shadows of them all
I'd stand but they're much too tall
and I fall
Floating in the Dark!
Temporary scars!
February stars!

Mon's Problem

So.. what's Mon's problem. I can't seem to understand or to know when "Enough is Enough". Seriously, this has been an issue with me for the past Ten years.. and to be honest with you, this shitty ass mentality get's me to more shit compared to more good shit. i mean, i seriously don't understand why i'm even like this.. some people say "maybe becaus ever since birth you've had something against authority thus the mentality is implanted in you".. but c'mon i seriously doubt that. *sips on my dr. pepper* anyways, seriousy, i should get this shit out of my head.. this shit ain't healty no more.. specially now that i'm in the verge of something unusual... i'll explain more about that when i'm not intoxicated...

ps."i'm not sure but now a days i realize that i write more personalized entries when i'm intoxicated.. hahahahahaha!! NIIIIIIICE!!! RAAAW!!!

pps. I'm starting to hate constellations and the sky up above us.. and i refuse to say why.. maybe it's the alcohol talking but who knows?! maybe i do but maybe someone else does but who knows?! maybe you do?! or maybe he or she does?! or maybe your grandmother does but i sure don't know.. when you find out please tell me..

ppps. i went to the church of st. jude the other day, and st. jude supposedly is the "patron saint of the impossible" and i prayed to him for some impossible stuff that i needed. i dunno man.. but i think i'm just to eager about getting what i prayed for but yeah, i'm hoping he pulls through! i got faith in you brudda!! i'll still be cpraying

Bored.. and these Pictures from a Softer World simply explains what's going on inside my head right now..

Please sleep, my darling, sleep.
Your cry for inspiration, never reaches ears on distant stars.
And every night our lonely planet slides ACROSS THE UNIVERSE.
And I won't pretend I understand.

Please sleep, my darling, sleep.
Your death by information won't disturb the peace on DISTANT STARS.
And even when you lock the doors and slide behind the unlit shades,
None of us are strangers anymore.

So fall asleep with the windows open.
Come to me with the worst you've said and done.
You'll close your eyes and see me.
A little death makes life more meaningful.
I stand no chance at all.

Please sleep, my darling, sleep.
Your car crash in slow motion won't upset the pace on distant stars.
And one by one our years of OUR LIVES stumble as the moments pass.
So please hold on. Please hold on.

So fall asleep with the windows open.
Come to me with the worst you've said and done.
You'll close your eyes and see me.
A LITTLE DEATH makes life more meaningful.
I stand no chance at all.

Please sleep, my darling, sleep.

>

You gotta love them constellations man..
and yes Gians, i live for the challenge..

Kobe's 43 snaps his 50 point Streak



Kobe's 43 Point performance against the Golden State Warriors snaps his 4 game 50 point streak!

MVP!! MVP!! MVP!!

I'm Bored..

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66 Questions.. Why?! I'm still Bored..

1. Single or Taken:
No Idea..
2. Happy about:
Constellations
3. Sibling/s:
Sieg, Aby and Wowiecaster
4. Eye color:
Dark brown
5. shoe size:
12
6. Height:
5'10"
7. What are you wearing right now?
Shorts and a Shirt
8. Righty or lefty:
Righty
9. Can you make a dollar in change right now:
Yes
10. Best place to go for a date:
Beach.. Terazzas

=FAVORITES=
11. Kind of pants:
Slacks
12. Number:
3,4,5,6,7,8,11,13,15,24,81,84
13. Animals:
Emperor Penguins
14. Drink(non alcoholic):
Tampico
15. Sport to watch:
Football, Basketball, Tennis, Golf
16. Month
January, May, September, October, November and December
17. Juice:
Orange
18. Favorite cartoon character:
Speedy Gonzales, Peppi the Skunk and Heckle and Jeckle

=Have You Ever...=

19. Given anyone a bath:
Yup.. Sancho my Nephew
20. Made yourself throw-up?
Probably..
21. Gone skinny dipping?
I wish..
22. Eaten a dog?
Yup
23. Loved someone so much it made you cry?
Nope
24. Broken a bone?
Nope
25. Played truth or dare?
Yup
26. Been on a plane?
Yup
27. Came close to dying?:
Yup
28. Been in a sauna?
Yup
29. Been in a hotub?
Yup
30. Swam in the ocean?
Yup
31. Fallen asleep in school?
Always
32. Ran away?
Nope.. It's Pointless
33. Broken someone's heart?
Yup
34. Cried when someone died?
Yup
35. Cried in school?
Yup
36. Fell off your chair?
Yup
37. Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?
Nope
38.Saved AIM conversations?
Yup
39. Made out with JUST a friend?
Yup
40. Used someone?
Probably
41. Been cheated on?
Nope

=What is...=

42. Your good luck charm?
The two bands i'm wearing right now
43. New fav. song?
Akon - Don't Matter
44. What is beside you?
Headphones, Ipod, Speakers, Ipod Plug, Earphones and a Table
45. Last thing you ate?
Mr. Chips
46. What kind of shampoo/conditioner:
Garnier

=Ever Had..=
47. Chicken pox:
Yup
48. Sore Throat:
Right Now
49. Stitches:
Yup
50. Broken nose:
Nope

=Do You...=
51. Believe in love at first sight?
Sometimes
52. Long distant relationships?
Sometimes
53. Like school?
Who likes school?!
54. Question?
Always
55. Who was the last person that called you?
My Mom
56. Who was the last person you slow danced with?
This girl who likes constellations
57. Who makes you smile the most?
This girl who likes constellations
58. Who knows you the best?
My Ipod and Headphones
59. Do you like filling these out:
Nope
60. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?:
I refuse to
61. Do you like yourself:
Sometimes
62. Do you get along with your family?
Most of the time

=Are You...=

63. Obsessive Compulsive?
Nope
64. Suicidal?
Nope
65. What did you do yesterday?
Jogged and Got Sick
66. Hated someone in your life?
Yup

I'd rather dance with you than talk with you. So why don't we just move into the other room? There's space for us to shake, and hey, I like this tune.. Even if I could hear what you said, I doubt my reply would be interesting for you to hear.
Because I haven't read a single book all year and the only film I saw, I didn't like it at all.

I'd rather dance, I'd rather dance than talk with you..

The music's too loud and the noise from the crowd Increases the chance of misinterpretation. So let your hips do the talking and I'll make you laugh by acting like the guy who sings and you'll make me smile by really getting into the swing..

Getting into the swing, getting into the swing..
That's why I'd rather dance than talk with you..